The truth hurts most

2007-04-24T21:43:00.000+08:00

hey fellow readers ((:

this would most likely be my last post here.
yes. if you havent heard, i've moved to livejournal. you can find me at the link below:

http://marcusklz.livejournal.com

do check it out and if you would really wana read more things about me, and find out more, add me by first creating an account for yourself. for obvious reasons, to which i have no wish to bring about, there has been a mass movement of bloggers moving from blogspot or xanga to livejournal. so do check them all out. this blog will be still be accessible, but i would not post here anymore, i would offically post from livejournal. so do take note of this change and thank you for your unfailing support, or well, for your unfailing irritatingness and loser-ish attitude to not being able to scrounge for scraps of info, scavenger.

all the best and wishing you the best ahead!
Regards!
Marcus Khoo

2007-04-16T17:44:00.000+08:00

hey people.

just wana say this short thing here for now:
TO ALL TEACHERS! yes i want you to read this. first time in history, perhaps. but anyway. teachers, i'm certain that you are human and i am VERY CERTAIN that you GOSSIP. well one note of advice? please get your facts right, as mr chng said this morning in my class. i'm sure some of you are FULLY CAPABLE of acessing student's blogs, and thats good!!!! cuz it proves to us the following points

1. you have a computer
2. you know how to USE a computer
3. you know how to type
4. you know how to search for our webs
5. you're really free and we should give you more work to do. or maybe you're just slacking?

point is, its good. but look. main issue. if you wana say something, get it right. don't assume that just because out of kindness means love. does that mean that if a 70 year old man opens the door for a 24 year old female teacher, does that mean he's in LOVE with her? and they are.notice here. does that mean they are having BGR? NO. or well man-woman relationship. i think its simply RIDICULOUS! the school is FULLY capabale of minding their own business. i'm neither afraid of any teachers coming up to me to address this issue. in fact, if you're confident and up to it, i'd not mind speaking to all of you. i think this way, we could CLEAR SOME ISSUES about ASSUMING TOO MUCH and letting the blind lead the blind. its funny. i know that this gossip started from sec3's. the teachers are therefore vicims of a gossip started by sec3's! they are CONTROLLED by this, BRAINWASHED by it, SIMPLY MISLED AND BLINDSIGHTED! its funny. i dont know who needs to talk less?

i'm not pin pointing this at anyone, i neither said any name nor insulted personally. if you take offence, thats good cuz you know that you're guilty. time to repent. you know they say ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE? yeah! c'mon teachers. dont give up just because of a bad thing you've done, afterall you're ust setting the GOOD EXAMPLES FOR US TO LEARN.....RIGHT?

anyways. i hope this stupid issue clears up. because its really funny and yeah i did laugh about it how silly teachers are, how naive they can be. hahah. right. thats all for now. will blog maybe once more later? lets see how.BYE!

2007-04-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

hey people.

its 11.56, almost a monday morning. anyways i just wana do a short blog entry. hmmms. like i have to constantly remind myself, THE EXAMS ARE SO FRIGGING NEAR! marcus realy needs to start studying and mugging because at this rate, he'll definitely be on QSST 5 days a week and by that, i mean failing practically all my subjects. let me guess. the worse would be a math -.- . now lets buy some timber and touch it. [touch wood. get it?]

arghs. ok. today was church and well it was pretty......not as what i expected it to be. i really expected more you know? like something more powerful but hmmms. i guess the annointing wasnt really targeted at me. i dont have cancer afterall, and not arthritis or anything. so hmmms. hefty pefty. ok. i dont know what i just said. lols. anyhows. church on the whole....rather saddening actually. quite a while since i have felt a little negative toward church. sighs. i dont know. it might seem like a small thing, but i'm just worried that things would go bad and that this is the starting point of that "bad experience".

ahhhhs. anyways. i've not finished all my homework and i'm so gonna be in deep trouble cum tomorrow. wait. i mean LATER ON cuz its 12 on the dot! i wonder why i'm happy. anyways. i kinda got a relapse of my sickness you know? like i didnt fully recover actually. hmmms. but i'm fine and doing well now. ((: hopefully.....that is yeah? haha. anyhows. uhhms. the play. i must blog about it. haha. yes. anyway the play, Blithe Spirit was rather mediocre. i got that level of expectancy of local productions. i mean like..what do you expect from it? surely not something like the Phantom Of The Opera. by the way, everyone is talking about the POTO you know? its like a queen's cupa tea and not you younglings. although i've watched it like goodness knows how many years ago, i've actually also forgotten it. i wont be sad if anyone has a spare ticket!! haha. fat hope eh? anyhows. the play yesterday was alright. a few parts were kinda... "chim" sort to say? and rather queer. really witty some parts too. plot was a little draggy. not really much substance but the actors covered it all up with their charm naturally. i sound weird giving this teerrible review.

anyways. i guess i'm gonna end this post here. kinda tired. school in 6 hrs time. gonna be wearing specs again! haha. yes. alrights. take care and good nights!

much love

2007-04-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

hey people.

some of you might've heard. yeah i was sick. had some viral infection in the stomach, just the whole gastro-intestinal system. couldnt digest the food and all and because of that, led to diarrohea and vomitting. yeah. it was really bad. i keep saying that its the first time in 5 years since i last vomitted. haha. imagine that. anyways. i'm much better, on the road to recovery, not a speedy one, but much better than i expected. it was a hard road, but its still ok, anyway God is always there for me......and SO ARE MY FRIENDS!

alrights. i also wana thank [why does this sound like some emmy award winning speech?] people who checked on me so much. cheryl, aurobind, jamond, chang yi, xenia, angela, ivan and the whole cg,(thx xenia for tt too) thanks to xinying for being so nice. i'm serious! haha yeahs. and well thats about all i have to thank from those who are my friends. now i also need to thank God obviously. without Him, nothing is possible. and to thank my parents so much for their unyielding care and concern they put to take care of me. ok. now this sounds like a cheap produced drama series.

anyways. i've caught hint of some old rumours. hmmms. lemme just say this. you're entitled your own opinion and whatever you'd like to entertain your mind with. in fact, whatever material you use only suggests your insolence, and nothing more. because by starting something so meagre, so childish and foolish, you've only made things clear to me that you're no better than some 70 year old auntie at the market hawking for gossip. thats all you want dont you? GOSSIP? and whether it be true or false, you just dont care, but spread? its utterly ridiculous! use your brain for goodness's sake if you even have one! if not then i care to sympathise with you.

exams are just around the corner, and its once again, uphill studying and mugging. sighs. just recovered from thsi bout of illness and now i'm faced with tonnes of revision from goodness knows when?! and i've gotta finish it in a fortnight! sighs. this is so gonna kill me! anyways. lets not fret anymore. while nursing myself at home, i watched the taped episode of desperate housewives. now let me get this clear. desperate housewives is for all audiences and not for femaales as to golf is for all and not for just males. its this common mantality that desperate housewives are ONLY and STRICTLY for females to watch. happen to notice that by thinking so, you're just displaying your ever so strong belief in sexism? anyways. the latest episode was..interesting. i didnt fancy it much, though i'd juice up the next one(no pun intended) because next week's episode's gonna be fantastic! i really hope none of them die though i'm kinda...skeptical cuz that woman[whats her name?] goes around with a gun for goodness's sake. just kill orson! arghs. anyways.

hmmms. i think i'm rattling some kinda weird language to some of you. haha yeah? and i guess its time to stop too. its 11.05 now and hmmms. yeah. anyways i wana wish everyone the best for tml's NAPFA or PFT cuz its quite a handful that skipped the other day's PFT. besides my sister's also running hers. i wonder whats she gonna get. hmmmms. LOL. alrights. i guess i shall end off here. i still need prayers. keep it coming and yes. to anyone, if i forgot to thank you, i'm truly appologetic and hope you continue keeping me in prayer. thank you so much!

much love

2007-04-08T23:02:00.000+08:00

hey people. its been exactly a week since i've last blogged. i'm really sorry havent really found the strength and want to blog. i dont know why, its like i'm just losing my energy in life. its like i dont have any strength to start with, its really odd. i've never really felt this kinda.....feeling. its like. i'm empty.

anyway. there was a party yup? and yes. its been birthdays recently. to zheng yan, yong chang, sara haniz, leslie, shi ying, and constance, happy birthday to you all! yes. thats quite a lot. whole mouth full. anyhows. on friday it was really fun. the whole shopping thing with jiamin as well. yeah. and then yesterday, chuch it was alright. had lots of tuition before that. kinda was brain dead and like i said, i feel so empty, i seriously was like stoning if not for angela and some others who kinda, kept me company. hmmm just wana thank you (: anyhows, yes. that was yesterday. boring? i assume so too.

anyhows. today wasnt much better. had my hair cut and did work. quite productive. did all the e math revision worksheets. uhh yeah. and then also did chem work, but i left my bio group study stuff in school. oh wel. that means that i've gotta complete it during lesson time tomorrow! yeahs. then came back home and went rollerblading with xenia. she fell and hmmms. sighs. a huge cut. hope it heals fast. yeah. and then now here i am, reciting my boring happenings that wernt so happening to you. cuz its really dull, i admire the person who's reading this.

anyways. the mid years are in 2 weeks time. its really stressful. sighs. i dont know how i'm gonna go through it all. really. sigh. anyways. i've got like lots to do before it comes. which means that i've gotta get down to mugging like soon. REAL soon. in fact, perhaps i should be more anti-social and start mugging tommorow.

anyways. i'd like to recommend you people 2 new songs. the first one is Vanessa Hudgen's Say Ok. its an AWESOME song. i love her songs. just somehow. this one really makes you feel so..drifted. you feeel like you're not on earth. it takes you to another place. next would be Ciara's Like A Boy. yes. you might have heard of it, i love the rhythm she sings with and the beat, the percussion its..really different. makes you just wana groove to it. jive it. anyhows. i just saw hilary duff's video for With love. hmmmms. i didnt expect her to come out with that vid. its not mind blowing like some kinda raunchy thing, but its very mature. didnt expect it from her. anyways. she's growing up too. its obvious.

i just wana let you know that
be careful what you're telling people.
cuz half the time, its the wrong thing
and half the time, you're in public;
showing off your skills. maybe be more discreet?
be less oblivious maybe? watch what you do.
take care, cuz its not something anyone'll cry over
it just marks your sluttishness. your bitchiness.
you might'nt know this but you're denser than u think u are.
so fill those brain cells with some fuel - truth, not lies.
find out truth and stop hiding it all, cuz the more u hide,
the more lies there are, the more shit ur gonna get into.
so, piece of advice? fuck off, shake off that attitude.
just be normal from now, show the world what you really are.
dont put that face on, cuz it's not gonna last, humilate yourself not,
cuz we know your true character - your everything.

2007-04-01T18:40:00.000+08:00

hey people.

its been quite a while since i last blogged. anyways. that was merely 2 days ago i think? yeahs. anyways. Church was good yesterday. it was really inetesting. yeah. i've got the charasmatic style dudes and dudettes (: so yeahs. anyways. EASTER IS COMING AND MY CHURCH IS HAVING 5 SERVICES! attached is the invite! i would love ANYBODY who is interested to CONTACT ME AT: marcusklz@hotmail.com letting me know that you'd love to come. ((: it'll be fun and awesome and there'll be a drama production! its gonna be awesome! ANYBODY WHO CAN MAKE IT PLEASE DO COME!

the timings are:

6th April(Friday) - 5P.M

7th April(Saturday) - 4.30P.M and 7.30 P.M*

8th April(Sunday) - 10A.M* and 1.30 P.M

*= simultaneously interpreted into mandrin.

they will be held at Singapore Expo Hall 8. so PLEASE DO COME!

anyways. school is tomorrow. its gonna be sucky. Napfa's this thursday for crying out loud! arghs. anyways. FRIDAY'S GOOD FRIDAY AND ITS GONNA BE AWESOME IN CHURCH! i'm attending any service if any friends are going for it. if it means attending all 5, i'm up for it. (: ANYTHING FOR THE LORD! alrights. before you think i've gone psycho, let me share with you my boring life.

homework. ALL not done yet. only done chinese. thanks xenia (:. and done chemistry paper and biology paper. thats all. haven done my a math. i browsed through and realised that i forgot half of everything -.- sighs. anyways. its gonna be tough today. but i gotta finish it all. so SIGHS and lets go.

till here

see you

tak care see you all!

2007-03-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

hey people.

its been a rather letharic day today. really kinda superficial in every aspect. nothing interesting really happened. anyways. its thursday - the day with 2h20 mins of math consecutively. anyways. it was terrible duh. and the last period was lit. was kinda.."fun" cuz nush and i kinda kept making fun or aka many people "suan-ning" him. anyways. it was really cool. and then had my chinese remedial. copied corrections till my hand ached. wang ying was in a bad mood. yeah.

alrights. then i stayed back cuz i was BORED SICK..really seriously nothing to do. anyhows. was in 405 classroom. qi, melin, ying hui,zhi rong, hong yun and linh. after like an HOUR, jun xian came. see i told you i was bored. they were having their CCA thing. hydroponics. anyways. they were writing a report and it was FUNNY haha. especially hong yun's group. zhi rong bitched about the prefects. and i shared his sentiments(the ones i had long ago, yes they're still the same. lousy that is..yeah)

anyways. something DID happen that made me furious. Kelman, Wei Jing sould know about it. i mean like of ALL people her?! NO WAY IF SHES COMING OKAY! c'mon we're not even FRIENDS so what if she can speak jap. its just NOT happening okay! what was HE even thinking? arghs. dismayed. sighs. life just has to be that unfair doesnt it? gosh. i'm starting to sound like mr chng! and his silly unfair thing about life. -.-

anyhows. i'm going back to old songs like Diana DeGarmo's Emotional, and Reachin' For Heaven. i think not many songs have come out of her and i doubt she's gonna stick to singing solely. clearly, shes not making money. anyways. i also downloaded some new songs. one's Home by Chris Daughtry. yes. its quite a nice song you know! haha. and Kie Wu would say that Beautiful Liar is great. i dont exactly fancy it. i dont like many Shakira songs. i'm just not digging her. lols. yes.

anyways. i think i'm failing 3 subjects tis month. its depressing. that means 21 points already for goodness's sakes. sighs. i am so gonna give up in a while. lets just see if mrs toh gives up on me first. i feel that if a teacher gives a white form, its like giving up on their student. cuz they're so...HOPELESS they need a stupid form to control their life. its ridiculous. i mean how IRONICAL can they get? no more paper? and they print o many freaking forms?! its the most idiotic thing that goes against each other.

and look. the science lab drawers are now locked. they INSTALLED locks. and they re-painted the whole school right? cant they spend the money on a few more reams of paper? its so silly. really. STUPID. sighs. does the school have so much money? or have they lost focus? maybe its blurred by the number of years its been FUNCTIONING.its ok, cuz we can change that you know? just close the damn school down and it'll be solved.

anyways. i guess thats all i have for you all!
see you next time!
much love!

2007-03-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

hey people.

today's been rather stuck up. a terrible day for my life to screw up. i'm like a major screw up. and for those who are reading this and are agreeing to what i said with great happiness, then my message to you go eff yourself cuz you've got nothing better to do, and you're simply inhuman. not inhumanE but inhuman. yes.

woke up earlier today. was supposed to have tuition. but then the teacher was sick and thus didnt come. so i just slackked online. and well. yeah. got some new songs. some awesome songs. caught up with fanny. havent talked to her in like a few months! anyways. i'll introduce the new songs or really nice songs to you later.

got down to work. finished chinese zuo ye. thank you wen li ((: much help you did provide. and i went to revise for chemistry. sighs. this week is hell man. i dont know how long i'm gonna sustain any longer this agony. anyways went on to do my school chem work, for group study. and yeah. was on reduction, oxidation blahs. hmms. yeahs. anyways i have failed to complete mr chng's and mrs toh's math homework. i've got so much! and tests are on tuesday and wednesday respectively! arghs. tomorrow i've gotta study for chem and bio test as well as e math test! arghs. i could DIE like seriously.

anyways. at like 5.30 i got ready to go to town for jeng ting's celebration. anyways i was about to go out where the cab was waiting when i couldnt find my wallet. i panicked like SERIOUSLY. i feel insecure without my wallet. its like those few things you HAVE to have with you. like a handphone, wallet, music and those stuff? yeah. anyways. i panicked and told my parents that i couldnt find it! then they helped. georgina was liek waiting in the cab and i was taking like 10 mins to find it and in the end i COULDNT find it! sighs. so i just took some cash off my dad. haha. yes. anyways. got really pissed with my mom. scolded some swear phrases. like i mean she couldnt help by saying stuff like "I think you lost it" it doesnt help you know?! arghs. anyways.

went to Jack' Place and waitied for elisa and rach to come and they took like ages. anyways got started and we had an awesome meal. it was really funny. haha. anyways. we went to esplanade after that and me without my wallet, suffered so much. anyways we took this one nice pic and 2 weird pics which we kept laughing at yeah. haha. anyways. george rach and i tried coming home by cab but NO CABS WERE AVAILABLE. like HELLO!? arghs. anyways we took a bus after 25 mins of waiting, and so i reached home at 10.45. arghs. anyways. it was rather fun so far.

on the bus i realised my freaking iPod's left speaker had spoilt. like OMFG can you stop doing this? i am like screwing up everything! i need a new earphone now. arghs. sighs. anyways. now to introduce those new songs to you which are oh so awesome.

1. some of you may know, thnks fr th mmrs, by Fall Out Boy. its an awesome song. yes. really.
2. I Don't Love You, by My Chemical Romance. this song is really good REALLY good! haha.
3. Sophia, by Nerina Pallot. its a sentimental, nice song. you can sleep to it.
4. Invisible Life, by Ashley Parker Angel. i'm guessing its an old song, but its still nice. ((:
5.You Set Me Free, Michelle Branch. its an old one, but still really nice.
6. Because Of You, by Ne-Yo. its an awesome song. i love his songs. they're superb.
7. All The Same, by Sick Puppies. its a new band to me, but i like this one. its raw.
8. Feel So Alive, by Ashley Parker Angel. it another awesome DEJA-VU--ish song. haha.
9. Ice Box, by Omarion. its a song i heard some time ago, but its nice. the chorus. nice and fast
10.I Wana Have Your Babies, by Natasha Bedingfield. if you hear KIE WU singing it, you know he's singing thise song not meaning it. ~~thank goodness right?~~ i dont really jive i much. though.
11. Keep Your Hands Off My Girl, Good Charlotte. its a rather new-old song. but its nice. i started accepting its style. it sounds punkish.
12. The Carpel Tunnel Of Love,Fall Out Boy. its their next single. really ncie too. esp the chorus.
13. Girlfriend,Avril Lavigne. have you heard it? its BIMBOTIC! haha. but its for those who miss her, that Avril who everyone needs more of ((:

That's all!
i'll edit this post to put in some colours.
cuz right now, i'm rather bored. and rather tired.
if anyone wants to lend me a pair of earphones, i'd thank you so much for it. i'll be too busy to buy a new one right now. sighs. stress me out more please.

till then
much love

2007-03-25T01:04:00.000+08:00

hey people.

didnt do well for my tests. i'm really hoping i dont get some kinda stupid talk from mrs toh. i would have already failed chinese and comb hummanes. i wonder how i'd fair in the tests next week. e and a math tests. sighs. anyways.

went to church. kinda....boring today. dont know why. anyways i missed school this morning. i dont know, other than the fact i overslept, i kinda had a already bad mood enough. anyways. i just didnt have a very good day. been rather mixed in my thinking and emotions.

met my parents at town and went for dinner at N.Y.D.C and then came back, caught barath online and kinda bitched to him about certain teachers. i mean. its fucking normal. anyways. yeah.

i've been very confused recently.
wondered what i should do.
i'm stuck.
have you never noticed?
its a trap you obliviously set
a spell of your deciet
a work of your indecisiveness
your insensetivity
i wonder day by day who you really are
disposing thoughts that are negative
keeping you in good light
hoping for a turnaround
but cover-ups are all that seem to surface
lies, deciet, wrongful things.
thats all i see.
nothing more.
maybe it just is what is left.
nothing.
maybe you're just empty.
an empty vessel deceiving everyone.
oh well. good luck then.
farewell this vessel will not stay
it shall sail and never come back
and when it comes when you're sinking.
just beg for forgiveness and maybe it would,
come back. and save your from your self-doing
otherwise it would just fly, away and never turn back
a bid i wave, i greet a new age, a new life, a new dream, a new hope, a new - me

2007-03-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

although my case isnt as serious as some others,
i jsut wana say sorry to anyone who i have inevitably hurt
or insulted in one way or another. if it was deliberate, i truly am sorry.
if it was underlying, then maybe you'd like to clarify it with me
so that i can get a better understanding of you POV. otherwise,
i guess i'll be left with nothing at all.

loathsome i might be
detestful so am i
disliked, just as much
piksome, all the more
should i jsut vanish
for your sake?

2007-03-20T22:47:00.000+08:00

hey people.

hmmmms. sometimes the world doesnt seem to see more important things than just finding fault in people. i wonder. is there a link between the victim and his/her friends? yes i'm very well refering to Kie Wu's blog. to account for the post i made, i think its fine to use vulgarities once in a while, its human nature. however, i dont think its really appropriate to use it on someONE, rather, on someTHING. used as a descriptive or measure word. or of course an object of some sort. however, i think it can be fun to argue at tagboards and all. its a form of entertainment (:

anywyas. i'm sure people read my blog and have opinions on my views OBVIOUSLY. and if you think its important, do let me know. i know some teachers do read my blog (wink....)? haha. and well i guess my view on NIE teachers. there are some who are really good. they have this passion. and some just dont have the right style and approach. i mean we could correct them, but to what extent will they take our opinion on their teaching style if they see us as STUDENTS. some teachers treat us a their collegaues. thats more condusive. anyways. lets move on.

i didnt do that well for my combined humannes. in fact i did BADLY. i got 5/13 for SS and 10/25 for lit. with an overall of like 40/100. i'm gonna do badly this month. i'm fearing that i'll get into trouble. oh well. praying hard for my chinese. hoping that i didnt fail. and english! arghs. oh anyways. i guess i've got little to write now. will end off here.

see you all!
much love!

2007-03-18T03:07:00.000+08:00

hey people.

its been a long day. and still is long. anyway. today was church. it was awesome. i really felt His presence strongly. it was amazing. it was like wow. you know? okay. anyways really, other than church, its been terrible. i kinda just did work and slaccked once in a while. anyways. got quite emotional at the start of the day but its ok. anyways its 3.09 a.m now. i just finished studying bio stuff. its been strenous.

i just felt really neglected. drugs cause you( in the long run) to neglect your families, friends and close people. but it seems like 1. either i'm on drugs or, 2. all my friends are on drugs. i dont know. seems like poeple dont naturally like me. hmmmms. why? am i too arrogant? i dont think so cuz i used to be worse. i dont think i'm THAT boring ok. everyone has their qualities as a person. maybe i dont mete everyone's expectations as a friend. i seem to be losing one friend after another. i get lied to. c'mon i wasnt born yesterday. i AM SENSETIVE and i can tell when you turn your back on me, dont act as if you really do care. cuz i know you dont so stop it. dont pretend. we knew each other for so long and if that means nothing to you, then just get lost cuz i dont need a fake friend. a friend is someone there for you who cares for you. and i dont see that coming.

i know he's better than anything. its been a blessing to have had me huh. hmmm. well i think he's a greater blessing. perhpas from God cuz everytime it seems to work out. but anyway. i just felt that i cant keep it locked up. i know things. perhas somethings that you dont know i know. its shcoking that you, of all people would commit such "slutty" things, but oh well i keep telling myself you're human. a friend i'll try to be, but just make sure you send the right signs. be clear in your decisions and actions dont be so indecisive. you're sending many people the wrong signs. you're making people fall for something you dont wana be. its dangerous. you'l find yourself in trouble in the end.

and for those who still care tonnes for me, if you have really shown it, i'd have noticed it, whether i've recognised it publically or not, i do know. thank you all this while. its ben great. i've been through so much these months and i dont know when this suffering will end. but i know that it will. i've made millions of wrong decisions. and i will emerge and learn from them and beat the odds, you'll see. and well to those friends who've strayed. if its possible, i really hope that a friendship can rekindle but if you detest me as it already is, then i've got no option but to hope that you do come back.

anyway. this is way too depressing. i'll end of here.
see you all!

2007-03-17T00:27:00.000+08:00

hey people.

yesterday's been rather. stupid. went to town, met up with daryl and dominic. also met ashley. anyways. daryl, dom and i watched Blood Chocolate. its quite a good movie. i think its sinister in the fact that you dont feel satisfied after watching cuz it just didnt really overwhelm you. its like..light. you know? like PEPSI LITE? its like that. PLOT IS SO LIGHT. it doesnt exactly captivate you. anyways. i'd give it a 2.5 over 5. isnt that too bad but isnt that fantastic either.

Anyways i did some shopping and yeah. didnt get anything. did i amaze some people? well. okays. fine. but it ISNT the first time i havent bought anything when i go out OKAY! haha. well i did. A BOOK. Thomas Harris's newest book, Hannibal Rising. i intend to read that, then Hannibal, then Silence of the lambs then Red Dragon. but first i'll finish Eldest. i've not made progress this holiday cuz i've been slaccking most of the time as you'll find out the effects much later.

anyways. lotsa great movies coming out this year and some great books alright! of course i'm talking about J.K Rowling's books and the anticipated flim: Order of the Phoenix! anyways its due later this year. Also, on the list is Pirates of the carribiean 3 and Spiderman 3. awesome movies. oh did you know shrek 3 is coming out too? hmmmm. since when RIGHT? and.. Rush Hour 3 too! oh wow. there are like millions of movies with their third installments due this year. its gonna be a whack!

oh yeah. not that i wanted to remind myself, there is also something to NOT look forward to? its called the General Certificate Examinations - Ordinary Level (Nov) or well. in my case, OCTOBER..... -.- anyways i heard from someone that the news reported that our batch still has the double intake. i'm kinda...shocked? i dont know. i thought we had only a single intake? anyways they reported that the single intake will only take effect cum 2009! anyways. whatever it is, its still O LEVELS!

Church is later! and its gonna be awesome! haha. yes. i cant wait for Church! haha. anyways. before you start thinking i've lost my mind, let me tell you about my progress on homework:

1. i've got 15 things on my "to do list" before school re-opens
2. half of them i detest even looking at.
3. TODAY IS SATURDAY and i still have not got down to doing it.
4. i've run out of things to say.
5. oh its 12.39 a.m. not that it has anything to do with this but yeah. that was SUPER random.

sighs. i'm starting to feel a little tired. i've been digging old songs, listening to their lyrics closely. What's left of me by Nick lachey still captivates me. its such a beautiful song. and... amazingly, Evanescence's songs still are amazing. i was listening to My Immortal 2 days ago when i was having my dental and i started getting chills. it was super freaky. like it meant something else. i mean the song talks about this girl who lost her guy and all she has is a memory, and he'll alwyas just be...lets say a "spirit". but i looked at it from a different POV. and i thought. "omg. its literature" anyways. it really made me feel kinda...teary and all but thats alright. i went for dental. OH YES DENTAL!

okays. the SILLY IDIOTIC ORTHODONTIST! he is such a clumsy idiot! haha. he hurt my mouth THRICE! like once, when turning the lower bond, he like used that "two-pronged" thing and twisted my side of my lip i was like OW!!! and then another, he was removing the upper wire, he used that sharp thing and he like came down upon my lower lip and it made me JUMP IN MY CHAIR! like OMFG IT HURT! haha. anyways. i felt like my mouth was full of blood! arghs. anyways. he added 2 bonds to my molars, and he changed the bottom wire, and changed the rubber band stuff. its still transparentish as ever, thought it may look whitish-yellowish. yes.

anyways. i think i've rattled quite a fair bit and i'm really lasy to colour code those BOLD and IMPORTANT words haha. but anyways. I JSUT WANA THANK EVERYONE WHO HAS VISITED THIS STUPIDLY BORING BLOG THAT IS SO FULL OF SHIT. REALLY BEEN NICE TO THINK THAT YOU GUYS CAME AND CARED ABOUT ME! ((: ~~OR WELL SO IT SEEMS.......................~~ HAHA. ANYWAYS. THANK YOU EVERYONE AND DO TAG IF YOU COME SO I'D KNOW ((: AND YES. TRULY TOUCHED!

alrights. thats all
see you all!
much love

2007-03-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

its been a terrible day. everything has gone wrong for me, life doesnt cease to get any better. sighs. tuitions, remedials, work just piling one by one. sometimes you wish you never had been born. have you ever shouted at your parents why they gave birth to you? yeah. doesnt that sound familir? have your parents ever scolded you for being so rude and you replied that you learnt it from them and you inhereited those genes from them? hmmms. sounds familiar. ok. i'm sidetrackking. its just been really sad and bad day. tomorrow's just gonna get worse. i just hope my dental doesnt go bad anyway that'll be a might saver. sighs. i havent actually finished much homework. my freaking laptop's spoilt. like sigh. i should just stop suffering. like when will it happen? sighs.

anyways. dont get worried. i'll be just fine. yeahs. i just need to get this bad mood blown over. should be alright in a day's time. yeahs. anyways. i hope i dont sound super emotional up there. made an effort not to. (: arrites. see you all. byes.

2007-03-12T10:49:00.000+08:00

hey people.
trying to log into the silly browser: heymath. and it just cant work. the server's lagging really badly. anyways i think i'm just gonna skip it. no point in trying anyways. alrights. woke up really early today. woke up at 9.15 in ainticipation of the test but oh well. anyways. tuition was at 10.30 but its 10.49 now. i think i'm not going sighs. this is stressful! arghhhs. anyways. there's loads of work online to be done this "holiday" and yeahs.

using the new software by microsoft: vista. and well i think its a super sophisticated software, its really cool. but thank goodness there aint an viruses yet. haha. yeahs. anyways. last saturday, Sy Roger's testimony/speech was really intriuging. it made me wonder what am i really setting and putting first. like do i put God first? anyways. it was rather cool.

its approaching 11 and i cant log in still. oh well. never mind. anyhows. Nernia Pallot has some nice new songs. Learning to breathe. and one more. i cant remember. Omarion has a new single called Ice Box. i do kinda like it a bit. have you caught Jojo's new vid? and Diddy and Keyshia Cole's new video as well? you should quite cool. esp Jojo's its really nice. last night isnt much a nice song and vid. boring actually.

alrights. this week's gonna be stressful still. got tuitions packd fully and i need to go back to school!!! arghs. anyways. i'll end off here! and well wishing you the best in everything you do!

Regards
marc

2007-03-05T21:16:00.000+08:00

hey people.

today's a monday! and its been a rather sad and depressing monday. let me bore you with what happened today and what has caused this terrible sadness.

firstly, my progress report. my L1R5 sucks. its like 23. -.- thanks lahs. sighs. i didnt expect my e math to drop from A1 to B3 cuz he didnt include one test. )): sighs. oh wells. cant do much anyways. secondly, toady's e math test was super hard. it was like WTH! i couldn't do like half the paper. sighs. i'm so in shit. and my day just got worse cuz there was lit and mr kung came in and teached some bullshit stuff. i was so deprived of basic joy. i was seriously dying there okay... like KILL ME.... and it didnt really get any better during geog with mrs tan droning away. like omg. the whole day turned out badly. and then i thought "what could get worse than this? nothing....." and to my HORROR it took a turn after lunch which i so happily had. it was bio group study and mr ma was killing us AGAIN. he nagged at us being late blah blah not doing this not doing that wasting time blah blah but wait. isnt he the one taking up the most time by nagging for 15 mins when he can teach using that "PRECIOUS TIME"?! i mean like mentally retarded? yeah.

school SERIOUSLY has been getting worse for me. especially when you have like nothing to really look forward to everyday. isnt that what sucidices feel? that they have nothing to look forward to? ahhs. dont worry. even if i jump down you'll just see me in hospital and admitted to IMH for being mentally retared by jumping from the 2nd storey attempting suicide. -.- sighs. anyways. geog students from GORUP C! remember that there is ppt preperation this thursday for fridays presentation! okays. and well. tomorrow's chem test. wednesday's english test. thursday and friday is FREE SO FAR.... yeahs. kill me if theres stuff on lahs. sighs.

anyways i got some cool songs here. some rather old to some people. Carrie Underwood's next single titled Wasted is an awesome song. its really melodious. she does many of those stuff. whats that called? interval things. yeahs. its sound like melodious! anyways. there's also Panic! at the disco's song which yes, has been around for a while already. its titled "Lying is the most fun a girl can have (without taking her clothes off)" super long song name but its good. the chorous that is. yeahs. also have a listen to Avril Lavigne's new track titled Girlfriend. these songs are on the IMEEM playlist. so just click them to play (: anywyas. i guess thats all for now.

aites. till i go crazy.
byes!
desperate housewives 3rd season premiring today

2007-02-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

hey people.

gonna do a post on my results. hmmms. this month's been pretty terrible and pretty good at the same time. its shocking and super scary bout how your results can change for the worse so fast! anyways. the a math test was SUPER difficult! i'm really afraid of failing it! i mean that test. if i pass, then would get like a 60 odd over 100 for a math. so quite safe ((: and e math i think i got a distinction as well. yeahs. anyways.

Chem: 16/35. DAMN i didnt pass out the file! and i didnt finish the DAMN paper. especially the freaking last question. it was a giveaway! 3 marks lost like that! arghs.
Bio: 18/25

Sc(Chem/Bio): 59/100

Chinese: 55/120 = 46/100 DAMN! arghs. fail lahs.

Geography: 58/100. really expected better results. damn.

English: 78/100. quite happy about this ((: but surely could've done better.

A Math[2 tests. only know one]. Differentation: 20/20. ROC and Approx test results not known. MUST PASS!!!! ARGHHS!

E Math: online test: 17/20
written test: 18/25
Total:35/45 = 78/100

i guess i'll be getting 2 A1's this month that is like so cool cuz its been AGES since i got A1's anyways. i'm going hyseterical about my results. ARGHS! thank GOODNESS there's no lit and SS marks this time. but next month. ARGHS. kill me! haha.

anyways. i'm loving Dixie Chick's Not Ready To Make Nice. its a SUPER AWESOME song! uhh yeahs. i guess that's all!

2007-02-25T19:35:00.000+08:00

hey people.
decided to blog despite the heavy load of work!!

a math test tomorrow on approximations,rate of change,maximum and minimum(the completing the square thing) and quadratic inequalities/roots of an eqn/equations. and i'm SO GONNA FAIL IT!!!! which means that gotta stay back the whole week REMEMBER?! arghs. this is super depressing lahs.

anyways. lemme share with you the singaporean attitudes, c'mon i dont look like an evil person who'd solicit money from the public for MYSELF. firstly, i OBVIOUSLY am not that kinda person. ~~secondly i wont do such a STUPID thing cuz i wont earn much~~. ((: haha. lastly, those UGLY SINGAPOREANS are just SUPER TERRIBLE [and for a lack of a better word,they're] UGLY!!!!

scenario: orchard road's streets. alright. flag day so what. c'mon if i were the person i wouldn't have fished out my wallet to put a coin in or something you know. its rather inconvenient. so, if you see someone, just smile and shake your head, say no thanks, i've got no spare change or something. this woman LOOKED AT ME AND QUICKENED HER PACE. c'mon don't be so...URGHS you know?! this is really disgusting. i got to say that the person who might donate the most are the people you won't always guess would. now i did flag day like 2 years ago, but its totally different cuz this time it was like for me. [last time was helping my friend]. damn. this is so bullshitty.

oh wells. anyways. let me introduce you 2 songs: the first one would be Katherine McPhee's Over It. its AMAZING! its so good! and next song would be Jennifer Hudson's One Night Only. i love the tune, but her voice is so FEROCIOUS and terrorising! haha. okays fine i exxagereated whatever. haha.

xinying, i don't envy your stupidness by saying you dont have IC cuz thats a total LIE! haha. next, YOU DON'T TAKE BUS?! ahaha. you kidding me?! haha. thats more like ME okays. lol. haha. kie wu my bitch, lets fail together. jolyn, if you wana join kie wu and i, please do ((: MICHELLE!!DON'T DO WELL OKAYS! arghs. and then there's me. i dont wana estimate my failure this month. its just gonna be terrible. )): anyways. yeahs.

well i gotta get going. still have lots of work. E math vectors worksheet, literature, a math heymath worksheets, english compo on leadership. its super CRAPPY! arghs. anyways. shall end off here.

much love
and take care!

2007-02-23T20:23:00.000+08:00

hey people.
just wana thank "passer-by" for making the comment about Hannibal Rising being the sequal. Yes, its a prequal actually, however its like the star wars trilogy, where the later books were written first whilst the earliest was writeen last. the book was actually released last year. i'm sure its gonna be fantasic. however its NC-16 so sighs. damnit why couldn't i have been born in january?! arghs.

Book Update:
next, Eldest is a FANTASTIC book! the plot is just glueing! its super! its like. wow. anyways go check it out if you're really SO free! haha.

Movie Update:
just arriveed home from orchard. saw the chingay(sp?) thing. but didnt stay for it. anyways watched Dream Girls. let me do my little review:
1. i HATE jennifer hudson.
2. beyonce is HAWT!
3. the movie is ONLY for those who LOVE MUSIC/LOVE ONE/MANY CHARACTERS
4. i'll overall rate it 3.5
5. there's loads of music. and they're good
6. i know why they chose jennifer hudson, cuz she fits the role(watch the movie and you'll know what i mean) and also they need someone to SING those terribily low and rough parts.

aites. i think jennifer hudson didnt fit the role, but oh wells. i was in love with beyonce's singing and yeahs. anyways. do watch it. norbit is NC16. like WHY?! i dont know..really. its quite silly. and then uhhms. yeahs.

Muisc update:
i'm liking old songs! 1. Stand Up For Love by Destiny's Child. 2. Angels Brought Me Here by Guy Sebestian(Aust Idol 1)

Avril Lavigne's new album is coming out this year, in fact her new single is gonna be released on TRL next week! the track name? "Girlfriend"! so do head over to a A.L fansite to get a listen!

Also, Hilary Duff's new album is also set to be out this year. i think in March. yeahs. do try to get some info if you're a fan of H.D!

Katherine McPhee's new songs are quite nice. in fact, even her old songs that i found are just as great. she has a really good approach at doing them songs. yeahs.

i think Beyonce's still an awesome singer. she's just got it. don't know why but she just is so cool and really good. anyways. yeahs.

Life Update:
Hmmms, tomorrow happens to be flag day. )): oh wells. who really does care ANYWAY....lols. hmmms. i'm gonna be doing it with michelle and yi hui. so yeahs. probably meeting some people thereafter. yeahs. anyways. life's been rather boring as of now, nothing really much going on. lotsa assumptions though, its not hate thats going on, its unbelief. but anyways. lets not discuss such a depressing issue. i cashed in my CNY 'earnings' and left some for Church so yeahs. [don't know why i'm telling you this....lols] I NEED TO SHOP LIKE SERIOUSLY i'm so deprived of clothes! arghs. c'mon gimme a break! haha. tests are super stressful okays! oh wells. i guess i'm done here. but jsut one last thing:

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY XINYING!!!

2007-02-21T18:39:00.000+08:00

hey people.

today school resumed and well. kinda.. terrible in that sense cuz its just like: suddenly you get this whole load of stress thrown onto your back AGAIN. ~~did you know stress kills sperms?!~~ well anyways. i conclude Mr Ma is sick, and he's a terrible teacher. he's SUPER SICK! aurghs. anyways if you wana know why, just ask me, i shan't brainwash young minds. ((:

now now, dont come asking me how much i collected this CNY cuz you obviously know i wont mutter a word ((: and don't assume its a lot cuz for all you know i could've collected only $50 bucks ((: wait. thats sadistic. let me put a different face: ))): alrights. this is RETARDED anyways. today had the geog test. fisrt section was 12 MCQ questions. kinda...tricky. and then the next section was the essay question. 13 marks. i hopw i score well in that section! i really need to do well for geog!!! arghs. anyways. there's chem test and chinese test tomorrow. then next monday, there's the a math test and next week is S.S test. i hope its on wednesday cuz i dont wana study so early! arghs. anyways. i'm ranting so much sometimes its so boring and retarded...... ~~not that you're not retarded like C'MON! who do you think you're kidding..[smirks]you?fancy not being retarded?! dream on!~~ anyways. i'm really hoping i do well in my coming tests. i wana do really well (: haha. is that real or WHAT?!?! ahahas.

anywyas. i'm currently reading Eldest. the vocabulary usage is quite extensive. its really quite cool ((: and then The Silence of the lambs, the sequal to it, Hannibal Rising is coming out. but people don't seem very interested in that book. but anyways. i'll leave it as it is, have fun reading ((:

alrights.
tomorrow there's 4 periods of math, just pure fun! sighs. and anyways afterall, its secondary 4! ): but its just gonna keep getting harder and harder. anyways. lets not spoil the rest of the LNY/CNY! have fun!!!! ~~and do remember to keep some for me aites (:~~

2007-02-19T13:35:00.000+08:00

hey peoples.
hows the "bai-nian-ing" going? haha. well its pretty boring on my side. )): and i've not exactly reached my TARGET!!! ((((: but i shan't disclose the numbers lest you feel i'm greedy and terrible in nature cuz i'm "super nice" right? gahahs. anyways. these past 2 days went around to my uncle's auntie's places, well more of grandparent's lahs. like on the eve, went to my dad's mom's place and my uncles and aunt's were there so yeahs. and my g'ma's so generous this year! hahaha. she's SUPER nice! haha.

and my dad and mom this year super nice too (((: anyways. uhhms. this CNY has been rather realising to me. in the fact that its not like normal. i dont know what it is, but it seems rather... hmmms. different i dont know how to describe it. anyways over these days since i was so bored... like SOOOOO BORED!!! i watched 4 movies. rather freaky one is.

1. The Silence Of The Lambs:
this movie features Jodie Foster. yes she's really good. especially when the movie was such a long time ago. anyways the story's rather chilling and freaky. it talks about cannibalism, and psychopaths, lotsa mention of genius schiznophrenia. i hope i got that word right? haha. anyways its rather scary. as in what humans can do to another human. anyways i shall leave the story to you. other than the bloodiness, its fasinating!

2. The Covenant:
Yeahs. that movie that came out last year. Girls, the guys are really hot. and guys, there is lotsa cool stuff about "the power" they mention. the girls arent a huge thing in here. the lead girl, forgot her name though, she appears really often in other movies, nothing really awesome but the plot's kinda cool. though i felt it rushed through at certain parts. its like Troy, you know a huge storyline and its a LONG movie, but it rushed through despite the airtime. otherwise, relatively cool.

3. S.W.A.T:
yes the rally old one featuring Samuel L. Jackson and Colin Farrell. damn. i dont really like Colin, did i get his name right? lols. anyways its rather a cool plot how everything goes. That girl's really cool. i kinda do crush her attitude and aura of reaction. really cool. anyways i'd really advice people to watch this one. its like an insight to see what SWAT does in the U.S and whether CIA is cool and good enough to match up to their standards. furthermore, singapore? do they even stand a chance? ahha. dream on s'pore!

4. The Butterfly Effect 2:
well this movie's M18 so unless you can get someone to borrow it for you, or approach me and see if its on loan, otherwise have fun ((: anyways. this is by far the second best movie i watched while the first would've been The Covenant. The Butterfly Effect 2 is really cool. it talks about how this guy goes back to change his past and this affects his future. however, his future is affected so much that he loses the things he really wants and treasures. anyhows, let me just say, its REALLY GOOD! haha. yeahs. go catch it (:

alrights! i bought three books: They are:
1: The Silence Of The Lambs. yes! Ms B recommended it and though i've not got started cuz i cant decide which book to start on first.
2. Checkmate. Seriously i think this is the worst book i chose.
3. Eldest!!! Yes! the sequal to ERAGON! haha. yeahs. i think so far its fantastic. i've started on this already. so yeahs.

MUSIC!
really jiving to some new and old songs. the newer ones would be John Legend's P.D.A(We just don't care) i love the BIRDGE! its the best tuney thing ever! aha. and then there's Jordan Pruitt's Jump To The Rhythm and Outside Looking In. the old ones would be Starlight by Muse and MCR's Famous Last Words. yeahs. thats about all.

anyways. i think i've overcome my temporary bordem. now, later i've got some more "bai-nian-ing" but after that would be going to OCC to GOLF....how fun is that MICHELLE MY DEAR?? kill me lahs. )): anyways. this post goes out to all those who are SO bored. you've sucessfully completed you course of UN-BOREDEM-MENT!!! [eg. Michelle Ling (:] alrights. till here my darlings

much love!

2007-02-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

hey people.

been a while since i've blogged. but gonna keep this shorter than normal. anyways. firstly and foremostly, i wana wish a few people Happy Birthday!

Syahidah!! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! you birthday was on the 13th of feb! Happy 16th!

Zhen Ren! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! your birthday is tomorrow eh? 17th Feb. Happy 16th too!

EVERY COUPLE! its past valentine's day but its okay. lets make it belated v. day! anyways. this is getting rather lame.

CHINESE NEW YEAR! alrights. wana wish everyone the best for the approaching following year. Do enjoy what you have, treasure everything! and have lotsa fun! those who are having major exams, STUDY HARD AND DO WELL!! haha. alrights.

till here then,
loves

~dissapointment beyond expression**

2007-02-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

found out some stuff.
quite overwhelming.
didnt expect it to be this way.

but not very surprised either.
i did it, so can you.
anyway, wish you all the best.
just finding it hard to believe.
but hmmms. oh wells.
obviously kinda hurt
feel betrayed? cheated?
yeah. i dont know.
i guess it started happening a while ago
i'll miss it all, it'll hurt.

cant have what you used to have,
its too good to be true.
i'll move on, sure you will.
hope we do meet again
but if not, then never mind.
thats all.
for all i can give.

much love

2007-02-10T22:03:00.000+08:00

i'm just really realised today.

think of you really differently. i dont know what i do that impacts you so much. but i've set new goals for myself one being to erradicate everything i ever thought which could. thank you for always tryin'a help but you're a contradiction, i've never actually said, cuz i dont wana be fully blunt but sometimes you're full of shit yourself. maybe those sweet lil' things wernt real? haha. i dont know. but its hard to believe that it came from you. if you do love someone else, i'll just be disappointed and convinced you're untrustable. thats alright cuz i was that to you. i admit i was like that. haha. nothing to hide about me being stupid idiotic and fucked up to make such overlooks. oh well. stupid and young and naive what could i have done?

well seriously, everything that comes in contact with me usually doesnt work out well. look i've lost so many friends. i get betrayed so many times.. its uncommon to not see me troubled by friendship/relationship issues. cuz i dont really trust anyone. hmmm. i have no idea why i'm even saying this. anyways i wana thank Kathy. you're really nice to help me. Thanks for being there ((: do really wana thank you. and for everything you do, hope that you'll do well in it and dont worry about him!! haha it'll work out ((: hahas. unlike me, maybe you're not as bad-lucked haha.

anyways. i'm just gonna concentrate on studies and do my best for my O's. thanks for shaking me up, and being so nice to me, i'll always hold a flame for you, but it'll never blow over, at least not now, not this year. i guess i'll have to really fully let go, but, it'll still be there, hidden. wish you everything good this year, just wanted to really help you by, but i guess that cant happen? i wanted to make sure you can at least make it to JC, whether u choose not to or do, but i guess there are enough people stressing you out, helping you out, everywhere i go, i see people helping you, so i'm not needed. i dont know if you'll see this, but i just wana say that you still do mean everything u were, i've tried, and its hard but i'll have to put in more effort to get over you i guess. you seem to have breezed through it. haha. dont know how but if you can, then i'm sure i can. i just wanted to be a close friend, but i think its impossible since i give u stress, increase you problems, i simply cant be in contact with you. you've enough friends helping you, in school, out of school. having lots of fun with them all. especially the guys. lets not get sexist. haha. but if it helps, den have fun with them, besides who am i to have a say? i'm merely a acquaintance. haha. it was like a fairy-tale it was surreal. it doesnt even exist really. i hate it how i realise things from someone else. it hurt me so much, but its the raw truth eh? i doubt you havent moved over it and gone on with someone else. it wasn't really a play thing right? i think it means something to you. i might be wrong, but trust me, sometimes i can hit the jackpot. i dont know how accurate i am, but i really dont know why i've lost all my friends, and you. have i changed so much to become an ass? or why? i really dont know. but whatever it is, i think its time to start blaming myself for being such a bitch and not push it to others. anyhows. i wont die so dont worry.

Loving the song: Outside looking in by Jordan Pruitt. it means quite a load of sentiments. right now it really relates. "You dont know how it feels to be outside the crowd. you dont know what its like to be left out"hmmms. anyhows. i guess i'm getting a little depressed. now i've gone through shan't be sad anymore. okays. uhhms. sighs. kinda sick. went to the docs. inflamation in the throat. i'm so frustrated with myself. i'm so defective. i get sick so easily, i cant even hold a handful of friends, fails in relationships. 2 are enough to set me apart from everyone. i'm super thin, too tall compared to size, eyesight bad, accademically sucky, non-talented. all i have is God. i guess its enough but hmmms. i dont know. sometimes i don't feel like He's even there. In times when you really need him and you cry out, sometimes you don't feel Him. it hurts so much you know? you have no one around you, you're facing the world one-handedly. its very saddening and depressing.

oh well. i think that should be all for now. quite a number of tests next week. not looking forward to it. no way. but hmmm lets just put it this way, what has to come has to come. tuitions gonna start full swing soon. so many things are happening so fast, and i still gotta put up with the trauma of getting over her. i'll marvel myself if i go through this week fine. cuz i know i wont. V Day's next wednesday. if anyone wants to go out, please do tell me, though i kinda think NO one would wana go out. like who's free to not go out with someone else? haha. anyways. no proper plans except tuitions and stuff like that. really depressing and demoralising but hmmms. it has to happen sooner or later. afterall i'm gonna be sitting for my O's right... sighs not looking forward to it.. not at all lahs. i wonder what my reaction would be when i recieve my results.....well lets not go so far.

thats all for now.
wana wish all those people who did well for their O's a huge CONGRATS! and those who didn't its okay. i'm sure you'll do fine when you complete you teritary education! haha. yeahs/

much love

2007-02-05T00:22:00.000+08:00

i just wana cry out
it hurts so much
maybe you were right
maybe it would have helped.
it did. 3 weeks. not its not.
its not so easy.
to leave it behind and continue life as if nothing seemed to happen.
especially when you hit off couple of times without seeming to budge.
its amazing.
really
i dont know why you shed.
you wont tell me so why ask?
and then i do, yeah.
comforting. i need that sometimes.
its not how deep your friendships are.
its the face and image of the truth you give.
if you give me a halfved view, so will i
and thats what i did.
it hurts you know? to try and not succeed while you carry on
seeming so happy? when i got no one to turn to now?
everyone's gone. nobody at all.
and so there it goes i carry on my story my life so sad
i come home alone, feeling sad most of the times.
unknowing what to do. sometimes put a happy face on to cheer the mood for you
and you have the right to be happy, the right to ask. i dont know.
do i ever cross boundaries hmm. i dont know really.
its all about the small things we do. the small things.
i know you dont. no more. maybe i'm wrong well thats what i'm hoping for.
but i dont think you do. not anymore. you've moved on.
that was fast. you moved over in a week when u loved so much.
and now that you dont. isnt surprising you'd take less.
i never wanted to do this again. blog at 12.29 am when there's school in 6 hours.
maybe making u cry too? i'm sorry. for my coldness.
but to me, its no more than flirting. nothing more. yes.
you might wana tell the persons you busy bodies. yes. do so if you please
i'm not always hypocritical you know. there'll be a time when i'll speak up,
come out of my shell. i'm just watching, waiting to see. thats all.
if you wana ask? yes i still do. its not like i've immediately moved on
loving you. more. i dont know why. just happened. maybe its true
the more u dont want, the more it'l happen. i dont know.
probably needing to go now? alrights. i'm sorry for today
for yesterday for friday where i wasted your time. i've been of no use.
from today onwards maybe i'll just lead an anti-social life like some we know.
people who have no friends, but all enemies. well i do have friends.
just that they arent anything to me as you are.
i dont know why i'm so weak. maybe i've not accepted it yet. i dont know
but i still love the way it felt. i long for that. just a moment. its savoured.
thinking of it every now and then. i write sad stuff yeah.
sometimes you feel like your life has ended. its like this now. i dont know where i am.
what i'm doing. really. i dont know why i'm still seemingly alive. but oh well
i guess i'll stop.

Dear God, if there's anything i can do, show me oh God, show me how to do this. its hard for me and i know its hard for You too, but God i really need you now, when no one's here for me. i need to know what to do, and what you have planned for me. God, it really is confusing i dont know why You've done this, but i know that its in time that you'll show me Your way. Amen.

2007-01-31T19:38:00.000+08:00

heys people.

sighs. today didnt work out well for me. i dont know. had CCA after school and all. and i dont know. just wasnt happy today. its like i have the most fucked up life ever. sighs. i dont wana swear and all but maybe thats the only way to solve this stupid fucked up problems. its so ridiculous. seriously. i dont know what to do about everything. its like you know, sometimes you want it, sometimes you dont. you cant have it whatever way you want to. and then when u dont want it, its there, but when u want it its not. its so stupid. arghs. sighs.

after cca came home and just slacked. dinner was like fucking unappetizing, so didnt eat. got mad at my mom. shouted at her. who really cares lahs. i hate my parents. they're just so fuced up, especially my mom. i dont care about whatever she wants to say as long as i dont hear it. i dont care what anyone thinks of me seriously. i dont care what everyone schemes against me, what everyone lies about me, what everyone who tells lies to me, i dont care what your value is, i dont care what you lied about, all i know is that you're contradictory and you're just a fucked up person with a fucked up life. if you cant find anything better, then just leave and dont even bother about anything cuz maybe no one really bothers about you. like who cares whatever you think of anyone. just vamous.

well that surely isnt enough to vent my frustration. a math test was kinda tricky today. but who cares. afterall i'm gonna flunk my o levels. like fuck. i hate the teachers in school. especially those relief teachers. just so pissed off by everything. fucking chinese test tomorrow. whatever lahs. fail lahs. who gives a fuck about it. i dont know lahs. just so pissed. go get near again, like anything would make me go real mad to do something stupid to you. if its mutual, lies was all i had. who cares. afterall what goes around comes back around. what goes up must come down. so i wish you good luck in your stupid fucking endeavours and stop acting like you really do give a shit about the situation because you obviously just wana shrug it off. i dont care how fanicful you place it. its just such a betrayl. to believe a trust was involved. smirking arent you? oblivious brat, insolent idiot, ignorant bitch.

gotta stop now. it'd go on forever so whatever. i'm just so disappointed. really sad that you would've done such a thing. just..go away.

whatever.
i'm in no mood.

2007-01-29T19:23:00.000+08:00

hey people.
hmmms. just wana blog about today. hmmms. well firstly i really wana thank delia and cheryl teo for...lets say.advising me. yeahs. you two were real cool ((: thanks so much yes? haha. yeahs.

well for YOU.. i just wana say that..i never expected you to be like that. i never thought you'd accuse and slander so falsely. i know its easy to just blame, but sometimes you gotta look at like, who you're gonna involve. as for now, you've just got yourself into some people's head as a person who isnt that what we thought he was. bascially, you made yor bed now lay in it. dont blame it on others, cuz you had better known that not everyone's gonna be there for you to blame. if you bear to blame someone without thinking of the consequences of your actions on that person, its a very inhumane characteristic displayed by you. i thought highly of you, seriously even if your ignorance towards me had heigtened daily. i never wanted a friendship to be ruined, but it takes two hands to clap. since your hand isnt willing to play, then i cant do anything.

now to the OTHER you, i dont know why you never told me. its very schocking you know? i dont know what you told everyone, but if you relied on me for the situation and throw me aside, or maybe its not that. i'm assuming too much. look, if there's a problem, you have to tell me. not all humans shut their mouths you know, and if you go telling everyone, everyone's just gonna keep telling even more peolple and then what? it comes back to me and i dont even know whats going on until i get into trouble for something i wasnt aware of? hmmmms. dont know think its your actions that i suffered? well. lets not say suffered, but i took the rapt and thats it. i wasnt really involved. if i did give you the idea, then let it be, dont go telling everyone everything, cuz thats not what i enthrusted upon you. and if anyone is willing to spare some ink to print this out, please do. but what i said when i started this blog, i said that if you dont like what you see, get out of here i dont owe you anything neither do you owe me anything. its mutual. its my form of expression, express yourself if you want, badmouth me if you want, i dont care. its alright with me. seriously. if you think that i'm not what i am, do what you want. just know that you will have your consequences, whether good or bad. if you wana find fault in me, do it properly, talk and settle and nnot by brute force. we live in a developing society and not a jurassic era. i dont resort to violence to solve issues. you got an issue, talk it out. be prepared to accept and everything is fine. besides, thats also what i advised you remember? talk it over, but i remembered you said it wont exactly work. hmmms. so its not my fault either.

anyways. i just wana say today has been really one of the shocking issues happening in the last few months. just so shocked by two of you guys' actions. if you wana lie to me, do so, but just know that i wont always believe and yes, i might but the truth will be unravelled sooner or later. i'm not afraid to state that if you wana challenge me, then you're challenging God cuz i've got Him on my side. and i believe that He will watch over me. so you're meddliing with God and not me. its His footprints i lay on the ground, we were created in God's image, a reflection. so if you got problems, approach me, dont force your way into my life. threaten me all you want, contradict yourself all you want, i dont really bother. anyways. lets consider this case closed. i dont hate anyone, really. if you wana reinstate me as a friendship in your list of friends, then i'd be happy that you've changed your mindset. but its the only way. i didnt do anything to make this the situation as what it is today. so yeahs.

anyhoots. lemme touch on the good stuff about today! vocab test! it was rather easy. couldnt do one though. i think at most i'd minus 5 marks. nothing more. and then bio test. rather easy too, almost everything's from the TYS and yeahs. quite confident. yeahs. and then got 2 tests back. lemme do them below:

1. Geography - 14/25
2. Literature - 16/25

i'm glad i did well for lit. quite happy. Jolyn got 19! ilona got 18 pearlyn got like 17 and yeahs. quite a few 16's too anyways. yeahs. melinda got 16 i think yeahs. anyways. geog. i dont know kinda scared about it haha. anyhows. remember the a math differentiation test!!! yeahs. haha. there'll be an e math test next week ya? on locus. next thursday, i think its the 8th of feb. yeahs. sighs. time flies so fast. soon it'll be the scary,huge o's. hmmms. yeahs.

i've listening to Hillsongs now ((: At the Cross, its such a nice song. well look, all contemparary songs are awesome. they're just so lovely and so.... hmmmms. how'd i say it? it just shows you that maybe you were made for something else than studying. so i think its cool to listen to them while studying! haha. anyways. i think i'll go start mugging for differentiation test!! sighs. product rule and quotient rule. remember! quotient rule is u/v and product rule is uv! okays thats all for now!

much love
and sorry to those who think i'm super depressed. and oh, i also wana thank kie wu and delia for taking bus home with me ((: i kinda.. felt a different feeling, you'll get my letters telling you about it haha. yeahs. and xenia, thanks for warning me. i dont regret not listening to you, i think it was the best thing to do. if someone's hypocritical to do such a childish act, then i'll just change my perception of him. i'm not perfect, no one is, and if they dont listen, its not my fault. if he wants to blame it on me, then let him. its alright. if he'll feel better by doing so, let him. i'll be fine. thank you all for helping ((: including leslie yeahs. thanks for eveything ya'll. means a lot to me really. (((((:

2007-01-28T19:21:00.000+08:00

hey people.

hmmms. today has been a rather tiring day. anyways lemme talk about yesterday first.

Yesterday
went to school in the morning, yes, saturday morning for lesson. A math lessons. thanks mrs toh for giving us more homework and which equivalents more stress ((: sighs. and then next went to the hawker with eric and jia chun and then came home yeahs. kinda slacked and then went to church and then after that went to eat, and then came back home and slept at 1. hmmms. what an interesting day isnt it? sighs. i know. totally right.

Today
woke up EARLY! again. hmmmms.....went to wesley for service. changed a little bit. they're different, but i still dont jive to their system. well thats in comparison to what i am attending now lahs. hmmms. yeah and saw blanche and everyone. really cool. after service was small group and we talked about the tabernackle and then after small group was lunch! went to p.s and had carls jr. second time eating there. but anyways then bought a christian CD. thereafter i came home and grabbed my stuff went to holland to study, finish work and yeahs. and even until now its not done. there's so much!! simply the worst situation you would wana be in. like c'mon. sighs. and yeahs. i'm gonna have to do it later sighs. anyways.

next week
lotsa tests. tomorrow there is bio test on hormones and nervous system. there also is a mock english test on vocab lists 1 and 2 for all BAND 2 ENGLISH STUDENTS. then there is a differentiation test on wednesday on product, quotient rule and no tangent,normal. there is also an a E math test. i kidna forgot the test date so i'm getting it now. and then theres a chinese test on thursday yeah? its out of the syllabus so you cant study. hmmms. yeahs. next wednesday to friday is sec3 camp! all the sec3's are gonna be gone!!! no!!! its not fun without them although some of them just suck, plain sucky. okays. then hmmms. oh for the e math test right? i dont think its next week but its before CNY so yeahs. then there's english vocab test on friday. yeahs. STUDY HARD PEOPLE!!36 words yeahs? so hmmms. uh huh.

anyways my results for my test: (i might have repeated some)
1. Bio test - 11/20
2. Chemistry test - 21/30
3. S.S test - 7/13
4. E Math common test - 16/30
5. A Math P & C test - 10/20
6. E Math Rate Of Change test - 18/20

alrights. did badly in 4/6 tests. i'm so dead. getting lit test back next week. how about geog? i have NO idea haha. but sighs. sure am i gonna die next week. i dont wana be on white form. WHO DOES?!?! hmmms. yeahs. anyhows. i shall get going then.

much love!!

2007-01-24T20:24:00.000+08:00

hey people.

just came back from 'school' like a few 10 mins ago. anyways today was a rather terrible and boring day. let me show u how boring a sec4 life is. also, it was rather stressful. anyways,we have a differentiation test next wednesday and yeah. tomorrow there are 4 math periods. kill me please. we're gonna get back our e math test paper. and here are the results for my tests:

1. Chemistry - 21/30
2. Biology - 11/20
3. Social Studies - 7/13

so overall, i still passed everything. but i'm really nervous about the lit test though and the geog test! how? sighs. anyways. lets step aside from school. lets talk about friendships. something kinda did affect me recently. kinda.. expected i mean, but not to this extent. anyways. let me just share with you my feelings.

when you get close to a friend, and become good friends. or lets just say when you meet a strnger and you become friends, is there anything wrong? not really right? okays. now let me put it this way. if you befriend this stranger who has a boyfriend, it that okay? well i think it is right? so is there anything wrong? no right? hmmmms. okays. but look, its normal to get jealous right? if your girlfriend started hanging out with a guy really often, won't you get a little pissed and jealous? you would right? hmmms. alright now lets look at this closer. if you and your girlfriend have so many problems, but your close friend,who is a girl does things for you like buy chocolates for you and give you unintentionally seductive smiles at you and offers you food everytime she sees you, is that alright to you? if you were a guy? i mean duh. i have problems and i just wana thorw them aside right? hmmms. but how would the girl feel? what do you think she'll feel? alright? perfectly okay? hmmms. i dont think so right... c'mon who would. guys, if your girlfriend started getting close to a guy, would u even be fine with that? no.... look. its not about trusting, its about accpeting and the capability to affect and change the person. some girls dont like to be controlled, we just gotta accept that. some would change for their guys, alike, some guys just dont like following their girls ideas and they follow theirs. i mean whatever it really all is, i think that being smart in a relationship is the most important. being smart in the sense of, being HONEST everytime, if you have problems amongst yourself, its better to talk it out than hide it. try to accept the person for who they are. try to understand the person, look at his/her background. however, if you really cant take the pain, maybe its better to just break-up and leave each other. maybe its the best way. i seriously think that if you're in pain and you dont think your relationship is going to last, mentally prepare yourself for anything to come and when it does. hopefully it wont be that painful.

anyways. thats all i have for today. i'll blog sooner or later.
much love!

2007-01-22T19:49:00.000+08:00

hey people.

hmmms. finally got the drive to blog. didnt know how long i was gonna not blog for. but well. anyways. today was super stressful lahs. well what day og sec4 isnt?? hmmms. so anyhows. lemme recite and tell you what happened today ((:

firstly, i woke up a little late and then obviously, arrived in school just on the dot. so anyways had chinese and e math. and realised that the E MATH TEST IS TOMORROW! arghhs! haha. there's the area under the graph and the speed time graph thing. to find acceleration and rate and all those stuff. sighs. yeahs. OH!! i passed re-re exam. THANK GOD LAHS! hahaha. hmmms. yeahs.

anyways. chng taught loci and went thru everything and yeahs hmmms. thereafter, we had recess and hmmms. after recess was a math. mrs toh went throught the questions for a math differentitation's tanget and normal. sighs. its quite stressful you know. sighs. anyways. after that was literature. we had a test. surprising for me lahs. cuz i didnt know that there was gonna be one, but oh wells. it was...hard. super hard. lit was DAMN HARD! aRGHHS! anyways. the questions were like crazy lahs. haha. anyways. after that was geog. mrs tan has gone for a course. SO WE HAVE MS ANG FOR 5 WEEKS!!!! somebody SAVE ME!!!! sighs. hmmms. we're all gonna fail our geography lahs.

notice i keep having anyways here and there. so weird. hmmms. anyways. THERE! arghs. anyHOWS.. after geog was english. did the silly bowling for columbine thing and then we read a little. and then school ended. hmmms. passed up a math book and went to hawker with kelman and kie wu. then went for bio grp study. took hua biao and june to level 5 and we went through everything. they're really cool people to tutor. i like them already ((: haha. anyways. it was DAMN fun today ((: haha. cuz all the teachers had meeting rights?? so its like we all sat at level 5 and 6 benches and we laughed, did work talked and everything lahs. i finished with june and hua biao like at 4 plus. really long. anyways. whilst doing that, i finished my chemistry grp study worksheet for tomorrow. yeahs. anyways. i got geog and e math to study and then i'll be ready for tomorrow lahs. ((: but A MATH! I NEED HELP!!! i missed thursday's lesson lahs. haha. sorry LORRHS. haha.

anyways i wana thank someone for that little thing you gave me. really nice of you ((: thanks ((: ahah. aites. i think thats about all i have to say. tomorrows gonna be stressful too and yeahs.

much love!

2007-01-18T14:03:00.000+08:00

when everything comes to an end,
when everything ceases to exist.
when emotions become like lies
when i become nothing to you
you would say that aint true
you'd try to reiterate
but its hard to believe
how you can be doing both
concurrently
by breaking it
does it mean you love me?
is that all so true
i might be fragile
and thats what u dont want
but even so
why now? why me.
why cant you change your decision
ever heard true love persists?
is this true love? when you dont allow me
to even wait for you? its denial
and why?
its heartbreaking.
crying could help
but not if you cried a whole night
no it doesnt
and i have to make myself strong
its just perfectly wonderful.
how this could happen
everything sweet that happened
everything cute that took place
everything sugary you said
everything i believed in
everything i'd do for you
everything i'd sacrifice for you
everything i'd change about myself
everything that you dont know
i understand
but i do give in, if you dont know
i do. and sometimes its huge things.
its not regretting. its cherishing
cherishing what we had.
loving each other again.

i told my dad
he comforted me yeah.
but that wasnt enough
i just couldnt take it.
i was fatigued. plagued by lethargy.
i slept till two and woke up
tears streamed from my eyes
i just couldnt handle it.
it might've been something small.
but to me its painful.
and you know it is. but if that is it
then thats how it would be.
i believed really, a lot in what you said
thats the part that kills me so much
what you know should happen didnt
and what shouldnt happen, happened
its terrorising.i dont know who to seek
i'm just breaking down so much
i should consider skipping school tomorrow.
i dont know. my dad offered me many reasons.
many choices and told me what to do
but it seems impossible. even crying ut to God.
sometimes i just dont know what to say to Him.
its like i'm just at a loss of words.
my heart aches. its killing me.
how'm i supposed to study? i dont see how
its like. how do you want me to do that now?
i'm so breaking down and you want me to study??
to do well for tests? i cant myself. maybe
if you were me yeah. but i cant. you think,
that i dont want to. are you sure? have u not
felt this kinda pain before? i'm sure you have
but then what? isnt it killing you? i mean no.
it doesnt kill you as much as it kills me.
i dont know. up till now i still dont know
what you want me to do. whats best for me.
i dont know how i'm gonna spend my weekends.
those days i'm free and have no work.
those times i need someone to lie on.
those times when i wana tell someone something.
those days when i feel so sad i wana hug someone
those times when i need a true friend beside me.
someone to understand me, help me.
betrayl isnt something small in my life.
if you have gone through you'll know how it is.
i cant just accept any friend as a close or good friend.
its just not like that. its not trust.
its proving yourself actually. but what hurts the most,
isnt just friends. its more of whatever i've seen
whatever i've heard. everything i believed in.
thats what hurts the most. everything i've done.
every effort i'm forked out for you.
and it just comes back as a nice package and breaks me.
i wont blame you. like you said,
perhaps one day i would realise that what you did was right.
but perhaps one day you'll realise what you did was wrong.
and perhaps one day you'll see that all r/s are hard.
and perhaps one day. like my dad said,
if it is for God, then it will always be yours.
perhaps one day we'll meet again. do you remember that line?
when i said that to you, i was a fortress, i didnt care.
and i told you we might meet and get back again, and yeah
we did. didnt we. but this time me loving you more doesnt help
change the fact that you dont love me that much.
yeah. it was what i did. betraying you? maybe. i agree that
seriously i did such a stupid thing. i dont know why.
i dont know. you're a person who doesnt fall to realise
you mistakes. but if so, then why arent you realising that
maybe its wrong. but of course you'll say its right. but how
certain are you? i mean its playable both ways. right?

oh well. i lost my close friend, i lost my friend, now i lose the one i love. its more than disheartening. i've basically lost everything. maybe 2006 and 2007 were terrible years and sure i dont believe everything they say about "oh 2007 is gonna be the BEST year ever" are you sure? it doesnt seem really GOOD you know. i'm quite skeptical. i just dont know what to do anymore. its killing me already just to try to get over this. to let go of everything that i wanted. and yet i know i still have to do it. maybe i should set myself a test. not get into a relationship until the O's are over. i remember stella and shenlynn telling me to just leave her. i know what by doing that it was right. i mean she desrved no better. practically a slut in a cute girl's image. but this is different. why must we both be so strong headed? why must we not be the same? i'm listening to James Morrison's Wonderful World. "i know that its a wonderful from the sky down to the sea". hmmms. no thats not always true as seen here. i'm gonna flunk all my tests.

i've set myself targets and i will overcome them. but right now. i just really need some help from some people. i dont know who. but if you really wana help me. and if i mean something to you, at least i mean something to another human being on earth other than my parents. then do message me. i just dont know what to do. just know that if you do advise me, i might not take it wholeheartedly. but i just think that maybe if i had some others helping me by and by, maybe i'll turn out less of a moron and a fiasco. anyways. there's a math re-re-exam and if i do go to school i'll have to take my chem test too i think. i'm sure i would flunk them though. i mean what gives you the impression that i wont? so what. flunk all of them then get white form. what the hell. it doesnt really matter does it? i mean i'm not waiting after school for 6 hours anymore am i? i'm not calling you everyday anymore. i'm not messaging you that often, in fact none at all today. i dont hug you, kiss you or do anthing with you anymore do i? so if that means to get white form, then so be it. who gives a damn about it anyways. its only a silly form where you get fucking controlled. i wont say i'm pissed now. i'm disappointed, yes i did disappoint you too. i'm hurt. sure i did hut you too. its just quite unbelievable. unreasonable. maybe i mean. rarely do i do things just cause i WANT TO and i have no reason. but since thats what you chose then so be it. i mean i dont know what defects about me can make you not want me anymore. what? you've seen my true colours since like months ago, i'm not that ugly or bitchy am i? is my character idiotic? and impossible to handle? i dont know you see. sigh. whatever it is. i'm just getting more and more tired. i just dont feel like i wana get into another relationship anytime soon. i dont know. anyhoots.

i guess its till here
and i would like to plead with all you people who are willing to help, please do help. its you that i need. i mean i'm picky and fussy but i wont be that picky unless its a rude case, implausible. i dont know. we'll see how it goes anyway.

p.s i did read your blog, and hmmms. the last part wasnt directed to me was it? if it was, then its not really true. especially the part. you wish you'd believe that i'd come back to you? when? are you sure? cuz i dont think you want me to. at least not now. and i'm sure you'll find many people. you're not that pretty, but you have a beauty of yourself. and you would do it all over again. if you dont even wana love me now, what would make you love me next time? oh wells. anyways. i wana say that i'm sorry for being so sticky, so controlling, demanding and i really think that even till now, maybe we should never have gone out becuase you're way superior than i am. i dont deserve someone like you. you're out of my league. really. i wana help you. i really do. i dont need to be a boyfriend to you, but i wana be there for you like you were for me. i'm sorry for giving you so much stress. for not giving you room. for everything bad i'm done. if you dont wana accept it, its ok. i believe that theres a time to be sorry for things you've done. to learn that maybe its not always right to just get over things like that. you're not stupid okays? really. you're not. i wont love a stupid person. but you wernt so thats why i loved you. of course you can say that i'm also stupid. so i'm stupid to have loved a stupid person. haha. but oh wells. hmmms. wasnt that "haha" my frist in this whole thing? well. if i wrote this for my literature essay i'd impress mr chai. sighs. anyways.

i miss those times when we had so much fun. when we didnt have troubles. when we were all so happy. i miss those times whe you helped me through everything, yes dependent on you, but i miss them. i miss those times when your cards made me smile. it would suddenly being me up. i miss those time when you'd encourage me. its so convincing. i miss the time when you bought me the white rose with delia and i bought you the 6 roses? when you gave me the red rose after i came back from Aust. when u picked me up from the airport. i miss the time when we walked to holland from my house. i miss the time when we take pics. whether nice or not. i miss the time you were so supportive of me when i was a prefect. i miss the time when we would go for so many movies where it would make me happy. i miss all the shopping. i miss the introduction of new places like esplanade and so on so forth. but most of all, i miss you more than any string of words can show or prove.

This is Cascada's vesion of Truly,Madly,Deeply:
I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply, do..

I will be strong
I will be faithful
Because I am counting on a new beginning
A reason for living
A deeper meaning yeah

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky
I'll make a wish send it to heaven
That'll make you wanna cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection
Of the highest power and lonely hours
The tears divide you

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh, can't you see it baby?
Don't have to close your eyes
'cause it's standing right before you
All that you need will surely come

I'll be your dream
I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope
I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply, do..

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

(I wanna stand with you on a mountain
I wanna bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me)

I wanna stand with you on a mountain

sigh. i never imagined that a song like THIS can be so touching. i mean Truly,Madly,Deeply wasn never a song that i LOVED and adored or found it sweet. but now. it has changed my mindset.

Then there's DHT's I GO Crazy:
I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
No my heart just can't hide that feeling inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby you know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

Yeah. i still do go crazy. well for now i still do.

Stand By You by Girls Aloud:
Oh why'd you look so sad
tears are in your eyes
come on and come to me now
dont be ashamed to cry
let me see you through
cuz i've seen the dark side too

when the night falls on you
dont know what to do
nothihng you can say can make me love you less

hmmms. thats quite true. sighs. oh wells. i guess i'm exhausted of songs to show now. sighs. anyhows. i hope that at least my life turns around. i dont feel fit for school at all. a frown goes across my face and i'm supposed to go to school? hmmms. no i dont think so.anyhows. i guess i shall end off here. well i wanted to just now but i didnt. anyhows. this is all. the longest post i've had up on my blog ever. anyways. for those who have read till here, i wana ask you again. if you would help i'd be really happy.

thanks you guys
much lvoe to you all

2007-01-17T18:13:00.000+08:00

the day kinda sucked....again. it was a horrendous day. it was monotonous and terribily boring. had SS test. quite ok i think, oh well its quite unpredictable actually. i mean social studies.. how you gonna know if you do well? anyways the topic is Housing and the question is about the policies like social cohesion. structured essay, 13 marks. so yeahs. then there was chinese. amazingly got 18/40. although still, didnt pass so who cares. and then it was P.E omg. i lost weight again. i think i'm gonna be underweight this year. yeahs. 175cm tall. hmmmms. didnt grow.. )): anyways.after that was P.D. mrs toh changed it to P&C test. it was kinda....tricky. i didnt know if it was correct. very worried. sighs.

anyhows. after that was bio. it was utterly boring. then afterwards, it was geog. mrs tan gave us homework again and yeahs. kill me too. then it was a math. mrs toh taught quotient rule. and 2 periods, we did 3 questions thats cuz it keeps getting harder. i'm gonna do badly lahs. hais. i really dont know how come dont understand lahs. its like ~~FUCKING~~ hard lahs. anyways.

anyways. still being kinda moody recently. i dont know how long i'm gonna be until i turn happier. ahhs. anyways. i swear later i'll start telling you about sad situations. trust me i will. anyways tomorrow is gonna be hell of a bad day lahs. we had chemistry test and then after school i have the stupid chinese remedial/group study thing. kill me lahs. arghs. oh wells. anyways. then there's e math and a math. 4 periods of math. HOW ~~STUPIDLY~~ FUN!!!! I CANT WAIT! like what the hell no. please lahs. i wana die already okays. sighs. kill me please!!! sec4 life is the worst thing to go through.

anyways. time for the sad part.
have you ever felt that you're losing the thing you treasure the most? hmmms. what do you do? do you let it slip away? of do you try to chase it? if it were a friend what would you do? if it was someone you detested what would you do? i mean. duh if you detest that person you dont treasure the person, but would u try to make friends again and give it another shot? do you believe in giving a second chance?if you do? how if after giving the second chance the person doesnt do anything? ever felt rejected? what did you do after that? just fegin ignorance? well this is quite needless to ask, but ever felt sad? like so sad that you could just cry out of nothing? have u cried so much that your eyes swelled the next day? ever cried so much until you feel dry of tears and your eyes hurt? well technically you dont cry nothing, cuz the action of crying means tears come out so yeahs. anyways.

i dont know. life can be so difficult. when you dont want something, that something actually needs you to want it the most. but when youm want it, that something might just not want you to anymore. its so irnoical. how 2 people who stick together for a long time can be the greatest of enemies. dont you think its logical? evading problems by running away is queer, really weird actually. but do you think its the best method to go through? is pain the only way to solve heartbreaking issues? isnt all these so difficult to answer? i mean like theres no correct nor wrong answer but dont you think its like painful to go through all these? would this affect you personally? i dont know. maybe some of you might actually have gone through at least one? but personally, going through all is hell. going through it either subsequently or concurrently. it sucks. really. its terrible. you just hope that the earth would crash on you and kill you instantly. its like your insides all crush and you feel so terrible. sigh. i dont know what i'm ranting. its full of shit. maybe sometimes we should all be more aware that things arent going right. maybe God should've made us animals that dont have such capability to think to such great extents. maybe we wont have so many problems in life. sighs. anyways i think i've crapped enough.

till here then
see ya'll

2007-01-16T19:45:00.000+08:00

okays.
let me try to not let this sound so emo depressing and negative yeahs. but lets give it a shot.

these few days have been like one of the worst days in my whole year. i mean considering todays the 16th, its for the record, getting a terrible-day mark in your book. its like sucky lahs. hais. everythings not going well. depressing, saddening, stressful, irritating, tiring lahs. one night i slept for like 4 hours, another slept 2. last night slept at 1 am lahs. its terrible seriously. secondary 4 life sucks especially when you got your own problems in your life.

anyways. yesterday was kinda stupid. we had the normal, usual boring lessons and had a test. CHINESE test. trust me i think its better than the others but whether i'll still do well is out of the question. i hope wang ying doesnt kill me )): then my week would be spoilt even more. haiss. anyways after school we went for the stupid peer tutor thing. LUNCH WAS PROVIDED and it kinda was....yikes. terrible lets say? hmm yeah. anyways it was super boring. finished copying samantha's a math 1 and then went to the library to study with chicky and i did some english, literature(which i'm supposed to pass up today but i didnt) and then some geog. studied for today's test. it was rather broing a day seriously. oh and i got 16/30 for english compo. like wtf. sigh. how bad is compos now lahs!?

today. woke up on time, reached school amazingly, early. met dennis on the way, and then walked with him to school and to class. sat down and read. jo was on my right i think? anyways there was bio test and geog test today so i tried to revise my stupid tests. to no avail. it sucked. couldnt concentrate in the morning. felt kinda lost. i'm so sorry for those people who've noticed i'm a little mooodless sometimes. its like you know how sometimes people write compositions and say that the person falls into their own world, into another dimension, yeah. its like that. i just start stoning and get lost in my own thoughts. so yeahs. sorry if i look a little...dazed. unfazed. got some problems now. just trying to sink into reality. haha. anyways. after that wase math period, and mr chng ~~aurghs....~~ taught loci and then said it was easy and blahs. he's gonna scold me tomorrow because i didnt do the work as he wanted. but hais whatever lahs. the most important is i still did it right? so wth lahs.then ahiya.the whole day sucked lahs. then geog test was rather easy i hope? i hope i'll do well. bullshitted quite a lot.then after that was chem grp study. slacked and studied bio. then after grp study i went for bio test. got ~~fucking~~ scolded by mr ma. wth lahs. ridiculous lahs. i mean its not like i WANTED to be a ~~motherfucking~~ peer tutor in bio lahs. he said as a peer tutor dont do work is unaccepable. HELLO I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO OKAYS!? you cant scold a student for not KNOWING how to do. why not think to yourself if you've done a GOOD job in teaching your students well. maybe you'd be the smarter of the 2 if you did that.the bio test was really hard. i think i'll fail lahs.

hais. tomorrow is like Social Studies and A Math Permutations and Combinations test. its gonna be like what lahs. i can do P&C but i'm not always confident sometimes answers might be wrong den notice mistake. sighs. anyways i'm worried for the E Math Common Test lehhs. some people in other classes failed lahs. freaky k. esp is chng marked them. sighs. i'm so tired alreadys. 2 tests to study ahhs. ARGHS! anyways.

i guess its till here then
much love people
check back soon!

2007-01-11T23:39:00.000+08:00

hey people.
sighs. today there was like tonnes of stress. its like sigh. when u have 2h20mins of math lessons how'd you feel? stressed..right? i mean like hello.....mrs toh comes in doing a new topic of differentiation, ie. Product of a function and then after that mr chng comes in scolding us because some idiots didnt do their work well and then goes through the rate of change worksheet and then its like whoa like that. i mean how much more tired can you get?? sigh. anyways.

i just picked my peer tutie for chem, her name's JUNE! yays. [claps hands]. now its gonna be easy lahs. june's chem is quite good right? haha. so yeahs. EASY LARHS! haha. how long was it ago since i used ACTUAL singlish? okays not long right? hahaha. anyways.... tomorrow is the E Math Common Test and i just looked through and tried studying in school on the whole statistics topic and i think i'm gonna flunk it. real bad. i cant remember hot to do lahs. okays since i've got so much space, let me try reciting them here.

mean: average
median: middle term
mode: most frequent.

to find frequency density, take frequency divide by the difference in terms. for example, frequency is 80, range:[10
Upper Quartile: 75% of graph. (Q3)
Lower Quartile: 25% of graph. (Q1)
Interquartile range: Q3-Q1=Q2. this = 50%
Cumulative freqency graph should end with the TOTAL AMOUNT of a certain term.

Remember, if the question requires you to find the higher score between 2 papers of exams, find the MEDIAN of all terms, read the marks then see which scored higher.

If the question asks you to find how much a person who scored 50 marks for paper 1, find paper 2, u trace up 50 marks to the curve where it cuts, trace it to the x axis then back down to the y axis and read the answer.

if the question asks you how to find the average of all goals scored in the soccer matches, you take all the TOTAL number of goals scored divided by the TOTAL number of games played. yeahs.

i think thats like all, i swear there's some stuff wrong in there, but sigh. i dont know lahs. whatever. i tried already. put in effort already, so thats that. tomorrow is xenia's birthday. so wana wish her a happy birthday in advance and May God Bless you this one year that you're 16!

okays. thats all i have and i'm gonna end off, tomorrow or the day after that i'll blog about the crazy tests next week and my opinions on "certain matters" keep watching this space for more information and the juicy thoughts. [at least what i think it would be (((:]

much love!!

2007-01-09T20:10:00.000+08:00

ASLO!!!

Students from 402, remember to finish the PERMUTAIONS AND COMBINATIONS WORKSHEET BY TOMORROW otherwise you'll find yourself in deep shizz. Also, remember to finish your E Math worksheet's first 2 pages by Thursday. yeahs. thats all for now.

much love!!

2007-01-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

Hey people.
haha. hmmmms. i'm loving this real old song by Paula Deanda, Walk Away(Remember Me) and i'm still jiving to Beyonce's song: Listen. Its like such a powerful song. also, i'm jiving to Ashley Tisadle's Headstrong. its an awesome song! i mean like its really cool considering that i had a really terrible image of Ashley. i mean of most Disney-cum-contemparary-music artists. its amazing really. haha. anyways. my day was kinda. uhms. rather slowly paced and 'boring' actually. yeahs. had lotsa lessons today. and i was kinda tired and dead after school ended which was 2.15 for my class. anyways. yeahs. did some studying and taught Vina math and then that was it. i'm back home. oh i hung out with Wei Guang and Dennis. is there a double n to his name? oh wells. anyways.

Today i'm free cuz i have no homework and i shall take my own sweet time to finish this because i have nothing to do until like 9 plus. so yeahs. but right now, i'm gonna have dinner, so i shall leave here for later. what the heck. what you'll see is the completed thing. damn. i'm bullshitting so much. alrights. forget it ((: hmmmms. oh wells. just finished dinner and had a bath. feel so refreshed ((: hahaha. i mean arent baths like that? anyways. this post is the weirdest. i mean just to prove to you that i dont always feel sad, and to prove that i'm not emo, here is a post that doesnt have that SAD things going on and emo-ish stuff. cuz i dont think of death everyday and i dont dress emo-ish either and yeahs. whatever.

Anyways i'm not gonna miss my show later. its getting more and more interesting lahs. its like i think Alex and Andrea are not gonna get back together whilst Louis is like either gonna get killed by Ashen or he'll survive and i dont know what would happen. but i'm hoping that George and Louis get killed lahs. they're a bunch of idiots. together with victoria. haha. okays. dont know what i'm talking about? watch Desire:Table For Three at 10-11 p.m on weekdays, also repeated at 1.am the following day and 5.p.m. yeahs. its really cool.

oh yeah have you heard? i'm peer tutor for biology and chemistry lahs. haha. its so funny. omg. i think they'd like either not understand me, or i'll accidentally teach the wrong thing. no lahs. dun worry okays people? i'll only teach if i know i'm teaching the right stuff. okays? hahahas. anyways for chemistry, my tutite is Ilona. Eric wants to join and i personally feel that Eric needs help. so i think i'll try to do both Ilona and Eric at the same time. Hope that they would be able to understand me haha. anyways. uhhms. i noticed that i had some 'lahs' in here. its quite...weird cuz i rarely use singlish okayss. haha. its frequently normal, standard english words, but in regard to the phrasing of the sentences, its like crap la. haha. there another singlish. omg. anyhows. uhhms. i'm getting really self-consious. and i'm getting bored too.

i really want to know who that cheesy person is on my tag-board. hmmmms. its so mysterious. if you even do care, do e-mail me about yourself okays? let me know who you are. i believe you have seen my e-mail below, but if not, here it is: marcusklz@hotmail.com aites. okays. just before i leave, i would like to do a test reminder thing. here it is:

Tests around the corner:
1. E Math Statistics Common Test - Friday, 12th January 2007 after school from 1.30-latest 2.45
2. Geography Changing Population Test - Tuesday, 16th January 2007
3. A Math Permutation & Combination Test - Wednesday, 17th January 2007
4. Chemistry Rate Of Reaction Test - Thursday, 18th January 2007
5. A Math Re-Exam - Friday, 19th January 2007 after school at 1.30-3.30
6. Social Studies Housing Common Test - Unsure of date, but its in week 3

yeahs. thats about all that i can think of. and i guess its like really study hard till the end man. its gonna be a really tiring and tough year ahead. and i hope that i can last all this....stress and whatever it all is. it sure will kill me. anyways. To those Math and Science Members (which would actually not visit my blog,) do remember that there will be a meeting tomorrow in Robotics room at 3.30 and will last about 2 hours. Pass this message on if you have seen this.

alrights. thats really all people. hope you've enjoyed the bullcrap!
til' next time
much love!!!

2007-01-06T14:52:00.000+08:00

hey people.
i dont know what happened to my internet but i like it ((: haha.

anyways. yesterday i stayed back to watch the sec1 orientation camp pregress and to be honest it seemed fun but anyway i felt that firstly, it ran slowly, much slower than when i commanded it last year-well there was SO much stress last year ok..... and secondly, i think it will improve because Ms B has taken over and i'm sure the standard would be pulled up ((: lets cheer 3 times [ok. do it quietly. opppssss]

hahas. and i came back at about 7. was actually exhausted. fatigued, seriously i dont know why. i was just walking around with yumi and joel and jeng ting. hmmms. anyhows. after that i just fell asleep till 11.15 and i missed Desire:Table For Three. damn it. so i'm supposed to catch it toaday at 4.30 p.m but then there's church later at 5. so i cant either. so i dont know how la. )):

supposed to meet xenia earlier but then i overslept. i'm like a pig. sigh. and then when i woke she asked me to meet her just before church started. so ideal isnt it. oh well. lets ignore the fact that thats not what i wanted, but anyways it would happen and i have this premonition something bad's gonna happen. i dont know why. sigh. anyways. this weekend, 402 students have lots and lots of work.

1. Lit students-Page 396[if i'm not mistaken] of Macbeth. to be handed in on Monday
2. A Math Students-A Math T.Y.S to be done in A Math 3. To be handed in on Monday
3. Band 2 English Students-Composition on Disaster. To be handed in on Monday
4. E Math Students-Remember to buy all of Mr Chng's items needed for E Math on Monday
5. E Math Students-Remember to study for this Friday's E Math Common Test to be held after school. Between 2.15-3.30.

and thats about all. thank goodness my class didnt get Mr Chia for our P.E lesson, and instead, Mr Chan....? right? so lets hope that its not gonna be that bad okays. )): i dont wana run 14 rounds on the first day of school. i mean wth. even Ms Liu wouldnt do that. if any other teacher would take height and weight on the first day, why would you make them RUN 14 ROUNDS ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL?!?! i mean thats ridiculous ok. its not like they're gonna finish it right? anyways.

i've complained enough, made my point and now i shall shut up and stay dormant for about 1 or 2 more days depending on my mood and state of boredness. til then people.

love ya'll!!!

2007-01-01T02:18:00.000+08:00

hey people.
its a NEW YEARR!

wana wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR AND MAY THIS YEAR BE A HAPPY, JOYFUL, FUN, STUDIOUS, DEVELOPING, SEXY NEW YEAR! hahaha.

i wana thank everyone who wished me this morning. that was like in the last 2 hours and 50 minutes. and i would like to say that its been a pleasure being friends with so many poeple! i mean i might be late by 1 day to do the friends thing. but i do think that i'm surrounded by so many good friends. i mean like those that really do help you when you dont expect them to. sometimes it just warms your heart. i really am not looking forward to 2007 although i've already stepped into this world. but i hope that its gonna be a nie year to me. [like real. the big o's okayys]

anyways school starts soon. FINISH ALL YOUR HOMEWORK PEOPLE!
and i really do have a feeling that * is not our teacher for THAT SUBJECT. it cant be! HE/SHE is not the FOR_ teacher of 01 either. so its queer although kie wu said HE/SHE would be. so its really interesting though. haha.

aites
till now
SEE YOU!!!!
loves people!

2006-12-30T00:05:00.000+08:00

hey people.

christmas is over. hope you all had fun! haha. i didnt really get many presents. but i did get love. anyhows. lets not get into the details. thats because its like. weird. and.. its also not exactly true. anyways. i wana thank tina for dropping by and giving me motherly advice. its really nice of you. (((:

aites. she also goaded me into getting a myspace account. so you can search under my e-mail there. yes, its marcusklz@hotmail.com and then add me. but who cares anyway. now school's like re-opening. and i'm actually quite tired. i dont wana get back to school. its like AURGHS. why?! c'mon who likes school...? especially when its sec4... sigh. i checked the new timetable on www.queensway.sch.edu.sg and i realised that mrs toh is not my class's e math teacher anymore. we're getting ms lim. yes the 01 teacher. anyways. its like what the hell. we could fail e math for our o's. thanks to her. so gonna die. sigh. and school work's not complete yet and I NEED MORE CLOTHES!

i'm aiming this POA shirt. its really awesome. love it. really and its just...complimenting. also, FCUK, Zara, Topman are all having sales. included would be Guess. its like most items are 50% off. so that means my purple top is now going for 124.95!!!! but its still so ex. i've got no cash now. sigh. haha. anyhows. uhmms. tomorrow would be shopping with kie wu. then going to xenia's church. the people there are really nice. i mean to get into something you gotta set into the atmospere first right? so yeahs. anyhows. i'm starting to rant.

i shall end here.
till next time
lovesss!

2006-12-24T17:20:00.000+08:00

hey people.
i dont really regard the party as a failure. and i'm so queer by jumping into the post with that line. anyways. i feel that if people arent happy about how it turned out then why not you suggested on the spot? i mean whats the point of going through the whole damn evening when you actually didnt wana? so. just suggest a change. i mean any human would not just put on a mask and pretend that everything's prefectly fine and then after the party's over then complain. i mean SERIOUSLY. if you have something that you think is superior then be bold to share. totally ridiculous.

i address Cecelia's blog. i find these issues of impostering childish, neither is spamming. its such a bitchy thing to do. i mean if you HATE someone why even bother going to their blog? be sensible. then, you go to someone's blog to tag a million times about what? what does it show? i mean obviously your stupidness about a simple situation. c'mon a tagboard is to let someone leave a comment not spam. stupid idiots. anyways since its over. let it blow over. and yeahs.

next, i'm sick. )): had a fever. reached 38.5 deg last night but it came down quite fast. also had a headache concurrently. i apologise to those who msged me and i didnt reply. sorry. and, now i'm having a terrible stomach war. its like everything's spasming in there. i could just die. =x oppps. did i just say that? haha. ok i dont wana die. anyhows. its christmas tomorrow. and i hope i get well. !!!!! arghhhs! hahaha.

lastly,
WISHING EVERYONE A MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

take care peoples.
till then.
lovess!

2006-12-21T00:08:00.000+08:00

hey people.

i'm so sorry to worry all of you lovable freaks out there. no i didnt commit suicide if that was what think i did. [yeah i'm sure u would've been celebbrating with champagine if i did yeahhh] lols. i'm better. understand a little more than i hoped i did. quite glad i do. and well i still dont know what to do. but time will tell i guess. just look towards God for which road to take. ahhhhs. yeah. anyhows.

my life is quite simple now. i mean after all these things that happened. its like i feel like i'm exhausted. so tired of being active in this world. i'm really tired. tedious i tell you, seriously. anyhows. uhhms. i dont know. a new year is coming and christmas is just round the corner. i'm not exactly looking forward to friday. i'm happy that at least there's something thats gonna happen. it entices life. anyhows. i guess that that's all for now yeahs. till then..

lovesss!

2006-12-17T23:42:00.000+08:00

i think i should just commit suicide. my life is so fucked up. what the fuck.

just venting my anger, anyways.

2006-12-16T02:56:00.000+08:00

hey people.
i told you that my mood changes like day to night. sigh. i dont know. its changed again. feeling all so depressed again. sighs.

anyways. i found something i wana share will all of you. do you actually know the meaning of flirt? well here it is:

1. to court triflingly or act amorously without serious intentions; play at love; coquet.
2. to trifle or toy, as with an idea: She flirted with the notion of buying a sports car.
3. to move with a jerk or jerks; dart about: butterflies flirting from flower to flower.
–verb (used with object)
4. to give a sudden or brisk motion to; wave smartly, as a fan.
5. to throw or propel with a toss or jerk; fling suddenly.
–noun
6. Also, flirter. a person who is given to flirting.
7. a quick throw or toss; sudden jerk or darting motion.

ahhh. there's such a thing as a FLIRTER?! haha. thats so cool. anyways. you know how sometimes your friends arent actually true friends? well. there are so many cases. i've got one here. well. this friend is like a person who seems like someone you can trust, but yet you don't know because he/she bullshits too much. and sometimes by telling he/she things, it somehow gets out to the whole world. its amazing but true. this friend, he/she tends to involve himself/herself in his/her own world and doesnt care about his/her friends. but when he/she needs help, he/she will look for people, like me. okays. i'm not trying to say that i'm good at helping but after giving a little help, he/she turns away and tends to change his/herself. now this person then becomes a leech and sticks close. to every single friend you know. its like he/she has become the centre of attraction. i mean you would find parts here and there familiar, somewhat what you'll see in your friends. but this is ture. and i wonder why God created us humans. we're the only race that destroys and causes mutinies and make our decisions while other animals dont. they just FOLLOW. sigh. this world is so mean. it consists of incorrigible brats, fucktards. son of bitches. nothing good can be expected from those that you always trust. well sometimes yeah. but those that are seemingly your best friends are the ones that would betray you the most.

aites. let my mood simmer off
till then

2006-12-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

hey there.
yeah i'm feeling much better thanks to everyone who really did bother to cheer me up. its not the usual ones. i guess i feel much better its like the world has made a turn around. its so.. irnoical isnt it? how things can change in a matter of hours.

anyways. yesterday i did watch Eragon. its a wonderful movie. Fiersa told me that the newspapers rated it 2 stars. its such a terrible rating. i mean its at least 4. it comes close to LOTRs la. i mean it might seem a bit cliched cuz it consists magic and dragons and all that shiz but i mean u cant just mark it down by what it contains right? haha. so i really do recommend you to watch ERAGON!!! its a good movie. some unexpected parts really.

next, i think Kie Wu is such a funny dude. haha. check out a section of his blog post below:

i hate working at _________. there's this suck-up b*tch who's called, Michelle, and and and she's not even th store manager, and she doesn't co-operate with me. like, what th f is wrong with her? no wonder no one in th store likes her. i told her to sign my card, cause it's my end of th day already, and i merely ended 10 mins early, and she put there, sign out time: 7.50pm.
WHAT THE FUCK!?
Tomorrow, i'm gonna avoid & dao her at all costs. What fucking attitude is tht man?
She should seriously go screw a dead horse, tht bimbotic whore.
Furthermore, she is FAT.

thank you very much, cause i have this THING for FAT people like her.
F tard lah.

gahhhs. haha. he's so funny. haha. i think i do know whom he is talking about RIGHT KIE WU? haha. and well yes. thats bimbotic of her. lol. i love that sentece : "She should seriously go screw a dead horse, tht bimbotic whore. " its unexpected. LOL. hahahas. and he has a thging for fat people like her. hugely and largely irnoical though lol. but oh well. its Kie Wu my dearest friend. (: oh and.. he bought a bag yesterday and he wants to buy one more. -.- so rich ah. i know u just got ur pay la. so rich give me la! hahaha.
oh and kie wu, 12 is not late. Juntion 8 has late night shopping from 12-1.30 a.m btw. lol. i heard it on air. but i dont know when la. so yeah. anyhoots, you can go have fun shopping with ur pay ((: haha. i dont mind some. AND return my cash!!! hahaha.

RYANNN!!!! u still owe me a debt. and i'm gonna collect it soon. 50 AUD yeahs ((: aites. i'm gonna be running low on cash after christmas so therefore i'm gonna collect the cash now so i will seem to not have made a depreciation in cash on hand.

anyhows, went out at night today. or well to be frank, yesterday. went to vivo. and yeah. went with xenia. we walked a bit, looked at clothes, found some nice jackets. i think i'm somehow evolving style a little. daring to explore? haha. but you guys wont see it until i'm sure i can suit it. lol. anyhows. came back later than usual. haha. shanin has gone to Dubai. ahhhs. so lucky. hahas.

anyhows. i got some new songs:
1. Wintersong - Sarah McLachlan
2. Gia Farrell - You'll Be Sorry
3. Sheryl Crow ft. Sting - Always On Your Side

okays and to suit the mood, a old song:
1. My Grown Up Christmas List - Kelly Clarkson

okays. i know sheryl crow's song came off her album wildflower. which means its an old song, but its nice. its the theme song of Desire : Table For Three. its an AWESOME movie. i reiterate. its AWESOME!!! its airs on channel 18, Star World at these times: Weeknights at 10. Repeats at 1.30 a.m and 5 p.m the following day.

also, i adore Gia Farrell. she has the AWESOMEST voice ever!!! did you know that we have intervals right? our voices? girls has 2.5 intervals. guys have 2 intervals. Gia has 4 intervals. well. thats what Utt said. anyways did you know that Mariah Carey has a 10 tone difference? she has a very good voice, but i dont really adore the hoarseness.

Sarah McLachlan's Wintersong doesnt sound like a christmas song cuz she doesnt have a clear voice. but its a nice song. its slow and its quite sadenning actually. haha. it suits the mood. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! haha.

aites. i guess thats all i have for now ((: and i shall blog soon. see ya'l!!
lovess

2006-12-15T03:11:00.000+08:00

right now..
i'm feeling really lost, depressed, abandoned, tired, weary, cautious, exhausted, fatigued, betrayed, distrusted, disgusted, cheated, loathed, frustrated, blammed, alone, ignored.

there's deciet, distrust, lack of trusting/belief, injustice, unfairness.

and i'm on the berge of breaking down, giving up, dying, passing out and thats all.

i think i'm gonna die. if not i think i'll die. i'm gonna pass out from this stuff. its tedious. its painful. its suffering that i cant accept. i'm exhausted, fatigued. i'm so tired of running this make-belief stuff. i dont know what to do. i'm really lost. i feel alone, and well the more people i dont wana attract the more frustrated i get. sigh. i dont know what to do. its been 2 days and i'm still so messed up. whats wrong with me? i keep sasking myself and the only answer i can think of is "everything". oh well. isnt that what everyone thinks as well? sigh. my words are ignored. my presence goes unoticed i feel surreal. am i even a human? do i have a place on earth? then why does it seem like i'm in the place but no one notices me? no one acknowledges me? oh wait. there is. shanin. she's been really helpful. the world is so mean isnt it? how sometimes when it goes one way a little you get into trouble but when it goes the exact scenario, but in another case, the other person doesnt? sigh. its the exact same issue and the difference is you get into trouble whilst the other person doesnt. its so. frustrating isnt it? sometimes people are just too shortsighted to notice that their predictions are wrong, to notice that the world isnt only made up of them. arrogance perhaps. sometimes when arrogance takes over a person, he/she believes that no matter what, they are correct. and in actual fact, they're obviously not. its so ironical how the person can be so true and so false in just a matter of hours. and then the arrogance kicks in, and he/she refuses to accept the truth. its really saddening. suffering so much. sigh. oh well. i'm blabbering too much. i guess i'll shut the fuck up now.

see you all

2006-12-15T00:29:00.000+08:00

i chanced upon this song and it really did suit my mood. down and moodless and yeah. anyhows. it is an old song called I Believe, yes by Fantasia Barino. your American Idol 3 winner. right? haha. anyhows. here you have it:

Have you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
And tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
And the magic that surrounds you
Can lift you up and guide you on your way

[Chorus:]
I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You see I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally, I believe

When you look out in the distance
You see it never was that far
Ohhh No
Heaven knows your existance
And leads you to be everything you are
Ohhh
There's a time for every soul to fly
It's in the eyes of every child
It's the hope, the love that saves the world
And, ohhh, we should never let it go

[Chorus]

I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe yeah

[Chorus]

Ohh Yeah

Love keeps liftin me higher
Liftin me higher
Love keeps liftin me higher
I said love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me
I said Love keeps liften
Love keeps liften me higher
Said love keeps liften me higher
I said love keeps liften me high

anyhows. i guess that's all for today. any more confirmations on the party, do let me know yeah. see ya!!

2006-12-14T02:53:00.000+08:00

hey guys
i just got some ammendments to make. there will be a conformation period. now this means that i and cecelia need to know who can go for the thing. please try to confirm it by the 16th of December. so the RSVP date has been changed to the 16th of December instead. alrights?

and, for those guys who got a mail. i will send u all another one at a later date.

thanks you all
loves ya'l

2006-12-14T01:18:00.000+08:00

hey guys.

i'm not here to blog today. i'm just here to post this up. there's gonna be a christmas party for a few of us selected people ((: and yes its co-organised by a few of us. so here is the details right below. and to those who didnt get invited, i'll say a huge sorry to you its unanimous anyway. so here it is:

People Invited:
Delia
Kie Wu
Christina
Marcus
Cecelia
Hai shien
Chih Kye
Jia Min
Xenia
Alicia
Sylvia
Lezlie
Joshua
Ryan A.
Guo Hao
Priscillia
Jazreel
Lester

alrights. that's the end of the list and now i shall give you all the details of the event:
Invite Card: http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b174/marcusklz/Invitations/FINALINVITEGENERAL.jpg

Map Location:
http://i19.photobucket.com/albums/b174/marcusklz/Invitations/MAPFINAL.jpg

I dont know if u can see it clearly but anyway here are the important stuff:

17 Lengkok Merak. its off Grange Road. the only bus u can take there is bus 75. its after tanglin mall so if u can make it to tanglin mall den its alright. ((: if you have any queries about the location, please contact ME ONLY cuz cecelia doesnt know the place either. so yeahs. the time the party starts is at 6.30p.m on 22nd of December, a Friday. You would need to get a present for the special part. because its christmas, you would be giving this present to a mysterious person. and so i think you'd spend some more bucks choosing a nice present cuz its gonna be for someone you feel happy for ((: wait that sounds weird. whatever yeahs. haha.

The Dress code is SMART CASUAL and ANYTHING ATOP YOUR HEAD. means yes you'd have to wear something on your head. ANYTHING! haha. its gonna be fun isnt it? hah. and f.y.i its also a barbeque party so the cost will be split up amogst everyone going. (: just a small amount. nothing much so remember to bring some cash for entrance fee ((: no fee no coming in hahaha. anyhows. that's about all.

i guess that's it

see ya'll lovess!!

2006-12-12T23:32:00.000+08:00

its such an irony.
the thing that you wana do the most turns out to be the most painful and the hardest thing to accept. wait isnt that how everything is?

you know how sometimes you feel like you're fighting for yourself in this world? all alone? its like you're suffering a series of battles that are never-ending? its like you wana give up but you'll either regret it or get killed. well simply, you wana die. its so irnoical how sometimes people say they understand you and know what you're talking about but then the thing is that they actually dont? wait. many people do that too dont they?

if someone who knows you like the back of their hand says something thats inocrrect about you and does not totally understand you fully yet says he/she does, it hurts doesnt it? ignorance? i dont think ignorance is bliss. its like practice doesnt make perfect you know. no one is perfect. practice only makes you better. thats all. ignorance is disgusting. and i apologise countless times for my bluntly edged ignorance in countless situations too. well the thing is the person doesnt know at all? is that possible? that they're ignorant and they say they know u and they dont and you just wana die cuz you've put in quite a fair bit of effort into completing a task for someone? its such a turn of tables how a happy mood can be made terrible, can be foiled in minutes.

am i a very incoherent person? do i bullshit a lot? am i irritating? i swear its like i am everything that everyone's not. its like people hate me for God's sake. am i loathesome? am i such a hard person to befriend? am i detestful? soulful? incorrigible? saucy? supercilicious? am i all that? am i a brat? do i deserve all this shit? is this some revenge for my past wrongdoings? should i just die to end everyone's troubles? no? yes? i dont know. its just so saddening. how something seems perfectly alright to someone when he/she knows jollywell that it would trigger off a domino effect. i mean bluntness has to be forgiven sometimes, but not so often. its not the first and surely not the last time this is happening. i feel defeated. i'm getting all so tired of fighting for something that doesnt exist. i'm so so so gonna give up soon if nothing happens. i'm gonne be done soon. i cant take this much longer. its tiresome you know. its like how your best friend is actually the traitor. its exactly that. sigh. i dont know.

i blabber too much i guess i should just ask God to make me stupider. maybe its part of His plan that i suspect so much, think of so many things. maybe its part of His plan that i would mentally breakdown cuz i cant take it. oh and maybe this isn't His plan at all its just that i was too stubborn to even listen to Him. but He wont let me take a wrong road. so why? sighh.

i'm too spent to recount my Japan trip. i came back and i'm dead. shall try lighting that fire in myself once more and try carrying on this race. till then.

2006-12-06T23:25:00.000+08:00

hey people.
i'm at the airport now. its like hmmms. i'm so tired. haha. its like almost 11.30? right? and i'll be going in at 12. so hmmms. right now at the oasis using the internet and my sister's relaxing on the massage chair. its so cool lur. haha. anyhows. hmmmms. i'm gonna be bored )): haiss. haha.

anyways. i really dont wana be on a tour group with 10 out of 30 people being children screaming and all. its gonna be terrorizing lur. so anyhows. japan is 1 hour ahead of singapore if you don't know. haha. and i'll arrive there at 7 locally. i think?? hahaha. alrights. i'm gonna log online now. so i'll se you all when i come back. will try to blog about the trip at least once ((: but if i cant oh well! hahaha.

much love.

2006-12-06T13:51:00.000+08:00

hey people.

i'm leaving in about 5 hours time. and oh well i havent packed everything yet haha. i checked out the weather and its interesting, cuz the northern side of Japan is always colder. i mean duh it has to be cuz its further north, but the reason is because actually the island where Tokyo is, its a volcanic island so its warmer. anyhows.

i did some video searching just now. and i found 2 awesome ones. the first is Christina Aguilera's and Diddy's video, Tell Me. Well its an awesome song. and the video's no worse. its the best thing you've seen in weeks! Christina is looking all so hot cuz she's not flaunting that Marylin Monroe look as she always is. so she's looking smokin' hot and x'd. Don'cha miss the nam e Xtina? hmmms.

the next video is Avant's and Nicole Scherzinger's video, Lie About Us. it was released quite a while ago i realised, but hmmm the song's pretty nice and pretty new. its awesome as well. i love it. anyhows. its the next single that Nicole did with someone else after Come To Me, so have a great time looking at how smooth and hot she is. Anyhows, the PCD's released their new song and single, Wait A Minute. its alright. the vid's nothing fantastic actually. Except that you get to see Nicole's new hairdo. anyhows. below are the links:

1. Tell Me:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=6SDZ8C56R0E&mode=related&search=

2. Lie About Us:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=QRAFGTQ0t-g

i guess thats all i have. until next week,
see ya'll
lovess!

2006-12-05T22:40:00.000+08:00

hey people.

leaving tomorrow. haha. not expecting anyone to send me off yeah. lol. hello.....its 0105 in the morning yeahh. crazy if u wana. haha. my aunt is coming.. i just found out. scuh JOY IT IS TO HAVE ANOTHER PERSON especially someone who's like my aunt who speaks like a queen and who owns as profession as a LAWYER. hmmms. its relly difficult to outspeak her. look lawyers dont like to be outspoken. so thus, i conclude that i think my future occupation would be law. ((:

alrights. thats like total bullshit. i still cant find the English homework on www.lead.com.sg hmmmms. oh well. if i dont do it its not my fault is it? haha. i cant find it! i already told Ms B. damn. there's still so much work to do. i havent started on anything. went to town today anyways. meeting kh tomorrow for lunch or smth. catch up with the old dude. and hmm. i'll be off to the airport for dinner in a big, spacious cab for 5. ((: anyhows. i guess that's all. wont be blogging these few days i guess. oh my phone's spoilt. and so i'm gonna have it repaired. meanwhile, will be using my dad's L6. and yes i'll be bringing my phone to Japan so if u accidentally send me a msg opppps. ((: good luck with the bill. alrights. thats all for now ((:

much love

2006-12-04T20:53:00.000+08:00

hey people.

hmmms. today did some more shopping. (: haha. god its like paradise isnt it? haha. i bought 3 tops. black and 2 greens. one is more olive, the other one darker. i dont know how to describe the differenciating shades. but oh well. anyhow, the Topman was batter quality, but it wasnt on discount. it cose 26 bucks. the Zara ones, they were at 19.90 for one, and they were thinner, but came in many colours. anyhows.

just came back. took a cab with my dad. cuz it was like i didnt wana take out any cash today or anything, so he paid for everything. ((: i love parents. well thats one reason to why i love parents shopping with their children, but there are far more reasons why parents should NOT shop with their children. thats because it aint cool at all. they just suck, well most of the time they do. with that "what? how much?" line and like "so expensive?!" line. its so hackneyed and so URGHS! anyhows. i'm ranting aint i? hmmms.

oh wells. i guess thats all i have for all of you. (: btw, if you havent checked out the latest issue of LIME, the December issue, constance modelled in it. thats so cool aint it? i know. hmms. oh well. she's lucky. haha. have to meet up with all the henry parker's soon. miss em' all. wait. i do? hmmms. thats utterly queer. haha. anyhows. thats all loves.

much love

2006-12-03T17:59:00.000+08:00

hey there.
hmmms. sorry havent been blogging for a few days. have been either too busy to blog, too frustrated or just dont feel like. sometimes when you wana blog you have to have a feeling to blog. ok what crap am i sprouting?! hahaha.

alrights. got a few suprises yesterday. hmmms. kinda had a littl fight with me dad cuz its like my sister bought so many winter clothing and i like had NONE. so i kinda quarreled with him, and he surprised me by giving me my christmas present. it as the Canon Digital Ixus 850 IS! OMG. its so nice! its worth like 700 over bucks. i'm so happy! hahah. then today we went to SimLim Sq to buy a memory card. it was like 2GB wow. he's like really never done such a thing for me. ((: haha.

supposed to meet xenia before that, but she has some stuff cropped up so i collected my jacket from Zara. it cost 119.90 i think. yeah. its 2 layered. black. its like a cotten layer inside and a windbreaker outside. its quite cool. then i went on a shopping spree, MYSELF.. went to look at the scarfs or....whats that word? yeah. muffler. it was like 59.90 at Zara. Seriously, its really high classed. it was so nice! but sigh. 59.90 for that? its quite a waste of money isnt it? so. anyways i proceeded to Wistma, looked at FCUK. theirs were more expensive. 69 bucks for one. it wasnt s good as Zara's though. rip off. then i went to Topman. They're having a STOREWIDE 20% SALE!! go buy stuff there! its so CHEAP! haha. everything's like discounted! haha. so i bought 2 cap things. one is just a cap and the other one is like a beanie. its brown. i wanted both black but sigh. it looked really bad so i got brown and beige or something. its really pleasant actually. ((:

then after that i looked at the scarfs and mufflers again, and they looked terrible Topmans' are really bad. they're really odd. its like really off. its not formal. its VERY informal. there were some like knited ones with huge holes, but it was coloured with different colours. it was terrible seriously. if they did have a white one like Zara does, i would've got them immediately. anyways since they didnt have i decided to look at Guess - DUH just for fun. no way could i afford such a price. haha. so Guess doesnt have winter clothing. well not much. they had this jacket that was SO warm. it was like 175 bucks. hmmmms. hahaha. sigh. anyways. after Guess. i decided to go to the Zara at Liat Towers cuz they had one cheap one, but then i went to Topman at Isaten, the one at Shaw? yeah went there first. The Adidas stuff were on sale too. looked at them. they're quite ok. not a very good range actually. so went on to Topman. and i found a pari of gloves. they were 16 bucks but then after discount it was 13. got that. and i looked at the mufflers again, looked UGLY again. but there was this greenish one. i tried it on. looked nice actually. it was 33, after discount was 23. its so cool. its like i bought 5 items today! but they're all winter items la. ((: haha. but i think i'm real greatful ((: so many things for just a 5 day trip. anyways. below is the information for my trip:

Trip Length: 7 days.
Destination: Japan
Actual Trip Length: 5 days (excluding first and last day on the plane)

Airline Carrier: Singapore Airlines

Day 2: Flight leaves at 0105 . SQ672 . Arrives at 0815

Day 7: Flight leaves at 0950 . SQ671 . Arrives at 1555

Highlight of trip: SNOW!

Skiing, Snowboarding,Snowmobilling ((: cant wait!

alrights. thats it. oh wait. i didnt tell you the dates! Its from the 6th December to the 13th December 2006 ((: alrights. i guess that's about all i have for ya'll. would be blogging more before wednesday! and btw, i wouldnt be reachable in Japan thats because Japan's telecommunications just suck (: alrights. thats all!

lovess!

2006-11-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

hey people..
sorry about just now for the randomness. i was really. well. i'd say, confused, and really unsure what i was really thinking about. anyhows.

i chat with quite a lot of people today, and i also went online and found some interesting stuff. The Break-ups of 2006. its really cool. below is the link, do have a look. some of them we're really familiar, like Brad and Jenifer's split. and we have Britney's split, and also Carmen Electra's split? and yeah. do have a look. thought that was cool so there are 37 btw. so its amazing actually. Ryan Phillipe and Reese also. its sad. especially those families that have children, what happens after this? Whitney and Bobby. they have a 13 year old girl. how? you know haha. yeahhs. so have a look:

http://entertainment.ivillage.com/lifestyles/0,,8q06q7fx,00.html

alrights. thats for now ((:
rock on people
lovess!

2006-11-30T19:21:00.000+08:00

Its like I Don't Even Know You No More

2006-11-30T18:52:00.000+08:00

spent my day doing nothing.
got pissed at my parents cuz i couldnt' find my school work.
wth. its not as if i gon' do it either.
sometimes i feel so effed up.
its like its my fault.
get something into your system biyatch.
i dont have to be the begnining.
i dont wana have to be the starter.
i dont always wana be a leader.
cant i just follow?
its so stupid come to think of it.

just so.. pissed.
i don't even know why.
whatever, just take it as if i'm ranting, bullshit.

rock on.

2006-11-29T12:36:00.000+08:00

hey people.
hahahahas. i promised Xinying that i would do her a special blog post, because i was reminded of this after reading her blog.. [evil crackle].

okays. its nothing much its just about streaming. -.- haha. here it goes:

last year, i slept so late, i didnt go to school to collect my results, don't worry. i think the results can be acessed online. if you don't wana go to school you just ask maybe like your mom or dad to go lur. then after that when u get the results, and you wana opt into another class, then i think you do HAVE to go to school with them. but this has to be done in one day alright? haha. yeahh. once again, i wana wish everyone ALL THE BEST in tomorrow's results, by now you should be very nervous yeahh. haha. if not just go think where you're gonna end up if you get into a bad class. alright. that sucks alrights. haha.

thats about all for now. perhaps more later? i dont know lol.
lovess!

2006-11-28T18:42:00.000+08:00

hey people.
hmmms. today has been boring AGAIN! haha.

heard some rumors today. kinda trrible, yet its kinda fun cuz i've not heard rumours about myself for quite a while. haha. this year i've had like 5 or 6 rumours about myself. its quite hilarious its really funny haha.

anyhows, rumours being rumours, are started by some people and thats the most interesting, to find out whom started them. haha. and duh if you wana go tell the whole world about it then just go. it leaves me at no loss if its untrue, and well if it happens to be true, then its not called a rumour, its called betrayal. and i do know of many people who betray. this is a small matter, but thing is, when someone tells you something, the person trusts you. well if you break their trust, then the person knows well enough not to trust you cuz half the time we only tell one or 2 people and its easy to guess whom it had been so yeahh (:

talked to Benita and Esther for a long time today online. haha. they're doing a geography project and i think Esther has chosen Singapore. so its really cool i'll be helping her if she needs. haha. anyhows. i wana eat scones again! they're so nice yummy! hahaha. for those who don't know scones are english buscuits or bread, usually bite sized if not, a little bigger. The English love to eat them for tea, with tea. When its nice and hot, its really awesome. haha. am i making u hungry? haha.

anyhows. i guess its till here people
take care
loves!

2006-11-28T00:33:00.001+08:00

ever found a ongoing conversation funny? haha. anyways. this part here that i'm gonna put did go on. it was on sylvia's blog and only the very first few posts was me. anyways. here you go . read from the bottom up. you can tell when i am actually speaking. sylvia would never refer to me as marc cuz she just doesnt. and duh. its so obvious haha. anyways enjoy! ahahahahahaha:

28 Nov 06, 00:34
mrX: where grace?

28 Nov 06, 00:34
mrX: huang boi boi..live at west coast

28 Nov 06, 00:34
bella: i'm so sorry all...i'm mrX as well as sylvia. and marc..i just wanted to do some self advertising for my services...once again i apologise

28 Nov 06, 00:34
mrX: live at clementi

28 Nov 06, 00:33
mrX: dun anyhow come ah u

28 Nov 06, 00:33
mrX: ah lez

alex: haha i hope u can reach ur own c0ck. and thnk for fking off. which part of urself are u sucking? perhaps the toe? or do u cum from ur toes? nvm make it simpler go ask ur mom suck ur c0ck for u.

28 Nov 06, 00:31
mrsY: huh..ah!!

28 Nov 06, 00:30
mrX: mr lua

28 Nov 06, 00:29
mrX: i lost all enjoyment...now i need to go suck myself...tata

28 Nov 06, 00:29
mrX: mr huang

28 Nov 06, 00:28
mrX: u all impersonated so much

28 Nov 06, 00:28
mrX: aiya no fun liao

28 Nov 06, 00:28
alex: but i tink i more gay than the person writting this

28 Nov 06, 00:27
xl: my alter ego speaking?

28 Nov 06, 00:27
xl: jus kiddin

28 Nov 06, 00:27
xl: LOL i am?

28 Nov 06, 00:26
alex: the person writing this must be really weak in his ****. suck 10 cocks how to shoot middle 1 oso no friction. somemore ur **** weak or wad.. suck **** oso can cum! ur mom teach u? or ur mom suck 4 u..

28 Nov 06, 00:26
xl: im gay

28 Nov 06, 00:23
xl: wow. market rate.. not bad.. hmm slut?

28 Nov 06, 00:23
sylvia: walao..i only $20 for 2 nights sia..y u earn so much..i sluttier than u okay..no fair lor..marc..i sluttier right?

28 Nov 06, 00:22
bella: no...i suck better...i work for geylang how long liao...some more i charge $40 leh...so cheap sia

28 Nov 06, 00:16
sylvia: wat? no lor..i suck veri gud one lor..walao..anyhow say

28 Nov 06, 00:16
bella: of course..i suck ur c0ck u one shot cum liao..sylvia leh? wait one whole day right?

28 Nov 06, 00:13
marc: no prob bella..i love ur mouth more than sylvia wat

28 Nov 06, 00:13
bella: yea go u gay..scold her lyk a whore..

28 Nov 06, 00:12
sylvia: omg..marc y u scolding me?

28 Nov 06, 00:11
marc: FUC K OFF U SLU T CUN T WHOR ED BITC H go disk ur mom u bitc h. fuc k off.

28 Nov 06, 00:11
xl: hey hey bella. how old are you?? im lookin for some fun? find me?

28 Nov 06, 00:09
bella: yea..u mus been sucking marcus c0ck for years right? hey marc..u can suck ur
own c0ck right? y wan sylvia?

28 Nov 06, 00:08
xl: wats gone into you?

28 Nov 06, 00:08
xl: ouch..........

28 Nov 06, 00:07
sylvia: okay okay..i admit..im a slut..i suck **** for free..i can suck ten **** at one time..try me btch

28 Nov 06, 00:06
marc: i think it is..unlike you.

28 Nov 06, 00:05
bella: yea mine is cool..wat u gona do? screw me? fcuk no whore..u can suck ur daddy's ****

28 Nov 06, 00:04
sylvia: wtf..f off *****..see ur blog lah..u tink urs vei cool ahs?
28 Nov 06, 00:03

bella: ***** u tink ur blog is so cool..while guess wat..its not

2006-11-27T18:43:00.000+08:00

hey people.

hmmms. lets see. today was just as boring as 2 days ago. didnt do anything. and sigh. i missed Desire : Table For Three because i was helping my mom bake. aurghs. nvms. haiss. hmmms. woke up real late. woke up at 1 today. wait 2. yeah. it was 2 p.m and came down had lunch slacked all the way till now. sigh. i hate my day being boring. it sucks so badly. I HATE IT!!! ARGHS! and it doesnt help that it rained the whole day too. )): oh wells.

sighs. dental has been shifted to tomorrow. can't wait for the Japan Trip. its gonna be so much fun. but sigh. after i come back its like 2 weeks till school re-opens. AHHHHHS! dont wana go back to school. especially when you're SECONDARY 4!!!!!! hmmmmms. this sucks. i'm so screwed up. anyways. i'm like dao-ed lur. everyone has ditched me. either sleeping, went out, or just dun wana converse with me. i should be really sad shouldn't i be? hais.. well i think i am..... oh well. till here biyatches

lovess

2006-11-27T00:30:00.000+08:00

hey people.
haha. i have failed to upload the pics. basically i just dont wana lur haha. so many pics so little space hmmms. maybe a few alright? haha. not now. its like late again. haha. 12.24 now. just wana do a short post on the events that happened today and yesterday ((: haha.

firstly. yesterday celebrated Delia's Chihkye's and Guohao's b'days at Hardrock C. in town. it was cool real cool. had steak and the whole group was like cool. haha. so anyways. i wana wish DELIA, GUO HAO AND CHIH KYE A HAPPY 15TH B'DAY THIS NOVEMBER!!! chih kye's b'day was on the 24th, delia's on the 18th and guo hao's on the 21st i think? or 20th haha. ok. i think its 20th lol.

alrights. next. today. woke up late. didnt go to church haiss. haha. will be going next week lurr. haha. anyways after waking up late, at 12. i came online for a few hours and then left the house to meet xen. saw many queenswayans who saw me and yeah. saw ryan too with uhh. duno some eric guy huhhh. haha. anyways. hmmms. came home and yeah. here i am. so basically i'm a boring person leading a boring life ((: haha. alrights. i guess thats all i'm gonna blog about today ((:

To Sec 2's of QSS 2006:
ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR STREAMING RESULTS!!! IF YOU DONT GET INTO A CHOICE THAT YOU WANT, FIND YOUR LEVEL POSITION, AND IF U CAN MAKE IT, APPEAL! YOU HAVE TO APPEAL OKAYS!?!?! DON'T JUST LEAVE IT LIKE THAT! APPPEEEAAALLLLLL!!!!!!! AND THEN YOU'LL FEEL ACCOMPLISHED ((: HALF OF THE TIME THERE IS A PERSON WILLING TO GET OUT OF THAT CLASS YOU WANA GO TO SO MUST YEAHH [hahas. so yeahhs.] AND. DON'T THINK THAT YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO GET 70% AND ABOVE TO DO A MATH, SOMETIMES THE TEACHER'S RECOMMENDATIONS SUPERCEED THE RULES ((: [so yeahs, cool ehh]

alrights. that's all loves
bye!

2006-11-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

Australian Geography Fieldtrip 2006. [11-18 Nov 2006]

11th Nov 2006
Went to the airport, parents fetched me there. Met with ryan who was with his mom and his aunt. I think his mom’s kinda….cool? I don’t know. Totally different ‘breed’ from any normal parent. So I went to Mac’s and met him and then we went to the second level and I realized that he had his KRZR which I wanted so badly. So I took it and started browsing thru. Then we continued walking the second level(that food level) in terminal 2, and then xenia came. After she had come we went to Sake Sushi to eat ((: and yeah. I KNOW. 2 or 3 people saw us there. And yeah. LOL. Hahahas. Anyways. Ryan called his SWEETHEART! And then he talked whilst we were left alone taking pics ((: anyways. I paid for the lunch. Damn it was like WOW. Anyhows. Met Mr Chai, LALONDE LOW (why? I mean WHY?!?!?!?!?!), Gary ,Annie, Carolyn, Brenda and like the tour woman. Anyways. After that we checked in and we proceeded in. oh yea. Its like my passport had some probs but it got solved in time ((: so yea. My baggage weighed 12 kg. ((: haha. boarded the plane at 12 plus. Left off at like 1. sat next to Gary and Chrisan ((:

12th Nov 2006
So anyway we arrived at Australia, Perth at like 7? I don’t know lur forgot already. Hahaha. Anyways you know u cant use your cellphone in the airport in Australian Airports? Before immigration and before u reach the arrival halls where u get met by those visitors. Anyways we arrived there and we cleared customs and yea. Met May. That uhh woman. The tour woman. Then we met the driver, David. An old man, white man, approximately in his 60’s? anyways. Australians are really smart. So what we did. We boarded the coach and got posted a question by annie. Then, David went about talking about Perth. Some real interesting facts. Really cool. We went to King’s Park. I was in charge of pictures anyways. So I snapped like 700 in all. I took pictures of eucalyptus’s, peppermints, boabs, gum-trees and many others. Really interesting. Haha. After that, we went for our lunch and survey conducting. My group of 11 got broken into 2. Kelman led one and I led the other. In my group was: Me(duh), sara, ryan, vina and fanny !! yays! We were superb. Asked many people about our surveys. Had more locals at first, but anyways we filled out like 30 forms ourselves so its really cool ((: hahaha. Then, we had our lunch at East-shed market. LOL. Haha. Fish n chips. It was like HUGE. The portion was ENORMOUS! Haha. So after that sara and I decided to have an ice-cream, at least the same flavour. Shobert. I had wildberry and so did she. But ryan had lemon? I don’t know. They kept saying it was sour and all, but it was nice ((: hahaha. So my ice-cream dropped on the floor. Yes it did LOL. Then we proceeded to Fremantle market. Walked the way there. And along the way, sara’s ice-cream also fell on the floor lol. Anyways, ryan threw his away too. Alright. Went to a coupla stores, got a magnet for my mom and got a whole lotta Reese’s for my sister. She loved it btw haha. ((: after that we met and then we went to uhh. Ahh. Swan lake barracks haha. Yes. We checked into our first premise. It was terrible to be honest. Haha. Bunked with many people. Ryan, Joel, Samuel, Daniel, Ting Wei yea. That’s all. Yes. We were in a BARRACKS so it was squeezy and yikes hahaha.then after that we went to Perth City Mall to do some shopping. Couldn’t find a damn thing to buy. Bought snacks and stuff. Stuff to chew and to eat. Skittles and all. Yummy. Haha. Then after that we proceeded for dinner, went for kebabs. They were terrible. They were so BIG and HUGE and the chilli was terribily SPICY!!! Haha. God. So after that we walked back. It was like 8 but it wasn’t that dark. It was just about to set.i mean the sun. so we had our preparations for presentation. Then we had presentation that night and kelman, ryan did the presentations whilst sara did the preparations. Haha. Yeahs. After that we went to sleep.

13th Nov 2006
hmmms. Woke up and went down for breakfast, checked out of the premise, and we went to uhh. Canning River if I’m not wrong? Yea. Canning river for our hydrological studies. Yea. It was quite a cool place. Many eww insects. Yikes. The ants were HUGE and the river was slow. It was the lower course so yea. Anyways we conducted the river speed/velocity of river, the gradient and like everything lur.anyway the river was meandering. It had the signs of the cockscrew shape, and kelman could see the curves in the river, what can I say, gary loves kelman so much he has given Kelly the gift of geography. Hahaha. Anyways cuz we had to go into the river and all. Well at least people like kelman, jia chun and wei jing lur, so they were dirty with mud and all. So we went to the restrooms to clean up which was like 10 mins away. Nearby thr was like a store to buy stuff. So went in bought choco sweets for sara, got some drinks and chips for myself ad ry. Kelly and I bought a whole box of water for our group. Yeah. Anyways. After that, we went for lunch, which was at Nero’s pizza’s. it was quite ok lur. Sat with gary on my left and ry on my right. And Josephine opposite me. LOL. Ate many kinds of pizzas. Pepperoni and Hawaiian and all kinds lur. It was terrible to be honest, Spizzia does better thin crust ones and Pizza Hut does better Hawaiians. ((: haha. Then after lunch we had to proceed out of Perth to Albany! Yay! Heard a lot about Albany it’s a real cool place. Haha. Literally. Cold hhaha, yeahs. Anyhows, the journey to Albany was expected to be 5 hours. But not long after leaving Nero’s, the bus broke down. Found out that the radiator was overheating. So we were stalled at a petrol kiosk for 2 hours. So in total the trip was 7 hours. Yeah. But we learnt how to play cricket from david. Yeahs. It was cool ((: so because our schedule was stalled for so many hours, we couldn’t go to the Stirling Ranges. I think it would’ve been a lovely sight actually but sigh. Oh well. Haha. We were also supposed to go to the winery, but it was too late, so we just saw the setting sun and I took a lovely pic of it too ((: shall upload it here later ((: yeahs. Anyways. We stopped at another petrol kiosk for toilet break and Ry and I noticed Jo and Eddie getting quite cosy. Hmmm. Anyways. Gary took the temperature. It was like 16 degrees or smth. No. 14 or smth yea. Really cold because of the wind. Otherwise it wouldn’t have been that cold haha. Yeahs. Anyways after that we proceeded to Metro Hospitality Inn for our dinner and stay ((: so anyhows. We had pasta that night. It was kinda good. Probably cuz I was hungry. And boy oh boy. It looked like a real small plate of food, but when I was done, I was sure FULL and in fact, STUFFED! Haha. Yeahh. It was filling. Anyhows. After that we went for our preparations. Oh this time, I bunked with Eddie and Ry. I took the queen bed and ry and ed took the bunks which were squeaking the whole night sigh haha. So anyways. We went for our presentations. But of course we had preparation time too lur. Same thing, sara did the slides, and the presentation was done by a few members, me shu ya, kelman, and Pamela. I did the river gradient part, shus did the depth and all yea. Kelman did the discharge. We got a pretty good result and were awarded the best group for presentation that night. ((: haha. Yeah. It was cool. After that we went to sleep.

14th Nov 2006
We woke up early that next next day. Early being like at 6.45 LOL. And so its not as bad as those who went for the chine trip cuz they woke up at 8. LOL. Anyways. Uhh. Had breakfast which was terrible it was like egg and sausage and hashbrowns and reddish terrible pasta. It was horrendous. The egg had like extra calcium cuz the egg shells were included sometimes. It was EWW. Lol. So after breakfast, yes we proceeded to Mount Barker Senior High School. What a phrase. But it was a real cool place because their system is totally different from that in our school. The girls loved soccer and football. You know like RUGBY balls? Yea those kinda lol. Anyhows, we made friends with the Australians. They had their own farm. It was cool. I shall upload some pics of the school and of the people later ((:. So after the school we went to Goundrey, the winery, it was quite fascinating cuz like Singapore had like TOTALLY nothing compared to that. It was so huge, the plant, the vineyard was like so huge they measured it in like acres and that stuff. LOL. Anyways, while waiting for the tour to begin, Ryan, Pamela, Shu Ya, and a few more of us went to this baby swing and they were like sitting on it and playing like babies. Oh. Are they? Lol. Sorry lur. Haha. Then the tour began it was cool. We had Chinese food for lunch. The food was REALLY GOOD! Haha. Although some looked real disgusting lur hhaha. But it was real good ((: After that, we went to Torndirrup National Park. It was a long journey, to the southern most part of WA where Antarctica and Australia split a few coupla million years ago. ((: the winds were so strong that the clouds moved like so quickly it was amazing and awe-inspiring. Totally wonderful LOL.. ((: haha. We took pictures, and saw the natural bridge and all. The gap which made lotsa noist as the waves came into the gap and it was like a blowhole. So yeahs. After the national park, we went to the wind farm. Where 80% of the wind power generated was used in Albany. 12 huge wind turbines. Awesome. LOL. Its like wow lur. They were so big and of course..noisy haha. Took lotsa crazy pics with the group. Anyways. Yeahs after that I think we went back. Back to the inn and had dinner. ((: it was nuggets and salad. God. My table got served when all the rest of the tables had already been served. So Carolyn saw and she said she’d treat us ice- cream (((: yays! I think of all, Carolyn was like the nicest tcr. To be honest, she was like really fun to bully and talk to ((: not a kill-joy unlike gary. LOL. Haha. Anyways. After that we had presentation preparation again ! yay! Like NO lurr.same thing, sara did the slides, and my pics were HUGE files so my group’s file was like 300 000 KB with 30 slides, whilst other groups had like 60 and theirs was so much smaller. Cuz my resolution of the pics were like huge too ((: hey it’s a 7.1 megapix lurr hahaha. So anyway the presentation was cancelled that night because like our group screwed up the thing cuz smart Kelly put his so EXTRA SMALL SD card into the computer’s larger SD card reader. So it hanged everything. All the ports couldn’t be accessed so we had to postpone it. I took the laptop back to my room and edited everything till 1 plus jia chun got the card out ((: and so I transferred the file to the other computer in my room and anyways that’s what happened. Haha. Yeahhs. Uh.. I cant remember what happened. Oh. Then I went to sleep while ry and ed were alr asleep. Haiss. Woke up early too. This time I slept on the decked beds. I woke up and banged my head against the top wires. GOD!! Haha. Both of them like looked at me. And didn’t even ask if I were OK.. how MEAN lurr. Hahaha.

15th Nov 2006
hmmms. Woke up and went for breakfast. God. The breakfast was the same stuff. Haha. Except the terrible red pasta thing was changed into like beans. But still EWW lur hahaha. Hmmms. Then after our breakfast, we set out for the Valley Of The Giants. It was quite a long way, long journey. Haha. Yeah it was. Anyways the Valley of the Giants was incredible it was so… amazing. Haha. Yeahh. Its like the whole thing is suspended over like 40 m by metal which was human-laboured years ago. And its like wow. I mean they didn’t use machines. And they could build it. Anyhows, the Valley Of The Giants was famous for the Tingle trees, they were those trees with HUGE buttress roots, and they were like burnt and so therefore creating a HUGE hole at the roots, however, after they got burnt and died, they still could be ‘revived’ sort to say. Yeah. After like a century, they can still come alive. Incredible huh. Yeahh. Amazing. Haha anyways I took pics and yeah will upload them later as well ((: hahaha. After The Valley Of The Giants, we went to the Trout Farm for lunch and to see trout! Duh! Hahaha. Yeah. Anyways. The journey was LONG and it was like by the time we reached it was way past lunch time it was like 1.30 and we still had to do a tour. Anyways. I haven’t told you, Ryan was the one who did a lot of recording and I took the pics, kelman, sara did the slides and presentations. So yeah there are the workers. Haha. I cant blame the sec2’s for not doing anything. Basically our group was really efficient. We had a human geog specialist and 7 physical geog specialists so what more do we need?? Haha. Anyways. At the trout farm a lot of stuff happened. Oh ry and I borrowed insect repellant from Carolyn haha. Yeah. So we got like less flies!!!!! For a few minutes. After that they just kept coming haiss. Hahaha. ((: anyways. We went for a tour of the trout farm. It was like cool. They had marrons too, they’re like the family of the lobster. Crustaceans. Yeah. It was good really good. Have to thank gary for that ((: haha. We had trout burger for lunch. Hmmmmms. LOL. It was……weird hah. Yeahhs. Anyhows after eating, we all went back to the bus. And low and behold, I shall underline this cuz I think it still applies. When we went back to the bus, Kelman was sharp enough to notice tht the laptop was missing. Each group(3 groups in all) were given a laptop each. Now the group leaders had to account for these laptops. And so Kelman noticed it was missing, and he immediately told Gary and well, the teachers. We panicked lur. Its like if we lost it we have to pay, the whole group. Ridiculous. So anyway. Benedict(did I spell his name right?whatever lur) found the laptop right BEHIND the back wheel of the bus. KNOWING that the bus had to REVERSE to get out, the person put it there, REMOVED THE BATTERY PACK because if the battery was in there, it would explode. And so the notebook was right beside the battery, which were behind the wheel. When we found out we were shocked beyond words. All the teachers were like WHO DID IT?!?!?! And we left for the next part of our journey. There were many people whom we suspected, but then the teachers ruled that it wasn’t done by a QSS’ian and I felt that was a total overlook, I mean how can u rule it out that one of them did it? Its not like they’re ANGELS you know… hmmms. Anyways. We were supposed to go to Yallingup Cave/ Nigili cave, but David lost his way and it was too late to go, so we had to give it a skip, we went to Yallingup Farm for our dinner. We had lamb. It was good. But the stench was still in the meat that was disgusting. Haha. The potatoes, on the other hadn were real good ((: hahaha. Anyhows, after eating, the farmer, took us into the shed and we were gonna feed the sheep ((: what are baby sheep called? Hmmms. I so forgot! Haha. Oh LAMB? It is right? Lambs. Haha. Yea. I fed one with vina. ((: they were so cute! Ahaha. We had so much fun just in one place. Oh btw, Australian signs are SO funny you’ll see some pics of them ahah. ((: alright, then we proceeded to Broadwater Beach Resort. It was the high-light of the stay, other than the NEXT DAY which was cool too so anyways haha. It was DUH beside the beach haha. And yes we did go to the beach let me relate slowly haha. But I shall classify this under the next day cuz it IS the next day anyways. However, before that, when we arrived, we were given groups again, I was in charge of 1 room, bunked with Ry, Kelly, Jing, Jia chun, Daniel and Ting wei too. Anyhows. We went for presentation again, we did a real good job, considering that the human geog was done by onl 1 person, ryan, he managed to do what the teachers wanted us to do ((: the “how man affects the environment and how the environment affects man” thing lol. Yeah that. So the teachers were pretty impressed with us, and uh huh we got first place. Hey. I didn’t say where we had dinner did i? oh I did, it was the farm haha. Alrights. We had presentation and yes, out group was the best. Haha. And ryan was really proud of himself haha. And my group was so happy haha. Yeahs. It was totally cool ! haha.

16th Nov 2006
Now at 1.30 a.m Sara, Me, Pamela, Jia Chun, Ryan, Wei Jing, Shu Ya and Kelman. We went to explore the area outside the beach resort, at NIGHT yes. Haha. We took our torches and we headed out cuz we saw the sign on the whatever board that the beach was nearby. Anyways. What we did was we went out as a group and we searched for the beach. It was SO dark we were creeped so much cuz we couldn’t see much In front ahha. But anyways we made it to the beach. I remember. The sound of those waves, the stars in the sky, so beautiful, there were so so many. Numerous. Wonderful sight. It was amazingly beautiful. I wont forget that moment, if only it could’ve been captured in flim, but oh well. Its stars, no way we could’ve caught them. Anyways we saw shooting starts ((: lovely. It was simply great. and so we decided to go back in the morning to just play with the water and stuff. But anyhows, at 5.30 a.m no one was awake except me. And so I waked ryan and called sara and we went down. It was freezing cold by 6. and the sun had risen. In fact it had risen by 5.40 I think that the whole sky was bright. Aha. Sara went to the water and I took some sand back ((: yeahs. Haha. Anyhows, went back slept for a while more, and overslept instead, packed everything into my bag and we left the premise for breakfast at uhh. Mac’s. had hotcakes! Aha. It was good. Anyhows. After that we were suppoed to go to the canal rocks, but then from experience, gary said that busselton jetty would be better so yeah. We went there instead. Btw. Busselton jetty is the picture u see above [yes that huge one] haha. Yeah. I edited the colour and it looks so beautiful! Anyway some facts. Busselton jetty is the longest jetty in the world. Something like 3-4 km. so its wow. Anyhows, we bought tickets and walked all the way to the end of the jetty. But when walking back, it started raining and I got drenched. Anyways, gary took me, wei jing, jia chun, kel and many more to HEELEZ! Its like a surf shop. I bought 120 bucks worth of stuff there. ((: haha. Bought a shirt and belt for myself. Bought a wallet for my sis. It was white. Anyhows. Also bought 2 key-chains. One red, one black . they were for xenia. Anyways. Uhh. Went back, got an ice-cream. Bubblegum flavour haha. Yeah it was cool. Gary treated my group ((: but I didn’t go down cuz I had already bought mine so yeah haha. Oh I also took pics of Carolyn and the guys at the jetty. So shall put it up later ((: gotta say joel looks real cute when he takes his specs off. Looks like some kinda..hmm..whats the right word.? Hmmms. Looks like a plushie or smth haha. Anyways. After the busselton jetty, we had to go straight to Ferguson Farm. YAY! That IS the high-light of the trip. That’s cuz it’s the most fun place! Haha. We indeed had a lot of fun. I think everyone really started bonding only at the time. The trampoline, the rabbits, the cow, the tactor, the FOOD! The stories of David. The campfire! The tea. Aww. I miss everything now. Hahs. Sigh. Oh well. Let me tell you. When we reached Ferguson, we had lunch. Cooked by the wife of Farmer John. It was so good. His wife cooks amazing food (: it was DELICIOUS! D to the E to the L I C I O U S! that’s fergie’song btw haha). Anyhows. After that we had free time on the trampoline, playing soccer and blah blah. Then we went down on the tractor in groups. It was fun. We set traps for yabbies. And it was just basically fun. It was great. Haha. After that, it was time for milking the cow, it was time for feeing the calves and it was pure interesting fun! Haha. Yeaa. Anyhows. After that it was dinner. The meal was AWESOME too! I loved it so much. Haha. Anyways after that, we went for our yabby catching haha. All of us brought torches and we went to the lake to harvest our catch ((: farmer john taught me how to hold a yabbie such that it wont claw u or yeah. so I took many of the yabbies out. ((: they were small. But there one was one in my group’s net that was HUGE it was the biggest. Haha. Brought the yabbies back and went for the campfire. Now this part I will explain later. Anyway farmer john started a HUGE fire. Look Australia has low humidity, and there is little water vapour in the air, and thus its dry, and being dry, thigns catch fire easily, so a dry tree branch could catch fire easily. But being able to burn easily cuz its dry, it got used up fast. Anyway he boiled water while telling us about his history. He and his wife were once teachers. They quit and started this home stay I mean farm stay thing it was cool. I mean sacrificing all that for this? I mean yeah its also educating but wow. Its something big don’t u think so? Haha. The fire was HUGE and we were adding tree branches and all sorts of stuff into it haha. It was wonderful haha. Anyhows, he boiled water and put tea leaves and got tea for us to drink. It was good ((: really good. Haha. I carried the yabbies and they were squirming because of the heat. Aha. Yeahhs. Its really interesting. Anyways the yabbies were for breakfast the next day. Haha. After that, we had a lot of shifting and a lot of noise and we like moved a lot. But in the end. Everything was ok. Haha. This was one of the main problems. Which I will explain later ((: haha. Yeahhs. Bunked with my whole group and with gary. It was cool. A change in arrangement though. Shall elaborate later on ((: haha. Took pics of the sunset too. Really nice. Anyhows. Went to sleep and yeah.

17th Nov 2006
We woke up, had breakfast. Haha. Yeahs. It was bread and jams and YABBIES yikes. Hahah. Anyways. The yabbies were disgusting. Wei jing took the biggest one and I cracked open the shell and something WHITE squirted out when the shell got crushed under my fingers. EWW. Yuck anyways. After breakfast it was time to go ((: except some idiots wanted to go on the trampoline again. So I went into the bunny shed with vina and Samuel and afiqah and ben to catch rabbits? I don’t know. They were so cute and adorable ((: haha. Anyhows. After that we had to leave so we said goodbye to farmer john. I think he’s a real nice person. Loved the stay a lot. Anyhows. We moved out and proceeded back to Perth for lunch. But before we reached perth, we stopped at Mandurah for shopping or free time. Bought some more stuff. Wanted to buy a jacket, It was like 89.90 AUD I mean that’s cheap ok. u cant find such prices in s’pore la. Haha. At least not QUIKSILVER or RIPCUL or BILLABONG jackets or VOLCOM or HURLEY or like any of those stuff. RUSTY either so c’mon haha. But since they didn’t have my size, so didn’t get it. Instead, got a wallet. A golden, rusty one (: it was for a special someone [winks] haha. Anyhows. Proceeded back with ry cuz he wanted to exchange cash. But couldn’t find so went to Commenwealth Bank. But the rates were so high but since he was like REALLY DESPERATE to exchange cash we just exchanged it there. Yeahs. Lent him 15 bucks to top it off making it more worth it so uh huh. Haha. Yeahs. After Mandurah we went to Perth. Had Red Roosters for lunch. It was like A LOT! One whole chicken and chips and all for like 7 bucks AUD. I don’t care how cheap chickens are over there, but the thing is SO MUCH for 7 bucks you don’t get that here do you…. Aha. There. Hmmms. So anyways. Red Rooster’s chicken was AWESOME but so much haha. Anyhows. After that we proceeded to the Environmental Centre. That place was wow. I mean they spent so much time in making sure things are going well and they are setting a good example for the country. Interesting. Haha. After that we proceeded to the Macadamia Nut Farm! Haha. I bought lotsa stuff there too. Which was a MISTAKE. Cuz I had no money for later on haha. Anyhows. Bought 2 packets of nuts(why does it sound so wrong lol) and some cream. 50 over AUD. Ahhh! Hhaha. So after that we went to Perth City Mall and we did some more shopping. This time I saw SO MANY NICE THINGS! I wanted!!! But cant lur. So anyways. We had dinner at an Indo place. Vina was so happy haha. She was like telling us when I asked is this what u eat? It was good food liked it ((: indo food haha. Anyways we had like 2 hours for shopping. Bought a brown shirt. AND I found ANOTHER jacket! This one was a nicer shade. It was horizontal blocks of brown and beige. It cost 29.95 AUD YES!!! That CHEAP! Haha. At Jeans West. But oh well. Sigh. Didn’t have my size either and I had little money. Went to Reject Shop and bought 2 candle holders and the PCD’s CD for 10 AUD omg so cheap lur haha. Its original btw haha. ((: haha. Anyhows. After that we met back at the coach and we proceeded to the airport. It was like 10 plus already. Yeahs. Haha. Reached and filled in the forms and said bye to David and May. And that was it. We went in and did some shopping and waiting at the gate. For a LONG time. Anyhows.

18th Nov 2006
Boarded the plane like at 1.30 a.m in the god-damn morning I was so tired. I was practically SLEEPING okays. Anyways. I was REALLY REALLY tired I couldn’t even remember taking off. I awoke just in time for supper. And then before it ended, I fell asleep again. This time Wei Jing sat beside me on my left. I was the aisle seat so yeah. ahah. Uhh yeah. reached Singapore. Still was quite tired, but made it through. Had a de-brief. Cleared customs easily. At that time I really really felt sad. I was gonna miss all the fun and everything. The 7 days of friends sigh. It was like a real SAD moment!!! Hais. Anyways. Made it out alive, and dad came. Yeah. fetched wei jing home I think? When I came home slept all the way through and yeah. woke up on the 19th morning even though I arrived on the 18th morning. Wait. I did go out? No I didn’t. yeah. I slept all the way hmm. Haha.

All right people. Its like real late now. 12.04 and I’ve been typing the whole day already. I’m so exhausted. I know I owe you all some stuff ((: pics and info. I shall do that tomorrow. ((: haha. And hope you’ve enjoyed reading. Sorry for the spelling errors and everything. This is REALLY tiring! Haha. My hands ache. Alright.

Love ya’ll
Muackx’s!

2006-11-24T12:53:00.000+08:00

hey people.

its like 6 days since i came back from Perth and yea. you know i'm like one of the few people who hasnt blogged about the trip so i'll be doing a post about it today. in fact since i'm so bored, i shall do the whole trip ((: hahaha.

as you already know, there's one post already down there. [points down]. so yeah. this is the second and the third one will be the longest! and you will see all the dirty and scary stuff about the trip and uhh. stuff u wern't supposed to know ((:

alrights. till later, here's here!

2006-11-24T12:10:00.000+08:00

hey people.

this is my 80th post throughout the blog ((: its been a long way and i'm happy that i've achieved something. being able to put my problems, being able to allow people an insight into my personal life. You know they say the eyes are the portal/ window to a person's soul. maybe they have to change that. i think a blog also enables you to see into someone. well that is the person shares lur. so i'd encourage everyone who doesnt already have a blog, go get one! and it does take up time, but i think it really does relieve stress. really! it DOES!! haha. ask sylvia, RIGHT?! haha. especially during exams it really helps.

alrights. lets go on to the events that happened today and yesterday. ((: yesterday i went out with xenia to watch a movie. watched Casino Royale. its quite a good show but its really LONG and its plot is quite bullshitty. anyways i'd actually rate it 4 stars. its really interesting how the actor i HATE, Daniel Craig could actually amaze me ((: i think he's old and fugly and like ilona says, (she doesnt like Tom Cruise and she says his nose is so wrinkled and all..yikes) yeah. he's like that. OLD, WRINKLED, UGLY, EWW!

so i came back at like 12. wore my lenses and went to bed. ((: wrote a few testimonials to some people before sleeping. and uhh woke up at 6.45 today. real early and then i went to ICA, the one at Kallang, next to Lavander MRT stn. so i did my I/C and uhh. well its like LONG overdue lur. so hmmms. anyways. i'm thinking of doing a bio-metric passport. you know the one the US uses? the one with thumbprint, and a microchip inside the passport itself? in-sight of the bombings, the US has taken steps like these to ensure that everything is accounted for, so even you eye colour is done and blah blah i think. LOL.

and when i came back i just came online, did some stuff and then dyed my hair. not really easy to see, unless DUH under the sun or in the light. okays. then.. i watched Belle and Cotton play. they're so cute!! they were like so cute lur. for those who don't know, Belle's a 1 year 11 month old golden retriever, and she's a girl. ((: Cotton on the other hand is 5 years and HE is a rabbit. he's white and has red eyes-albino. so yea. they used to fight but now they're so cute. btw dogs are known to kill rabbits. ask Kie Wu or Jolyn for the story of my rabbit's death. haha.

hmmms. now that i've typed everything out i think i'm getting tired and so is my back cuz its starting to ache. anyways i wana go out again! hmmms. this time i dont know where to. I WANA GO PROM NEXT YEAR! MUST HAVE!!!! EVERYONE MUST PETITION TO GO OKAYS?! if i'm not wrong its Ms Sunarti or smth so make sure YOU SUPPORT prom!!! because its so ridiculous not having. like C'MON ITS THE LAST YEAR JUST GO LURR!!! and its like. all the schools or MOST of the schools in singapore(sec schs) have proms COMPULSORY why must we like get SUPPORT and like AURGHS! just get the hell and go okays?!?! good ((: this goes out to all those born in 1991! and.... those well... THOSE IN SEC3 THIS YEAR GOING TO SEC4 NEXT YEAR!!!

alrights. thats all!
love ya'll!

2006-11-23T00:38:00.001+08:00

i just listened to a song. kinda saddening. just right for my mood. its Every Season by Nichole Nordeman. uhh. i cant remember the spelling so dont ask me to spell her name if you see me next time yeah. anyways i got the lyrics over here. its outdated. its an album from 2000. thats 6 years. but here it is:

Every evening sky, an invitation
To trace the patterned stars
And early in July, a celebration
For freedom that is ours
And I notice You
In children’s games
In those who watch them from the shade
Every drop of sun is full of fun and wonder
You are summer

And even when the trees have just surrendered
To the harvest time
Forfeiting their leaves in late September
And sending us inside
Still I notice You when change begins
And I am braced for colder winds
I will offer thanks for what has been and was to come
You are autumn

And everything in time and under heaven
Finally falls asleep
Wrapped in blankets white, all creation
Shivers underneath
And still I notice you
When branches crack
And in my breath on frosted glass
Even now in death, You open doors for life to enter
You are winter

And everything that’s new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breathe
What was frozen through is newly purposed
Turning all things green
So it is with You
And how You make me new
With every season’s change
And so it will be
As You are re-creating me
Summer, autumn, winter, spring

it doesnt mean really anything much to me. but it does have some qualities. maybe sometimes nature is the best thing to keep you relaxed and calm about all your troubles. Maybe that could mean God maybe sometimes you just shouldnt worry so much. see the thing is, even if i had said that i cant heed myself. its like why does a doctor die? cant he heal himself? thing is he HAS TO DIE get it? so i have to go through this the hard way. and i have to cry, to suffer to die inside. For what? for someone else's doings? hmm. isnt that a little unreasonable? the thing is that the person wont even know that i'm going through this will he? he thinks its just a friendship thats worthless. thats not important now that he has found other sources of friendships or more. wonderful life i lead, indeed nothing you'll want to share with me nor experience.

heard that a picture's worth a thousand words? well yes. sometimes taking a picture of me being sad could represent to the world what sadness means. what pain means what hurt means what betrayal means what everything you dont wana be is. and this hurts and impacts the most doesnt it? it leaves the deepest cut. Remember the song by Sheryl Crow? The First Cut Is The Deepest? well all cuts are the deepest and not the first. it gets perpetuated with every subsequent cut. its like tenstion, its like piling 5 Kg bricks onto someone's back sooner or later the person will collapse of sheer heaviness. so its the same. getting cut more and more through the years only makes it worse. hurts a person more. and getting hurt more only leads to self conciousness and i dont wana be thinking what happens after these issues.

if i didnt make sense in those thousands of rants, i'm sorry. but i guess its the process of growing up and experiencing life on your own. cheers

2006-11-23T00:26:00.000+08:00

hmmms.
sometimes your mood is capable of swinging so much it exceeds the 180 degree span and stretches to 270. a complete 3/4. and when that happens you basically become what i am, useless. left with nothing. you feel dejected, sad, empty, used, you're so terrified, scared, hurt, torn apart, you feel like you've been abandoned, left alone and ignored. but we humans aren't capable of inflicting such hate are we? at least not without another person or the other party knowing? i mean thats inhumane, terrible, insensetive, unco-operative. anybody could tell apart a person lying and a person who feels truly what he or she means. any person would have the basic instinct to realise that you aren't just leaving him/ her behind for no reason, there is a reason why you care so much, be it love, be it friendship. it gets harder everytime. maybe we ought to perish and never cease to exist. maybe our friends arent really friends. maybe maybe maybe. why can't things be confirmed? why cant our feelings not be played with? and when everything seems alright. and when someone's left and gone away, you just come back for more? am i supposed to be a substitute? am i supposed to be a figure-head? am i just some lousy old block of wood? am i? is that what i am made up of? is that what friendship means to you? is this real trust? i really doubt so..but..

maybe it is........at least to you it is

2006-11-22T16:33:00.000+08:00

hey peoples. hahaha.
havent added colours to my post for quite a while. hmmms.

alrights. lets see. i am like SO bored again. thanks to fanny who has been gone.. said she had trg den duno whr she is now. xenx is on her way to PJC. hmmms. and i'm BORED.. i talked to rach today. ((: talked about how much fun my trip to Preth was.. so much better than hers hahaha. cuz she had LEONG... JO LEONG. eww. yikes. anyways. also talking to Vin. she's like going back to Indo soon. ))): haha. now when fan and sam ditch me i'll have no one to talk to )): hmmmms. [cries a pooool] haha.

oh yeah. If you people know, there's a show on Star World called Desire: Table For Three. Its a great show! its wonderful. i think its confusing sometimes.. but i think its hot. totally. ((: hahaha. its showing every weekday at 5 - 6 p.m and also i think, at 10 p.m too ((: so do check it out.

Also, if you havent caught Material Girls, i think its a cool movie. i think in our lifetime we havent really watched many movies that show u what a person who is so sucessful had a crash and lives the life of a poor, commonfolk and then makes it big again. i think this movie is quite a different genre to what we use to watch, but still, since it stars the Duff sisters, i think its an awesome movie, of course, Step Up too. Yes, many girls are like going crazy over it. Anyway the songs in there are so good! hah. i downloaded them and got a few hot hits from friends too. they like it too ((: so yeah.

Alright. since i'm so bored i shall do 2 more sections before i submit my entry. ((: First i will do an update of the MSN history in short. A preview. and secondly, i would do an update of the hottest music to my ears and also, the coolest best tracks i like now! so here it goes!!:

MSN HISTORY CHANGES:
1. A mover by Xenia, up one spot, overtaking Xinying who fell one behind.
2. Samuel overtaking Ryan, who falls 1 behind.

alright. the numbers are close. so there will be a change real soon! be sure to watch for the movements right here!

NEW MUSIC IN THE INDUSTRY:
1. Fergalicious - Fergie
2. You Are Loved(Don't Give Up) - Josh Groban
3. I Go Crazy - DHT
4. Once Again - Frankie Jordan
5. Step Up - Step Up Sountrack
6. Rock Steady - All Saints
7. Irreplaceable - Beyonce Knowles
8. Say Goodbye - Chris Brown
9. Pain - 3 Days Grace
10. LDN - Lilly Allen
11. Through Glass - Stone Sour
12. Streetcorner Symphony - Rob Thomas
13. Grown and Sexy - Chamillionare
14. Material Girls - Hilary Duff & Haylie Duff

alright. these songs are a must listen. they are good and new! haha. i've filtered out some bad songs. but otherwise these are good ((: hahah. alrights. if u want them just IM me and i'll send them to you so yeahs.

i guess thats all i have to do here today ((: i'll be changing blog song soon ((: do watch that space too haha. and yeah. that's all!!

loves!
((:

2006-11-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

heyys.
third post of the day,
kinda had a mood swing. i don't know. sometimes you think its happiness. but all it is, is infact the contrary, its sadness, its just not right. it hurts you more than anything. its as if you didn't know it was there. you wana cry out loud. to someone but you cant cuz maybe that person is not meant to hear it. its not as if i could do anything but hate myself for acting and being like that. i mean the only way to solve it is for the other party to change right. sighh.

sometimes you feel like its the start of something new and then something else falls and you dont know what to do. you just feel like slamming your head in the wall. sometimes people give you hopes and you get so happy. excited. elated. and then it just stops and you fall down having a bad feeling about yourself. its just how the world treats you. sometimes you feel like life has ended. but yet you dont want it to end cuz you dont believe that your time is up. you dont believe that this is the outcome.

sometimes you cry rivers for a person, sometimes you cry the same river for another person and they all mean everything to you. sometimes your love isnt the only close person to you. sometimes your best friend's actions means more to you. sometimes 10 years makes a difference from 2. and when someone who knows you for 10 years fights with you, you just feel so sad even if your lover has been with you for 2. its just how life is isnt it? its just punishment. it just kills you slowly. it just makes you suffer so much for nothing. and to actually think that that stuff meant nothing to you? how insensetive, how callous. how mean how terrible. how inhumane how great an injustice brought unto you. you just wana cry and ask God "what have i done to deserve this plight"? and we always remember that God doesnt do things for nothing everything He does has a purpose. and then you wonder what does your friend's dong and saying have on your personal relationship. then everything changes. it falls apart. you die again.

2006-11-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

hey people.
((:
alright i was real bored. and i decided to look for my MSN history to see who's talked to me the most ((: hahaha. anyways here is what i found. the top 10 ((: oh yeah. Vin was the only person talking to me online the whole day so thats like terrible. i feel so..abandoned hahaha.

1. Xin Ying
2. Xenia
3. Fanny
4. Ryan
5. Samuel
6. Kelman
7. Esther
8. Pamela
9. Shu Ya
10. Kathy

alright. there you have it. see i was BORED! hahaha. there is a huge jump from number 2 to 3. like A LOT so yeaa. haha. small difference between 3-5 and 6-9. the rest are like eww. hahaha. anyways. i guess thats all till i get even more bored. ((:

lovess!

2006-11-21T14:55:00.000+08:00

hey people.
i just wana put my personal nickname here. :
such a wonderful place such a wonderful world such a wonderful girl with that wonderful face

it rhymes. its quite cool. anyways. for those who were talking to me on MSN late, you'd have known that my internet failed. GOD. URGHH! i was talking and doing so many things and the thing just failed. my dad looked into it and said the router is spoilt. so he set a new one up and this morning, or well, afternoon, i came down and noticed it still couldnt work. so i did some thinking and found out the damn wire wasn't even connected. how stupid is that. hmmmms. so anyways its back up ((: yay! hahaha. i swear without internet i DIED... hahaha.

i stayed up to 2 a.m just to wait for the net to come back to life. and it didnt so i slept on the couch downstairs whilst watching tv. and woke up at 6.30 realising my lesnses wernt on so i went up put them on, and went back to sleep. i got like another hour to go. sighh. hahaha. anyways. i guess this is all i have to say about the day. i wasted the whole morning sleeping, woke up at 1 p.m and had lunch and i wont be going out.

i do have a sad life don't i? hahaha. sighh. anyhows. that's all for now ((: oh. i also wrote a poem. i shall put it up here later on. haha. as a seperate post. ((: hahaha. yea.

thats all
lovess!

2006-11-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

hey people..
haha
had a hair cut today. short and ncie ((: haha. anyhows. bought the ZARA shirt already its so cool!! haha. love it so much ((: hahaha.

anyhowws. hmmms. i don't know i'm feeling kinda weird these days. maybe its because i miss all the fun we had in Perth haha. anyways. for those people who are interested in viewing the pictures taken in Perth. you can ask those who have seen them like Kelman. haha. i cant remember the link. i uploaded it onto the net already. 641 pics. yea. haha.

alrights. i dont know what to say already haha.

lets say thats all for now ((: hahaha.

llovess!

2006-11-19T17:56:00.000+08:00

hey people..
just doing another post. haha. its almost dinner time. and i've been glued to my coomputer for ages. talking to all the people whom went for the trip. i realise i not only miss Perth, and the people there, i also miss the people that went with us! its amazing. hahaha. but its true. so sighh. its boring at home ya know. SO BORING!

anyways. i talked to a few people online today. this includes fanny, vina, josephine, shi hui, shu ya, esther, samuel, sashe, kelman, and many more. ((: so it was fun. a whole day online. yay! haha. alright. then. i considered buying the Zara shirt. i think its really nice. should be buying it tomorrow. haha.

anyways. i'm having a barbeque now. and i'm not inviting people over because i dont really feel like ahahaha. cool? not cool. i'm just thinking how much work i have to do sighh. that sucks so much anyways. i'll be in japan real soon sighh. i dont wana go to such a cold country! but oh well. its the last time for relaxing. remember sec4 is a whole year of rushing! sighh. i'm listening to Lindsay's A Little More Personal. i think i miss all the old songs! hahaha. its awesome. haha.

alright. anyways i guess this is all i have to say. oh btw if you don't know Casino Royale was out 3 days ago. i dont like Daniel Craig. was that his name? whatever. but i think its a cool movie. go watch it anyway! ahaha. and Step Up is an awesome movie! yay! hahah.

till here
maybe later ya'll
lovess!

2006-11-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

heyy. forgot.
i wana wish DELIA a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND ALL THE BEST IN EVERYTHING YOU DO!!

2006-11-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

hey people.

wana do a short post right now.
australia was awesome. the school was cool. love their system and all. anyhows. it was a great trip lotsa fun and we had lotsa chances to interact, and make new friends.

anyways. its back in singapore and its hot and humid again and sighh. but its alright. now lets just try to enjoy the holidays thats left.

shall blog later yeahh.
see you all
lovesss

2006-11-10T19:50:00.000+08:00

AUSTRALIAN TRIP IS TOMORROW!!!! CAN'T WAIT! okays. i'll be away from the 11th to the 18th Nov. Won't be blogging then..

IN THE MEANTIME.......

I wana wish CHERYL TEO a Happy Birthday!!! and also, on the 17th of Nov, SYLVIA! Happy Birthday!!!May the Lord bless you in everything that you do.

Alright that's all!! lovess!!!
byes!

2006-11-07T22:08:00.000+08:00

hey peeps.
sighh. today was a bad day. lets say that i got my sickness back again okays. immunity dropped terribily. so i was like suffering in school today. anyway i dreaded lessons today, was totally horrible. haiis. anyways. tomorrow is A Math RE-EXAM and sighh i am so gonna do badly for it again. so hmmmms lemme just say that its not gonna be good. i did like some revision just now but i cant think my whole head's saturated. sigh. and i'm sigh-ing so much hmm.

Completed the Social Studies project today. Did the editing and write ups whilst Chang Yi faithfully completed the model with Shus. gotta thank them (duh they didnt fail a math and so they're SO free......) hmm yea. so anyhows. thursday is a math test and friday has NO MATH LESSONS! ahhs. cant wait for friday ((: and saturday!!!

went to the docs' just now to get more medicine. got some nose unclogger. hahaha. and uhh. antibiotics cuz i didnt wana go to australia feeling all so dreadful. its like SO much you know. omg. 1 tablet 3 times daily but there are like 18 of them. so its like 6 days and they're powerful doses. hmmm. gonna be like well before the trip. and yes i cant wait!!! hahaha. lemme brag about the trip tomorrow after the terror. hahaha.

alrights. till then i guess
its here
love ya'll

2006-11-06T14:21:00.000+08:00

hey people.

hmm. my sickness. not much of a sore throat anymore. still having the flu stuff. mucolytic substances still clogging up my nasal passage. still coughing with phlgem. ahhs. anyways. much better. went to school today. omg. people. did you know that when u have a flu and all your hearing is not acute? i just sneezed and its like suddenly i can hear clearer. LOL. anyhows. this is getting weird.

so school was kinda bad. first we had math and it was like mrs toh taught us permutations. and it was freaking crazy. and i have loads of homework. and then it was geography. kinda slacked that period. was kinda boring and all. did some weird test. which i didnt pass up hahaha. and then we went for recess. recess was kinda down too. sat with jia wei and kinda just felt down. don't know why haha. so after recess was biology. mr ma. he was such a noisy fella. like just terrible. then it was literature. REENA KAUR came in and it was like she started teaching cuz mr chai let her have 2 periods with us, scolded us too...and i mean like she gave us work. and its so hard. i dont know how i'm gonna do it. we have a math and lit work. and wednesday is a math re-exam!! arghs. and then on thursday its a math binomial test. and i'm so gonna flunk it lurr. i mean we shouldn't be studying so much we already wont have a holiday next year, just let us rest for God's sake!

anyways, i've got dental later on and optical thing. ahhhs. hmms. i think i'm gonna be so dead. probably sleep hahaha. duno lur. hahaha. so anyways that's what i have to say today. and wednesday remember people. its the deadline for submission of the S.S Project. so stupid.

till thenn
lovess!!

2006-11-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

hey people.
sigh. i'm really sick. got a bad throat, ironically- cough and sore at the same time.

and got a bad nose, also ironically- runny and blocked. almost got a fever just now, went up to 37.9 but took panadol(paracetamol) in time so yea. so now i'm having a bad cough. anyhows, today's my dad's birthday. and i, being so sick doesnt help. wanted to go shopping or something today, but we so sick i didnt even go to school. haha.

just cut the cake. chocolate cake from Afully Chocolate. yummy. would be better if i didnt have this terrible sickness. anyways. the geography trip is like less than 10 days time! can't wait for it. gonna be so fun. but of course i'm so not looking forward to my tests and re-exam for a math next week. remember people!! Wednesday is A Math re-exam and Thursday is A Math Binomial Test!!!

anyhows, i'm running out of stuff to say now. Anyhows, like i said in my last blog post, Cassie is hot and so are her songs. Long Way 2 Go is such a great song. Her video for that is super hot and great too. She has a style of danving and all its awesome. ((: ayee. that's all for today!

see ya all!!
lovess

2006-10-31T22:47:00.000+08:00

hey people.
i uploaded the new song by Christina Aguilera, Hurt. Have a listen. i swear its awesome. Its a real sad song. i know and it really does make you cry all your tears and eyes out. It will make you feel better i swear.

anyhows.
today has been a day alright. its been moody initaly really boring and sad. then after school it started getting better and it got good. then things turned around and i dont know what i was doing but oh well i really learnt something today. i don't know if its smart or i sound stupid by saying this, but if you have the determination to do something, there are no problems. if you want something, dont be afraid to reach for it, even though its out of your league, set it as your target. Just like Paris Hilton's Nothing in this world video, don't be afraid to dream.

anyhows.
my throat is getting painful again. sighs. someone please rip my throat away from me arghhs. ahha. anyhows. till here people! plus, i wana thank you all for visiting my blog. i really thank you for reading all my shit here. (:
lovesss

2006-10-30T20:17:00.000+08:00

ever felt like you were sad and your love makes it worse?
maybe thats how it was but i don't know maybe i was just fooled by my pride and maybe i was just so lost, so scared to think what would happen without her.

well, its been a BAD day i seem to be having worse and worse days recently more commonly, higher frequency sigh. i really don't know. is it my fault that she has so many problems? cant be right? then why can't they tell guys about their problems. ok not any o guy about it i know how seretive the matter can be. but its the person she loves and the person who loves her. why cant they share their problems? can it be only one way? or is there something wrong i don't know. being troubled happens only because you don't have the willpower to overcome the problem. if you share your problems with someone who understands you at least what's bothering you, then i mean there isn't much of a hassle anymore is there?

school was boring today. stepping ahead sigh. 9 more days. S.S project has been postponed till next week. so glad. at least i cant focus on my problems of a relationship if that's what you wana call it. its like a lie. its not real. just don't get it. talked over it countless of times, yet she's not bothered about it at all. is that weird or what. i don't know. i'm so confused. half the time i dont know what i've said. i cant even recall what i typed above. sighh. i'm so sorry people. just bear with me a little longer.

Anyways, An Inconvenient Truth is out, i think its an awesome movie!!! Geography students MUST watch this movie. It's about global warming and yes i think its worth that max 10 bucks u invest. Cassie has got really good songs. Go have a listen to Long Way To(or 2) Go by her. its an awesome track!!! and Justin Timberlake too, his latest hit, My Love.

anyhows, i'm having my dinner now. food really does help you forget about some of your problems especially if they're you favourite good which you juts wana gobble down.

anyhows
till here!
lovesss

2006-10-28T19:09:00.000+08:00

hey people..
yea i'm blogging at 7. well nothing special about that just that i usually am doing other stuff at this time. so yea. anyhows, i figured that i could do the iPod so yea its functioning well now hahaha.

uhhs.
i dont know what to say and what i'm doing anymore.

shall end off here.
see you all !!!

2006-10-28T01:03:00.000+08:00

today has been an extremely boring day. i did nothing and i stayed at home all day. how cool!! wow. i mean like the first time in weeks that i felt BORED. come on save me someone??

anyways i'm not crazy to blog at 1 a.m. well i never do such stupid things like this because i'm bored. i would've been asleep. i'm doing my iPod. and APPLE SUCKS arghhs. i've tried uploading my pics in like 3 times already and they say they "can't locate the file" or something. paraphrase. anyways. i swear if these 1900+ pics dont go in i'll lodge a complaint with Apple.

anyways.
i guess its till here people!
much lovee

2006-10-27T15:30:00.000+08:00

Do you not realise that so0metimes things are so coveted that it appears to be alright to do such a thing? like say for example, the example parents love to use, sex. if everyone's doing it means its ok that i do it right? i mean sometimes a trend is so common that it seems natural to do it, but reality is that its not but we dont even know.

i'm listening to the song you hear now, and its like it really does mean something. maybe sometimes we don't wait for things to take its course and we make it happen. we make love happen when its not supposed to. we act rashly, i mean as a person who has encountered so many mistakes in life, i have to say that before we do things, please think twice and when you think twice, you HAVE TO think twice with the correct mindset no the "i just wana get this over with" mindset. that way its as good as not even thinking.

Ever asked yourself questions such as "Is love so difficult?" or like "What did i do wrong to get into so much pain?" or like "Is there something wrong with me?" or maybe "Why does this have to happen to me?"

sighs. i don't know. maybe sometimes people's sensetivity aren't that good, but the thing is how do you get the person to be sensetive?? come on face it, a real relationship has to have sensetivity from both sides and appropriate insensetivity. but if someone's not sensetive, then the relationship is not real which means its not love. but sometimes a person's sensetivity isn't strong enough, and this makes it harder cuz the person's sensetive still, and he/she knows that if you get sad cuz of his/her insensetivity, there is a reason and obviously the reason is his/her insensetivity. How do you, then, tell the person that she/he is not sensetive enough? you cant just go up to the person and say "you're not sensetive ENOUGH" i mean if the person's not sensetive, the person's not emotional and you can say "You're not sensetive" that okay, but "NOT SENSETIVE ENOUGH" is not.......its demanding and its just wrong. i mean think about it.

sighhs.
anyways. i don't know what i'm doing. ranting on and on over here. school's offically cosed, although we got 2 weeks of stepping ahead programme. that's another 10 days of school and yea.

alrights
till here
lovessss

2006-10-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

you know how sometimes you feel as if you're the luckiest person in the world?then when u least expect it, you fall flat on your face? and you realise that you aren't the only one?

sometimes you feel s if you have got the ball in your court but in actual fact, its not?

seomtimes you feel that you're in control and you're the one but you arent?

sometimes you feel s if her words make you feel so loved, but they're just a deception?

sometimes you try your best to fight against your soul that tells you that she's cheating?

sometimes its so hard to even believe our lover?

sometimes sometimes sometimes i wish i was stupider so that i would keep thinking such negativity. sometimes i feel that my love is being challenged. if that is what it is maybe its better to not even try? sometimes you choose her over others and then you get the fruit of your labour? and that is getting hurt by her cuz there was a possibily that she loves someone else? i don't know. this just happens doesn't it?

signing off

2006-10-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

hey people.
today has been totally tiring. hmmms lemme start off by saying i went to church late. oh by the way, i wana thank ABDULLAH for saying my rants are what? nice? haha. also, if you listened to the whole song you'd have realised that the song shuts off halfway and starts again, i'm sorry, but thats how it is. you either live with it or get the fuck out of here. (:

so. anyhows, i went to church late and i was so tired, i practically slept during sermon. Pastor Khoo Kay Huat was talking about 1 and 2 Samuel about David and the...what was that thing called? the Arc(h) of the Lord? i don't know i'm so sorry i forgot, i told you i was sleeping...... cant' blame me okayss... hahaha. then, he went on to talk about the story about David and Uzzah and blah blah you know.. the whole Tabernacle thing. yeah.

then, i went to have lunch with Stel and Shen, and it was great. we had quite a lot of fun and made jokes here and there. i love myself for the stupid jokes i make. well i mean i feel stupid sometimes but not as stupid as you to be reading this paragraph cuz its so shitty. okays. next, i went to Vivo City today. i mean LIKE WHAT THE FUC* THAT IS THE BIGGEST SHOPPING PLACE I'VE BEEN TO IN SINGAPORE. i saw priscillia and her mother? i dont know haha. i guess so it was HUGE man the place. a tip, go during a weekday or smth, it was fugging crowded i got so sick i came home. There is EBASE, ZARA, TOP(MAN)SHOP, GUESS, GAP, and so many more its so nice hahaha. its really crowded so don't go on a weekday! it just isn't like Singapore, other than the fact that it was SO CROWDED and there were KIASU people trying to get at the free food at Giant. GOD so stupid arghh. i feel ashamed........

I came back and i was so tired i dont know what i did in the end and i had a weird dinner. quite odd seriously. sighhhs. anyways. i'm being so weird here. okayys. lemme see. OOOH. TOMORROW IS ENGLISH RESULTS DAY! YAY!!!! hahahaha. there are so many clothes to buy!! i wana buy! arghhs. after the australian trip its gonna be SHOP SHOP SHOP!!!! YAY! hahaha. i'm going crazy baby. hahaha.

alright. that should be about it (:
thats it (:
haha
lovesss.

2006-10-21T21:20:00.000+08:00

hey people.
got a new song on my blog. Watched 3 shows on DVD today. The Perfect Man had this song called Learn To Love Again by Kaci Brown. here are the lyrics!:

"I Will Learn To Love Again"

(To love again...)

Drowning in tears that wont be me
I will soon be free the chains of all this pain inside
And though I cry it wont be long till I regain the strength to know
I can go on
I will find my way through the heart break I will not give up on love
I believe

I will learn to love again I will learn to trust
Once this heart can start to mend
I will learn to
Learn to love again

All of these tears time will dry them I will survive them
And make it through into another day all of this pain
Time will heal it there抣l be a time sometime I know
I won't feel it
I will live through life without you after the hurting is done
I believe

[Chorus]

I will find someone who deserves my touch after all the hurt is through
I will be so over you I will not give up on love
I believe yeah

[Chorus]

Oh yeah yeah oh oh love again

(To love again...)

alright. its quite nice right? techo-ish and really a great, inspiring momentum. okay i deserve to be a lawyer. that's because i can bullshit so much. see, srt of bullshitting is Literature. did you know that? haha. yeah. it kinda is. all hummanities are like a load of bullshit.

anyhows. lemme say a HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHANG YI!! okays. lets make that a HAPPY BELATED 2 DAYS AGO BIRTHDAY TO CHANG YI!! hahaha. it was fun for the 3 hours tha ti stayed (: anyways. yesterday was a Friday and it was kinda okay. watched The Prestige and the day before i watched The Guardian. they were alright. The Guardian is a good show. Ashton Kutcher is real good in that movie. In The Prestige, its a really confusing story. i bet if i got confused so will you. okay look... Self Praise is International Disgrace. so i'm like disgracing all of you. ok i twisted that meaning. hahaha.

Do have a listen to these songs:
1. The High Road--Jojo
2. Ride For You--Danity Kane
3. Before He Cheats--Carrie Underwood
4. Do It(To It)--Cherish ft Sean Paul
5. Beautiful Love--The Afters

alright. let me shed some light on the status of these songs. The High Road is Jojo's new album coming out this winter 2006, titled THE HIGH ROAD, the album consists 12 songs with her smash hit Too Little Too Late.

Danity Kane, here is some news about them i found today, taken from TeenMusic.com:
Four Members Of Danity Kane Injured In Car Crash
Oct 16, 2006 - World Entertainment News Network
Four members of Sean 'Diddy' Combs' group Danity Kane were injured in a limousine accident on Thursday en route to a performance in Toledo, Ohio.
The five female singers, Aubrey Morgan O'day, D Woods, Shannon Rae Bex, Dawn Angelique Richard and Andrea Aurora Fimbres won the third instalment of Combs' reality talent competition Making The Band.
According to an accident report filed with the Toledo Police Department, the group members, minus Woods, who caught a later flight to Toledo, had just finished an appearance at a radio station.
They were heading to a concert performance when the left side of their black Lincoln Town Car was struck by another vehicle at an intersection.
Three passengers complained of head pain and were transported to St Vincent's Mercy Medical Center by another limousine that arrived on the scene.
A fourth member was also involved in the accident, according to MTV News.
Two of the three people identified in the report - Bex and O'Day (listed in the report as Aubrey L'day) - are members of Danity Kane.
According to a St Vincent's spokesperson, members of the group "were treated and released."
The group was forced to cancel Thursday evening's performance, as well as a show on Friday night in Rochester, Michigan.

The Show Stopper stars were recently announced as one of the opening acts on Christina Aguilera's North American tour, which is scheduled to begin in February.

About Carrie Underwood, if you havent heard(if you're that outdated.....) She was from one of the American Idols. She looks identical to Kelly Clarkson. Except, i think probably Carrie's voice is more hoarse and powerful. Kelly's is clearer hahaha.

For the song: Beautiful Love, you will realise that its the opening song of Laguna Beach oh by the way, the third installment of Laguna Beach has debuted on MTV last Tuesday haha. catch it every Tuesday!!! its good hahaha.

alright i think that's about all.
I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO THE AUSTRALIAN TRIP!!!! CAN'T WAIT!!!! YAYS!!! hahaha. okays till here people. that's all i got with me today!!

take care!
lovess

2006-10-18T16:33:00.000+08:00

hey people.
decided to blog today.
thank you all for not bothering me for the last few days. i mean other than seen teng who kept calling me a DOOFUS please not dooful. anyways. its much better. aint having such bad problems anymore hahaha.

today was a bad day for me. let me relate the situation to you. you wake up late and you go to school and its still quite hazy. imagine how hot the air would be. then you sit in the parade square waiting for all the different teachers to finish announcing and then comes mr chua who talks so much to us that we could probably die instead of listen. how cool huh. finally when he lets you go, you get to your class for lessons. first lesson was Ms Leong and she went through exam paper. HOW COOL! WOW THATS COOL! isnt that just lovely. then next wsa chemistry. and mdm sim went through the exam paper too. now that made my attention span last LONG! so long i think i died half way. after that it was recess THANK GOD. after recess was english. Ms B didnt come and i wanted to join Band 1 but then Gary Tan said no so i didnt. and i did this twisted tale thing. 5 fairy-tales combined in one. it was gruesome. kinda fugging terrible morbid stroy. anyways. after english waws chinese and Wang ying didnt come for the first period. KOH came in. oh. KOH is Potassium Hydroxide aka. Ms Koh aka. Alexis. so yea. and she was being a rather noisy bitch. well when arent bitches noisy..... so it was irritating and i wanted to die at that moment. then after the chinese was mrs toh's period. she used the CME period as an A math period. no wonder i have had no morals for 2 years since Mr Wong also changed P.D periods to Math and now its better. its changed to A Math. what joy it brings.

i just love sarcasm. it is so fun sometimes i even wish i could use it on teachers so that they'd get so confused they'd have a feel of how terrible the life of a student is. well anyways. Anyway i'm talking to Xin Ying online now. this reminds me. i wana blog about 2 issues. i'll try one topic first. while its fresh. Music. let me take you into a different perspective.

MUSIC.
what comes to your mind when you think about MUSIC? what rings in you? a tune? or a face? your own song? your voice? what IS music?? ever associated music with a story? its amazing. you can. it really is. especially if the song is not metallic or rap-ish. try it. next time listen to a song over and over again while u read a book. finish the book. everytime you hear the song it'll remind you of the stroy, of the events. its powerful. its the mind. our brains are that powerful. its amazing. i listened to Jessica Simpson's song: Be while reading Harry Potter's 6th? installment? and everytime i hear it. it takes me back to the place, its like i'm in the location. its magical. its wonderful. its really powerful. try it.

alright. thats all. urms. i'll blog about some relationship-wise stuff soon. check back yeahs? oh btw Xin Ying, i'll be blogging for your sake k. hahah. i think i should voice some stuff that i feel strongly about. (:

much love people

2006-10-16T20:57:00.000+08:00

i just really don't know what to do now.
sometimes you feel like you've just been air-lifted off the battle ground and the next second you realise that you're in the middle of the same one you were fighting just minutes ago.

does your heart ever tell you that? well today has been that day for me. and i have no reason to believe that i should include details of this, although i really need help.

i just wana pray to God that i hope this is part of His plan. for me to go through all these struggles so that i'll emerge as a geek or a freak or whatever creature i will be. I don't know. i'm just feeling so downright stupid and i don't know.

shan't rant any longer.
loves people.

2006-10-14T12:58:00.000+08:00

hey people.
decided to blog today. (:

anyhows. listening to DRIVE! its by Vanessa Hudgens. its a hot song. really. she has great songs like Let Go and Drive and Never Underestimate A Girl and Promise. Its really good. go have a listen. i couldnt find them in Music Radio Blog so dont bother going there. maybe try iTunes. but you only get a 30 sec hear. so anyhows. its your call (: yea yea yea. so have a good time.

oh yea. here are the lyrics to DRIVE!:

I don't claim to know it all
I've had some wins I've had some falls
The road is long and time is short
I don't wanna spend too much time in thought
I don't intend to play it safe
I've gotta move to find my place
I wasn't born for small talk crowds
I know what I want and its not in this town
I don't wanna just survive
I'm gonna hit the road I'm gonna drive

[Chorus]
I've hit the highway, and I'm not comin home
I'm gonna drive
I'll do it my way, I'll call you on the phone
When I arrive
It's all I got and I'm not gonna stop for no one
In my way as long as I'm alive
I'm gonna drive

Everything I said I meant, nothing comes by accident
I'll change my name, change my face
To want something better is no disgrace
I'm just following the signs
Keep my eyes ahead I'm gonna drive

[Chorus]
I've hit the highway, and I'm not comin home
I'm gonna drive
I'll do it my way, I'll call you on the phone
When I arrive
It's all I got and I'm not gonna stop for no one
In my way as long as I'm alive
I'm gonna drive

I've come a long way
I see the light of day
I think I've found the answers I'm looking for
And there ain't no reason
For turning back, its just one life
I'll play the hand I've got
I'm gonna drive

[Chorus]
I've hit the highway, and I'm not comin home
I'm gonna drive
I'll do it my way, I'll call you on the phone
When I arrive
It's all I got and I'm not gonna stop for no one
In my way as long as I'm alive
I'm gonna drive

alright. hahaha. nice song aint it? ummms. anyhows. today has been pretty boring ya know. its been like wake-up-and-do-nothing boring. get the picture? sighs. i am so worried for english results. i dont wana drop bands. i think for chinese i'll probably rise. but that cuz of some other reason RIGHT KIE WU hahaha. but u noe. lets see how the paper 1 goes. (: anyhoots. urms. yea. i've got like nothing else to say other than to bore u out. its a saturday and i'm so bored at home. i feel like going out but theres nothing to do is there........?

sighs.
"i've hit the highways and i'm not coming home i'm gonna drive"
ahhhhs. see its infectous..
"i'll do it my way i'll call you on the phone when i arrive"
hmmmms. interesting. anyhows. see how BORED i am?? sighhs.

anyhows
i'll end off here people!!
much love ya'll!!!!!!
to you too dear

2006-10-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

hey people.
results dont exactly suck
i passed quite ALRIGHT-LY really. yeah.

lemme show u the results:

1. Combined Sciences: 60.5/100
2. Geography: 52/100 (Overall 54/100)
3. E Math: 60/100
4. A Math: 36/80(45/100)
5. English Paper 2: 29.5/50
6. Chinese Paper 2: 57/100
7. Literature: 28.5/50. S.S: Unknown

see i only failed possibily 1 subject so far, that is A math. i assume that my english and chinese will pass. therefore i'll just get an alright 5 credits! but oh well. i hope that you people do well too!!! hahaha.

anyhoots
thats all. really tired now
stomach hurts BAD.
see ya'll love ypu people

2006-10-12T23:32:00.000+08:00

hey people.

haha. sorry havent been blogging for quite a few AGES. donkey ages that is yeah. anyways. TOMORROW IS LIKE DEATH DAY DUDES AND DUDETTES!!!! RESULTS!!!! barath told me that :

5 people from 301
1-2 people from 302
abt 10 ppl from 303
1-2 ppl from 304 and 305

WILL BE RETAINED! Mr chua told some prefect whom i wont disclose here. thanks barath. that really RAISED OUR HOPES ABOUT THIS MATTER! arghs. omg people. this sucks. but i'm not really afraid. i mean out of 40 whats the chance i'll be the 1 or 2??

*****horrible outcome......******
[the very next day]
Chinese.English,Maths(both),Hummanes(both),Science -- 3 passes. GOD PLEASE NO!!!!

[bobs back to reality]

arghhs. i'm gonna have a tough time sleeping today people.well. i guess you people wont see this post until tomorrow because its 11.29 and people are probably ZZZZZZZZ'ing.

TAG REPLIES:
anyhoots KIE WU NO. BELLE IS MINE! AND I DO NOT APPROVE A MARRIAGE WHICH IS HOLY AND PURE BETWEEN HEARTS OF U AND BELLE(my baby girl) NO! NO WAY!

thanks pam. thx for visiting. i didnt really get you though (:

SYLVIA! haha. thanks for visiting. haha yea here it is (: and and and. you shouldnt be retained ba. hahaha. rest assured la. u wont kays. (:

Barath!!! thanks for the SCARY NEWS ahahaha. and NAHH! u wont haha. I DONT WANA THOUGH! HAHAHA.

Shans.....i mean like u didnt really grow princess.......hahaha. but tis still hott. (:(:

aites. thats all people.
i guess this is all. and and ooh. I LOVE THE SONG!:
I DON'T NEED A MAN by THE PUSSYCAY DOLLS! (wink. no i really dont. i need a woman haha. well that was lame..........................)
hott!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(from El Nin-yo)-"you're burnin' hottt..."

thats all princes and princesses!
lotsa love
especially to u dearest.

2006-10-07T11:55:00.000+08:00

hey people. hows stuff amongst you people. i mean like 2 more papers dudes and dudettes! haha. anyhoots. lemme say this. CHEM PAPER AND BIO SUCKED. well bio was worse. but chem was not any much better. A MATH SUCKED TOO. and don't even think of asking why.

nows. since i figured that so many bloggers have talked about. i dont know. they just blogged after friday. its like 2 or 1 more paper for some people, so its like the exams are over! but of course not exactly i still got GEOG PAPER 1 and CHINESE PAPER 2. THIS SUCKS OKAYS! anyhows i'm not gonna really be studying lur. not really THAT kind u noe. haha. chinese? nahhh.

anyhows. after the exams i went to the hawker to try to ease my mind of the stupid exams and all you know, the stupid people there took out the a math paper started talking about it. what a stupid thing to do. arghs. what a dumb thing to do. anyways. after that went to the library to meet shanin and jewel. Jewel's changed a lot. that really good. she's become more mature and lots taller. i mean not that shans isnt tall or anything. wait she isnt. but never minds hahahaha.

anyways. after that came home and changed and stuff. went to orchard and got my adidas stuff. had a voucher so yea. got shoes :) 139 bucks. uh huh. its awesome. and so.. so so so so so so so so. so yeah. that was so lame. urms. oh yea. den i watched JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE! its such a good movie. not that classy, but its quite cool. the main character looks like Kelly Clarkson sometimes. really. many people do look like Kelly. i mean wow. thats kinda cool. hmmms. hahah.

anyhows. i guess thats about all i gotta say! and oh. STUDY HARD FOR EXAMS!!

2006-10-05T15:43:00.000+08:00

hey people.

had a HORRIBLE DAY today sighs.
this post is gonna be quite long i think cuz i'm like downloading something and i'm not gonna start studying until it has finished downloading (: yay right? whatever.

lemme rant. :

firstly, i didnt study my bio long enough. in fact, i fell asleep while studying. i stuided till like 11.30 or something den after that i feel asleep haha. sighs. so i didnt finish studying 4 chapters. THATS BAD OKAYS. and so, i woke up in the morning finiding myself holding a pen hanging over my work. yes i studied on the bed. INTERESTING METHOD? thats when u wana sleep. thats a formula. SYLVIA THIS IS THE REAL WAY TO ESCAPE STUDYING! STUDYING ON THE BED. trust me, unless you're some kinda AMAZING NON-SLEEPING person, you'll surely FALL ASLEEP! yay! OKAYS thats bad okays. hahaha. here's the exam and i feel asleep not studying.

anyhows. e math exam was pretty easy. kinda confident that i'll do well cuz i could do many questions. but whether they are correct is another thing. and geog, not really worried. hope i will be able to score high marks for that and LIT too! hahaha. anyhows. bio exam ruined my exam spree.

BIO WAS HARD ALRIGHT! i so died in that. sighss. i mena even the 20 MCQ were difficult! and i like arghs. i couldnt do them! i guessed more than 70% of everything. and i'm so gonna fail my science subject like that. ARGHS. furthermore, tomorrow is chemistry. and it sucks bad time. thats simply because i dont listen to Mdm Sim during her lessons. its PLAIN BORNING okays. believe me. and.... i dont listen to mr ma cuz he craps a lot too! and so therefore, i will fail my science subject. in this case, that means i can only fail another subject. and A math is risky and so is chinese. and my hummanes i dont know if i really did well. so HOW?!?!?

arghs. SOMEONE SAVE ME!!! PLEASE! i am so gonna do badly for this year's exams. its gonna be a miracle if i do well. except say for example, e math. and english. i wana stay in band 2 or go up to band 1. I DONT WANA FALL BANDS TO BAND 3! I DONT WANT MR JUSTIN!!!

you know i did really well for mid years. i got 34/50 for my paper 2. i just checked it and i found out that i got ALL the points for summary and thats why i did so well. and i'm positive that this end of the year i wont get so many points. i'm SO GONNA DIE!!! arghs.

Tomorrow is A math and Chemistry. did i say that already? see i dont even know what i've typed. GOD THE DOWNLOADING IS SO SLOW!! its only 34% now. arghs. anyhoots, A math i really have no confidence. i'm gonna practice later. and probably try studying a little chem. i dont know lur. its just irritating how i cant even do well for a particular subject. especially CHINESE i just wana PASS okayss. sighss. please lur. my life cant be worse than yours can it? i dont wana get retained but oh well. remember i was supposed to do the thing about retention? i shall do it on 10th, 11th or the 12th of October, thats our school's marking days. and i dont have anything on the 10th so yeah.

its 40% downloaded. 60% more to go. sighs. since i'm so bored lemme list my a math topics to study:
1. Logarithams (lgy=1)
2. Sets (A U B')
3. Linear Law (Plot lgy against x)
4. Simultaneous Equations (Eqn 1 sub into Eqn 2)
5. Coordinate Geometry (y=mx+c, distance, midpoint)
6. Functions f(x)
7. Quadratic Functions and Equations b(sq)-4ac
8. Trigonomitry (sin, cos, tan. Proving and solving)
9. Binomial Therom (the nc thing)
10. Matrices (i dont know how to explain)
11. Circular Measure (r thetha, 1/2 r(sq) thehta)
12. Remainder Factor Therom (
13. Quadratic Inequalities y=2x-3-4 Sketching and -13
14. Surds (Irrational roots like i dont know how to explain)
15. Exponential Equations/ Functions (i think its like Indices except it is harder??)

i cant think of anymore. i think thats all hahaha. yay 91%. 9 % more. sighs. i think i am so gonna fail my A math. i mean like it looks so simple. but there are so many things to remember. like for Quadratic Functions, the b(sq)-4ac thing, the discriminant, there are so many. and you have to remember. and you have to remember the trigo thing. the sin(sq)x + cos(sq)x = 1 that stuff. its like arghs. oh anywayss. i shant complain so much already hahaha. 94% now.

remember there are night classes tonight held in school. For Maths!!! and CHEMISTRY! wait is Mdm Sim gonna be there?? i dont know. but oh well. I'm still considereing whether to go down, cuz i really need help in these 2. like a LOT okayys. sighss. please lur. i'm not so good okays i suck yeah. hahaha. whatevers.

oh well. should end the bullshitted story. [smiles people]
much love!!!

2006-10-04T18:06:00.000+08:00

hey peoples. shall do some entertainment news and updating of music here on my blog today!

now. These articles are taken from TeenMusic.com and here they are:

Pussycat Dolls Slam Split Reports

Sexy pop six-piece The Pussycat Dolls has slammed reports they are on the verge of splitting up.
The American group, who derived from the Los Angeles burlesque dance troupe, leaped to fame last year with their huge hit Don't Cha.
Frontwoman Nicole Scherzinger's recent solo work with Sean 'Diddy' Combs and opera star Vittorio Grigolo has fuelled speculation the girls are going their separate ways.
However, a spokesman insists the girls are very much together.

Beyonce Plagiarism Case Thrown Out

A court case alleging Beyonce Knowles stole lyrics from another singer was thrown out of a Houston, Texas, court yesterday.
Minneapolis, Minnesota, songwriter Jennifer Armour alleged in legal papers that the former Destiny's Child star used her lyrics from the track Got A Little Bit Of Love For You in her 2003 hit Baby Boy.
Armour claimed a demo recording of the song was sent to Columbia Records, which is the home of Knowles - but the presiding judge ruled the tracks are "substantially dissimilar".
Knowles said in a statement: "It's unfortunate that lawsuits such as this one occur, but I am grateful and relieved to have this behind me and I am eager to move on."

Aguilera Defends Hilton's Pop

Christina Aguilera has heaped praise on pop rival Paris Hilton for having the guts to try her hand at music.
The hotel heiress released debut single Stars Are Blind earlier this year and was panned by critics and musicians alike for the effort.
However, Aguilera insists new artists are always "welcome" in the industry and doesn't mind the competition.
She says, "There are always going to be other records and other singers out there, and years from now I'm sure there'll be the next Christina Aguilera coming up.
"I welcome it.
"I think it's great that Paris goes for what she wants."

alright thats all hahaha.
now shall do some music interestings:
1. JESSE MCCARTNEY'S ALBUM- RIGHT WHERE YOU WANT ME
Songs like : Feelin' You and Just So You Know, Right Back In The Water

2. Vanessa Anne Hudgens - Album: V
Songs: Promise, Let Go, Never Underestimate a girl [hell yeah]

3. Beyonce Knowles - BDAY!!
Songs: Ring The Alarm, Deja Vu(yes the popular one), Angel

4. Paris Hilton - PARIS
Songs: Nothing In This World

5. Christina Milian - OST of Be Cool
Songs: Believer, Aint No Reason

6. Mandy Moore - The Best Of Mandy Moore
Songs: It's Gonna Be Love

these are some cool songs. check them out. really cool. well today had geog and chinese exam. it was crazy man. ESPECIALLY CHINESE! i mean duh. i suck in chinese what the hell right hahaha. so i totally died. i think i screwed the thing up ahaha. anyhows. tomorrow is BIO and E MATH PAPER 2. sighs. this is gonna be difficult. hahahas. anyhoots. on friday, its A math and Chemistry sighssss........

oh wells. i guess its till here people
really tired. shall do some studying now!

much loves

2006-10-03T15:11:00.000+08:00

hey people.
sighs its been a tiring day already. its like been a BAD day. hahaha.

lemme share with you:
Went to school kinda earlier, studied a little. Had Social studies exam. thing is that one of the questions was a USEFULNESS question. USEFULNESS questions are based on what is give and what is not. that is how u tell if its useeful. cool eh? problem? thats cuz the topic was on chapter 7, the Inudstrial chapter. and i didnt know. and i bullshitted 25 marks there. sighss. so dead.

the structured essay section, i wrote on Merger and Seperation. more confident in those parts. the Conflict amongst contries and Dimplomacy and Deterrence was harder. hahaha.

anyhows. i dont know what else to say. i just hope i pass. anyway SS exam ended at 9.15 and i had lotsa time to go cuz tuition was at 11.20. so i went down to the canteen and hung with XY and some of the prefects. i also hanged out with Shiying who is like the WEIRDEST girl ever. and june and cheryl chew. who was the MEANEST cuz its so frustrating how they start bullshitting. and chang yi. i left at 10.50, took 105 to Dover Park View for math tuition. lasted like 2h15 mins. almost died doing a math sighs. hahaha.

anyhows. tml is GEOGRAPHY PAPER 2 and CHINESE PAPER1 !!!! arghs. this sucks SO bad. i dont know how in the world i'm gonna do it. sighss. anyhows. i dont know what to say AGAIN hahaha.

Wishing everyone Good Luck for your Exams again and my God Bless ya'll.

see ya people.
have to start geog. would die if i dont study haha.
Much love

2006-10-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

hey people. currently listening to Here Without You. such a sad song aint it? i mean its cool. makes you think of being with the one you love, but if you're out of it, it just makes you wana cry out so bad.

anyhows. today had our E math paper 1. i mean i hate to say this, but i think it was rather easy. really quite confident of passing. i mean paper 1. hahaha. usually if paper 1 is easy, paper 2 is hard. so hmmms. hahaha. PREPARE PEOPLE.....

now, lets talk about the harder of the two. -ie. obviously lit. btw i just came back from KAP. saw 2 or 3 people from Wesley. cool huh. the Christian community is so strong just around us. haha. wel thats cuz many MG and AC boys and girls go to KAP. so anyhows. lit was CRAZY. mr chai is such a sick freak. both the PROSE AND POETRY WERE ABOUT SEX............ c'mon. whats this about man hahaha. so he sees that we understand its about sex and i get a point? hahaha.

tomorrow is Social Studies. Trust me, Ms Leong(Jo) set it. and trust me it'll be hard. sighss. i dont know. i spent so much time studying it all today, but i think nothing really did go in. sighss. PLEASE LORD DONT LET ME FAIL!!!! i cant fail SS! otherwise if i do badly in Lit, then i'm DEAD. sighs. and Geog is 2 days away and i know i've got LOADS of syllabus to study and i'm hardly close. GOD! please.....

arghs. i'm so screwed arent i?? anyhows. single-ship can be fun right Stella?? i mean its better than being bonded to someone else for a while. its not forever, but its temporary and it sucks real bad sometimes. especially if the relationship is a bad one. sighs. anyhows i'm not gonna start ranting although i probably have already done so.

WELL GOOD LUCK YOU PEOPLE STILL UP NOW. ITS A SIGN TO GO TO SLEEP!!! EXAMS ARE TOMORROW! HAHAHA.

much love,
thank u for visiting my blog so often people.
love ya'll

2006-10-01T11:57:00.000+08:00

hey people..
so sorry havent been blogging. NO I HAVEN'T BEEN STUDYING!
i just had so many problems, tried to solve them by myself but oh wells. i'm here now and THANK YOU SYLVIA FOR ASKING ME TO BLOG!!at least someone wants to read something. well that makes it sound like my blog is boring...... IS IT SYLVIA?!IS IT?!??!?!? gahhs.

i'm so crazy hahahaha. anyhows. lets get down to it. tomorrow is: LITERATURE and E MATH PAPER 1!!!ARGHS! i cant bring myself to remember all the lines of lit. sighh.s lets hope the context questions are from act1 or 2 cuz i can answer them better hahaha. sighs. e math i dont know. i just have a bad feeling that i'll fail e math. hahaha. that sucks right? ahaha. yes it does. cuz if u fail e math you'd get FUC*ING RETAINED! arghs. stupid thing about retained. well i shall blog about the retain thing another time. Got some info about the retain thing. hmmmms. lets see now, i just wana go slack and do some revision for tomorrow. ahhgs.

i love you people.
love my baby more.
i love myself. EW. is that self-love which means monosexual?! haha.

anyhows. see you guys soon.
loves!!

2006-09-28T15:48:00.000+08:00

DORMITORY:
When you rearrange the letters:
DIRTY ROOM

PRESBYTERIAN:
When you rearrange the letters:
BEST IN PRAYER

ASTRONOMER:
When you rearrange the letters:
MOON STARER

DESPERATION:
When you rearrange the letters:
A ROPE ENDS IT

THE EYES:
When you rearrange the letters:
THEY SEE

GEORGE BUSH:
When you rearrange the letters:
HE BUGS GORE

THE MORSECODE:
When you rearrange the letters:
HERE COME DOTS

SLOT MACHINES:
When you rearrange the letters:
CASH LOST IN ME

ANIMOSITY:
When you rearrange the letters:
IS NO AMITY

ELECTION RESULTS:
When you rearrange the letters:
LIES - LET'S RECOUNT

SNOOZE ALARMS:
When you rearrange the letters:
ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S

A DECIMAL POINT:
When you rearrange the letters:
IM A DOT IN PLACE

THE EARTHQUAKES:
When you rearrange the letters:
THAT QUEER SHAKE

ELEVEN PLUS TWO:
When you rearrange the letters:
TWELVE PLUS ONE

AND FOR THE GRAND FINALE:
MOTHER-IN-LAW:
When you rearrange the letters:
WOMAN HITLER

kinda cool huh hahaha. anyways. if you thought that it was over. maybe it wasn't. but og well. maybe i just gotta tell myself to be rigid with my decisions. i don't know. sighs. someone help me out here please? anyways. english exam was yesterday and it was kinda tricky. quite hard. but i expected that kinda stuff to come out. hope do well hahaha.

anyways
much love!

2006-09-25T23:36:00.000+08:00

hey people.
i'm so sorry i havent update my blog for like 2 days. been realy busy and stuff.haha. yes.so anways. its been really stressful thses coupla days. listening to JT now. Like i love you. its not a new song i think. anyways. urms. got real bad marks for the english mock exam. got like 23/50 for it. gosh. did so badly. hahaha.

TRIGO GRAPH and CIRCULAR MEASURE test on THURSDAY! must STUDY! okays. that done. wednesday is English Paper 1 and Paper 2 exams. now lemme like WISH EVERYONE GOOD LUCK AND GOD BLESS EVERYONE!! hahaha.

i'm feeling so lethargic now. went to KAP to study just now with kee kee and xenx. studied quite a lot. i kinda was slacking. was so dead of trying to work hhaha. so just slackked. haha. anyhows. i think i'll end here. before that, i wana THANK WEN JING!! ahaha. she gave me this music thing haha. cute. everyone around my place lvoed it. so haha.

anyhows, till here then,
much love